~!dA.アイダ~S.m.i.l.e with me & B.e.l.i.e.v.e

2011-03-25T21:44:00.007+08:00

Counting down to your birthday, 26th March 2011

A special day for a special boy whose heart i called mine

It's a pity his side is not where I am now

But we both know that the days for us to cuddle and smile

Can't be too far away from now

Today you turned 25 years old

and soon i will do too

Growing up has never been so fun and whole

with all the laughters i shared with you, oh and the tears we had too

The funny thing is i never feel days are old with you

no matter how things will change or how long the journey will lead us

I always want to remember there is only one you and only really just you

that will make the perfect you and me, the perfect us^^

Babe, im not very good at this but I still want to write something for you on your birthday

so bear with me and let our hearts do the magic

Because it is only with you whom I want to spend my days

and one day may we walk hand in hand towards our most wonderful dream^^

I Love YOU with all my heart!

(a little parcel of love for you)

and oh yes, I miss you very much too!

26th March, 2011

Your 10th Birthday with me and with God's blessing

From here on, more blissful days and lovely birthdays to come.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Darling!

Forever yours, da

2011-02-25T15:12:00.010+08:00

Being part of this and that

Well, my first post for year 2011! Great^^even after so long... Without realizing, it has been 5 months since i was back from Japan. So where was I in this 5 months?what have I done?what have i experienced? Many.

Coming back from Japan seems to be the beginning. I was getting busy for Convocation and making arrangements for my family. Mum and sister and brother-in-law happily came for my ceremony. It was exciting being able to wear the big heavy robe and finally with the mortarboard on our heads, we smiled proudly for the award of our first degree. My mother was being extra happy for her achievement. It was heart-warming for me. I called my graduation 'her' achievement as I will not be who I am standing at where I am if is not for her love and support. I know this must have mean alot to her as I can see the smile on her face and the sparkles in her eyes! Yes mum, we did it! I'm so proud and blessed to have you as my beloved mother. God, Thank you.

My Family

My dearest mother

Sisters!

After graduation in September, October stepped in. It was an emotional October for me. Lots of reflection and feeling confessions that were bubbling inside me. It was unavoidable. There was no place to hide my feelings. I have never missed someone more like how i missed him. He is the one. The one who will be there for me along the road and the one who will hold my hand no matter what. I was terribly disappointed with myself for not being able to see that when troubles in life came and took control over me. But he was there. He is my everything. I thanked God for giving me and giving us a new fresh start to reconnect our hearts and souls. This is it. We both knew it, is now and forever.I have always love him and always will. It had been an emotional and heart-challenging process, but nothing beats a good come back and from that moment on, love has conquered our hearts and filled our life with happiness and laughters again...That's how the magic of love works! I'm so blessed and being in love with him is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. You and I, our hearts are one. Praise the Lord!^^

My dearest Sean Ho Chun Han, my first love, my best friend and my greatest companion...

Baby, I LOVE YOU.

While I have this great man with me riding the roller coaster of life, I was stuck with making decisions for my career. I am determined to be a teacher. However, the only thing i wasn't expecting was having the chance to be a foreign language teacher! I had been thinking of getting into secondary school and doing my best to make full use of my skills and knowledge of a Science teacher. Life is always unpredictable^^

There I was, during my final semester, being offered a chance to continue training as a Japanese Language teacher in tertiary level. It was a wonderful opportunity. The only part that kept me in doubt is being put on list for quite some time. I was told that I had successfully passed the interview for faculty in December, but ended up waiting for almost 2 months now for the confirmation of position by the Senate.=( At times, it was difficult. But I trust God as there will always be sunshine behind grey skies. I have started teaching Basic Japanese classes and being pay by hour basis. The classes are exciting. As I have students enjoying my class and sharing thoughts and feelings for the language and making exploration for the country, the people and the culture. It was rewarding in terms of contentment and self-satisfaction for teaching as you have students calling you "Sensei" and can't wait to join your class the following week.^^ However, due to my 'young' look (haha), some students of mine are not convinced that I am able to teach at such young age. Well, what do you think? =p

It can't be helped if I'm looking young as a teacher because I am young! hahaha. you dont get such experience everytime! we all will grow old some day, it is just the matter of time. So let time do its job and as for our part, living life to the fullest is the most important thing to remember!

New year, new resolutions, new hope!

To my family (mummy, sister, little sister),

I always pray for their happiness and good health. Especially my mum, finally it was settled. It's time to move on and get life colorful with new colors! My sister, being married for one year, I hope I can get some nephews and nieces as soon as possible!!!hahaha...and to my dearest little sister, being by yourself, travelling all around the world, fill your eyes and heart with beautiful things and may you always have guardian angels with you to keep you safe.

Both October Babies^^

I love you all.

To my love of life,

Darling, my world has all the wonderful things again with you in it. Thank you for everything and I know, our future will be beautiful as long as we keep our fingers crossed and our heart close to each other. There is no one like you. Be in love and in happiness always just like how you have made my days^^I'm with you till the end.

Life is different with you in it. It's great!

To myself,

There is no easy way to achieve success and happiness in life. Be true to yourself. Love yourself and love those who love you. Treat people with sincerity and you will get hearts full of love back to fill your days with blessings and hope. Do your best in what you do best and have great faith in God that He is there for you to guide you through any obstacles. Smile and believe He has a plan for you!

Like He always has...for my life!

Happy 2011!!! God bless you!

2010-09-09T20:38:00.011+08:00

日本、さようなら！またね！～★

ただいま！
マレーシアへ帰りました！

Finally, 6 weeks had passed in a blink of an eye.how time flies!!! First I was busy preparing stuff going to Japan, the next thing i know, I'm back with a heart full of stories to share about what i saw and did in Japan, the beautiful people i met from 13 different countries and the most of all, the wonderful time spent making full use of my Japanese Language.

I sure miss many things about Japan.I'm still missing it.

But undeniably, is always feel so good to be back home.though im not exactly home yet, reached Johor lasnite around 1130p.m. I had started my journey back home since 830a.m. Japan's time and travelled on the plane for more than 7 hours due to two transits.What a day.slept most of the time during the flight from Japan to KK.Then spent the time talking with an uncle from KK to KL.by the time flying back from KL to Johor, i slept throughout the flight.Then reached my place in Johor 15 mins before 12 and had a good time chatting with my dear housemates about Japan.haha.is always great to get a good chat!

Finally, no more waking up before 6am in the morning.haha.today i slept till around 8a.m. woke up and did some unpacking. it's already mid sem break for UTM, hardly see any students in Tmn U. I met up with my Japanese Sensei and we decided to have Tendon at Sushi King for lunch. When i tasted the rice, i missed Japan even more!!!! i missed the gohan!!!and the miso soup~and the ocha~ huhu.nothing here can compare to those food which you can get anywhere all around Japan.

Had such a great time sharing with Sensei especially when talking about Tsukuba University. I wish to go study now! but everything still has to wait.and I will wait. Now all i do is focus on my JLPT N1 exam which i had registered for this coming Dec and as what it's important now is to get myself even more ready for my convo, my interview and my exam!!!

Spent the afternoon emailing my sensei in Japan. Before i even message my Homevisit family, i ard got the email from my Okaa-san. It was sooooo nice of her to send me an email concerning whether i have reached and attached a photo which she took during the Closing Ceremony of my 6 weeks programs in Japan.

(That's me receiving my certificate from the Most honourable person of the Kansai Centre.
Okaasan took it.^^)

This two lovely person is my お父さんandお母さん.The guy standing next to me is Ei-san who comes from Shanghai, China is my partner for the Home visit. He's a really nice guy and it's been my pleasure to meet him and as a team in many different activities during the program.

we do have the feeling of a family, dont we?hehe.I love this photo.

I guess things are getting back on track for me now.Rest for another few days i need to start my intensive study for my exam. I'll do my best!!!!

がんばれ～！がんばれ！～

日本、またね！☆⋆

2010-09-05T19:20:00.007+08:00

Good bye Pn. Habsah

Today i got to know a really sad news.

A teacher of mine, who was one of my teacher-in-charge for School Club during my secondary school passed away this morning. To my secondary school friends, im sure you know Pn. Habsah who taught Account subject and also IT subject. I heard from my friend it was cancer. I was really sad and i cant believe what i heard.

... ...

I had a nap today because i was not really feeling good. the aircon was too cold eventhough i already adjusted it to 28 degree. i even open my window to get some fresh air the whole day long. I had a sad dream which i dreamt of attending her funeral. It was really unusual as i dont normally dream during nap time.but i guess i was really going to miss her and was thinking about her whole day.

My dear Pn. Habsah,
I will always remember you.

May your soul rest in peace.

God bless your soul.

A sad day for me~ =(

2010-08-30T21:19:00.008+08:00

Loving yourself

Last night, i wrote a post in my fb.

"Sometimes cares fall on deaf ears,sometimes love brings so much hurt,at times hearts seem so near yet is so far and at times u dont understand why.You can never tell a child what is he going to be when he grows up,bt you can tell him how he can be better.I can never know what is there for me tomorrow,but i know i can smile now and make today a day to remember.You only live for once,so do it now!Love yourself~"

In life,so many ups and downs to go through.we never know what is going to happen next.Things can be complicated, things can be simple.It just depends on how you take it i guess. I'm a simple girl i think. simple things can make me very happy. when sometimes things just turn out to be aint as simple as i thought they should be and making my heart sad, i'll just have ice cream!!!haha.funny though...but it works, all-the-time!!! especially oreo cookie vanilla ice cream, it works the best! =p I just love being myself.

It's my final week in Japan.Ill be having my final presentation on Wednesday. There will be a total of three presentations.

1. The Partner University Visit
2. The Interview
3. The Poem

and guess wad, for the interview they actually will make it live on ustream on the internet. This is the first time they do it. But is my first time too! haha.going to present in a formal settings in full japanese!!!

Wanna share my first time with me?? I'll be glad to have you all with me during my presentation.I'll do my best~just dont laugh at my japanese language.hehe^^

here's the time to watch the live stream of my group presentation, my group will be the second to present so it will be around 1350-1400 i think.

Japan time: 13 30 - 15 40/Malaysia time: 1230 - 1440

http://www.ustream.tv/channel/%E7%A0%94%E4%BF%AE%E7%99%BA%E8%A1%A8%E4%BC%9A

Or you can reach the live broadcast at this address too.
http://www.ustream.tv/user/kansaicentre

im really going to remember all the things i did here in Japan. It is such a life-experiencing. Thanked God for my beautiful life.I'll be having a busy week. After my presentation on Wednesday,i'll be off to KYOTO and NARA!!! cant wait to visit that beautiful place in Japan.but first thing first, presentation preparation!!!~

so im going off to practise my poem...haha.a japanese poem,interesting~

Let's have a beautiful dream tonight.
Nite nite~

またね～★⋆

2010-08-29T20:44:00.006+08:00

A Sunday in Japan

After a long day out in Osaka,today i find staying in my room doing pretty much nothing is something i enjoyed too.

woke up as usual at 630am, had a wonderful breakfast like always and started tidying my room~it was kinda messy for me since it was a busy week with the travelling and preparation for presentation.finally,i get a tidy room but still a table full of materials.hmmm~books and stuffs.my table is always full!

well,had a good lunch and a great chit chat with Katie in the centre canteen. It was so much fun chatting with her practically about everything!!!im going to miss her so much!!i know i sure will!~we were talking about our up coming Kyoto.Nara trip when we started to talk about shika, which means deer in Japanese. She was telling me that the shika in Kyoto are like running around the park without even bother about anything.In New Zealand, you cant really see shika cuz they are hiding in the bushes so that they wont be shot by hunters!!! and i was like...what?? I have shika in my Uni but they were in cages so that they wont run around and definitely no one's going to shoot them i think.

then we had this crazy thought that, what if we put the Kyoto's shika to New Zealand, the New Zealand's shika to UTM and UTM's shika to Kyoto.what will the situation be???

so the Kyoto's shika in NZ will be like:" why is everyone shooting at us??why????"
NZ's shika in UTM will be like:"Ouch~why is there cage around us? where's the bushes?where??where??"
lastly,UTM's shika in Kyoto will be going:"Why is this cage so big??I cant see the end of it!u sure??where's the food?"

hahahaha.it was so funny when we were doing the shika's expression...haha.gosh,tats really funny at that moment!

how funny when even animals are so used to their environment,they actually had their mind set on it.
what more it is for humans?=)
we really should be experiencing and getting to know more before we had our head stuck on to something which might not be the same at different time,different places with different people!!!

is cool though to hang out with her^^I love u KATIE!!!

now,is almost 10pm in Japan which is about one hour earlier in Malaysia.but im feeling a bit sleepy as im doing my stuff for the presentation preparation and having Ume Wain at the same time.It's tasty and smells really good too~^^

Drinking Japanese wine while listening to Japanese songs under the night sky in Japan...this is really something worth remembering!!!

I'm happy. Thank you dear God.

Guess i'll be off to bed soon.Sweet dreams.

お休みなさい～

2010-08-29T07:38:00.016+08:00

A day with myself in OSAKA

I had the most wonderful day yesterday!☆☆～

Since this is my last 2nd weekend in Osaka, i decided to buy myself the one-day pass for Osaka visit which cost me 2300yen and I used it yesterday.

My plan was to visit 6 places,

1. The Teunoji Zoo
2. The Sakuya Great Observatory
3. The Maritime Museum
4. The Stata Maria
5. The Umeda Hep Five Ferrie Wheel
6. The Floating Garden of Osaka

My day trip started at Rinku town where i boarded the 8:47a.m. Nankai Line train.Let me list out my route.is kinda cool as u get to experience how convenient is the Train system in Japan!＾＾

０８４７　りんくうタウン（南海線）　→　天下茶屋（堺筋線）　→　動物園前

｢天王寺動物園｣　admission fee: 500yen

１１４０　動物園前（堺筋線）→　長堀橋(長堀鶴見緑地線）　→　鶴見緑地

｢咲くやこの花館｣ admission fee: 500yen

１３０３　鶴見緑地(長堀鶴見緑地線）　→　森ノ宮（中央線）　→　コスモクエア

｢なにわの海の時空館｣ admission fee: 600yen

１５０６　コスモクエア（中央線）→　大阪港

｢サンタマリア｣ admission fee:1600yen

１７００　大阪港（中央線）　→　本町（御堂筋線）　→　梅田

｢HEP FIVE 観覧車｣ admission fee: 500yen

｢空中庭園展望台｣admission fee: 700yen

２０５０　梅田（御堂筋線）　→　難波（南海線）　→　２１４１　りんくうタウン^^

I was so happy that i managed to visit all these places according to my plan and the trip was so worth it!!!the admission fee was already 4400yen even without the charge of train fees.I had a great time walking around, sightseeing and taking pictures to keep as my memories. I know my mum will be really happy and i might be spending the night telling her about the places i ve been. One day, il bring her and my dear sisters around Japan too^^

I even did some shopping in Umeda Hep Five Shopping mall^^hehe.thought of buying a backpack as mine has a large rip infront.but i cant find anything orange that i like!haha.il definitely get something orange for my new bag. I didn got a bag in the end, but i bought a top for myself. simple as it is, i like it^^

It was really a great experience going around the city by myself. I was supposed to meet up with my friends at the Maritime Museum but eventually we failed to do so.without having their numbers,i was unable to contact them. By myself,i did enjoyed my journey and i know this will be one of my most unforgetable day!!!^^

Another 10 more days to go before this program ends and i'll be heading back to Malaysia. Im sure going miss my dayssssss in Japan!!! till i write again, il make sure il spent the rest of my time in Japan to the fullest!!!

２０１０年８月１６日、大阪

またね～

2010-08-26T19:23:00.010+08:00

Tadaima~

Back to Osaka.

A total of 4 hours 32 minutes travelling (I told u already how Japanese are so precise with time^^) with a distance of 666.5km!haha.I'm back safe and sound.A little tired from the travelling but i think il do fine with a good night sleep later~

Finally, I can say, "Tsukuba University, I was there!" Of course if i got the chance i would like to say, "Yea, I'm from Tsukuba University^^" but i guess that's going to be another one or two years before i can know whether I can go. I look forward to it~

This week just pass in a blink of eye! Tomorrow is friday and I'll be having a session to learn about Japanese Drum 太鼓(Taiko). Though i had a little exposure done back in Tsukuba this morning, cant wait to do it again with my UP buddies^^

Take a look at the pictures took this morning for the Japanese Musical Instruments & Odori(dance) exposure.

we had so much fun.the students even did some performances which was overwhelming especially how they perform with such lively spirit!

watch it for yourself and feel the beat!!!

It was cool isnt it?! we all enjoyed ourself^^

guess wad i'm doing now? waiting for my laundry.haha.after a busy week, is time to get my clothes washed especially since i didn bring many of them =p then again wad now? I have to do HOMEWORK~

My reflection of first two weeks

haha.yea, we are required to write memos about what we know about the Japanese Society and Culture(the white memos) and about the Japanese language that we learned*(the blue memos) during a certain period. It's useful to me. At least i get to write out what I see, I hear, I think and I feel~ it sorts out your learning process and you actually see all the pieces as a whole after u finish writing them all out.=)

guess i need to get on with my homework now.hehe.feels nice to have the study feeling even though im "half" officially graduated!hahaha.learning never stops! So always be ready to learn.

頑張ってね！
また～

2010-08-26T07:03:00.006+08:00

Greetings from Tsukuba, Ibaraki

I am here.

A view in 筑波大学（Tsukuba University）, JAPAN

おはようございます！

Here I am, writing from my room, in Tsukuba University, with a yukata on me^^just had a delicious sandwich and orange juice for breakfast. i woke up around 6 as usual.still waking up tat time as in Japan, summer time has shorter nights.so the day gets bright very early and my biological clock cant stop waking me up!haha.well,waking up to a beautiful morning is a blessing. i love that feeling!~

will be leaving Tsukuba and heading back to Osaka today. Another 5 hours on traveling and by Shinkansen from ShinTokyo Station to ShinOsaka station and back to Kansai Centre. Will be friday soon and that leaves only 2 more weeks in Japan. Time flies!!! but there's always an end before every new beginning.

After being back from Japan, is going to be a new stage of life for me. I hope il be call for interview soon.but by the time im back,il be busy with my convocation ceremony too. how excited to be able to finally able to say, "mummy, i've graduated!!! thank you and I love u!!!"haha.i know she will be really happy. again, this is another achievement in my life that i want to share with all those whom I love very much. Though some things in life is going to be different now, but i know there will always be a better tomorrow that we can look forward to!!!

Hope, is the best gift that one can give to oneself and happiness will definitely come knocking on our door one day!!!

Smile, 'cuz life can always be beautiful with a contented heart~

じゃあ…またね～

2010-08-23T18:38:00.007+08:00

Partner University Visit

Finally, I'm going to visit the one university in Japan that i heard so much about it during the days learning Japanese with Kumar Sensei. With Thomas from France and Eva from Solvenia, we will be taking the Shinkansen at 10:47 a.m. tomorrow at the Shinosaka Train Station.

It is amazing how Japanese are so precise with the time. Take for example, in my schedule that i received from the University for our arrival, we are expected to reach at 14:37p.m. where there will be 3 students expecting our arrival. Talking about the time and talking about being on time, Japanese are not just saying it but definitely doing it as well. I think this is something that is worth to follow that makes u not only leaving a good impression for people but also training your time management and discipline yourself^^

No photos to share yet. but i reckon there will be lots after my visit. For now, i saw some Himawari on my way back from the supermart. I love these flowers. too bad hardly see them growing in Malaysia. If i can,il plant them myself one day and i will want a whole garden of them^^it always remind me of the sun which makes me feel warm and strong.

that's wad i will always be^^またね！

2010-08-22T21:02:00.005+08:00

GREETINGS from JAPAN!

Today is August 22nd,2010. It is summer in Japan.

Here I am, sitting in front of my laptop, decided on my blog's new background and did a bit of changes to it. I do miss my old template but i kinda like did it too fast and forgot to save the old template's CSS.haha.well, there goes my old template. Sayounara~

Looking back, how i miss blogging. I used to write about my University life and the thoughts that run through my mind. It's always nice to read about wad was written and remembers the feeling of the particular moments. Then, it was slowly left without updates. Poor thing. Therefore, hereby i give it a new look and as time goes by, i hope i will be writing more about my journey from here, the beautiful things i see, the wonderful people i met and generally about the things i want to share.

I was in Japan since July 28th,2010. After a long 7 hours flight, i was able to set my foot for the first time in a foreign land that gives me the feeling of 'so close yet so far'. Being here is like a dream came true. I had been telling myself that i would want to come to Japan one day. That one day eventually came when i was told by Sensei that i will be going for this Japanese Language Program in Osaka.

How time flies.from the moment i was informed, getting ready with all the necessary registration and visa application, here i am, already completing more than half of the program.This is my fourth week and there will be another two weeks to go.GANBATTE ne! is all im telling myself all the time. Seeing others being so good at Japanese Language just makes me want to become better. Time & determination is all it takes to reach there^^Go for it!

Again,not just wanting to become better, i want to become stronger. Stronger mind and stronger faith, tats all i need now.To be clear about what I want to be and what is important in life.Though it has been a rough road ever since dad made his own decision and left us to continue our life by ourselves, I just know God is watching over me and time will tell everything.

1 more month to go for my graduation!Im feeling extremely excited!Will be able to meet my dear coursemates and friends again. To be able to share the happiness and the joy of achievements and to be able to step onto a new journey upon completing one which was filled with so much memories, I know it will be so beautiful~definitely, anticipating^^

Is going to be Monday again. Another exciting week in Japan. I will be going to Tokyo by Shinkasen again but this time not to explore Tokyo but to visit our Partner University which is Tsukuba University. I always hear the story of campus life in Tsukuba Uni from Sensei, finally i got the chance to see it for myself. How wonderful! I will treasure every moment. In addtion, i will be meeting Yamashita, Asuka, Mamiko & Tanaka again! It is amazing how things work. For that moment, total strangers become friends. As fate steps in, now we will be seeing each other and share the common piece of of life.Life is wonderful~

I pray for a beautiful week to come~Let's make everyday our best day to live!

Till then, will be writing again.
皆さん、一緒に頑張りますね！

2010-04-03T17:21:00.008+08:00

A new Beginning~Happy Easter everyone!

cant believe is Easter again~ n i cant believe how long had i "abandoned" my blog and left it to dim...=p my bad~

now, here i am, typing my words into my blog again. Maybe is the right time, is Easter, a new beginning.

Praise the Lord for He is risen! Praise the Lord!

I attended Good Friday mass yesterday. still not in time to be home to attend mass with mum and sis this year. Peace be with you, mum and let love fill our hearts too. It's been a hard year. Yes, one year it is. Glad we still can find beautiful things to talk about and laugh over silly funny stuffs. Thank you dear God~

Finally, i had presented my final year project on Monday. With God's will and grace, i managed to present it with confidence and everything was wonderful. As i rest my head before a meaningful day ended, my heart was filled with gratitude yet a breeze of emptiness swept me. I want to get rid of it. I want to let him know i have achieved something today. Call me your child, I always have been. Only that you might forgot the joy of having three. I want to let him know. Maybe one day he will know.

Now back to study week, but trust me, this is the first study week that i feel so not "study week" and the last time to feel. haha. is my final semester for my four years study. I am going to complete this journey in a matter of three weeks, with the four final papers. Thank god. I've reached here. Im grateful. I felt like i ve been running...running... to take up speed, wanting to spread my wings and wanting to fly... towards the blue sky. I guess now i can say that, my wings are spreading...only waiting to take off anytime. Is coming to an end, my university life, a life i never expected but too much to appreciate. But for every new beginnings to come, an end must meet. There's a new start for me. At least that one can bring me one step closer to my dreams...being a teacher.

Whether a school teacher or not, there's no doubt my dream to become a teacher will come true. I have been blessed with an offer to be a Japanese Language teacher...yes, is a blessing. even though is still in the progress for my application to be approved (have to get my first degree first), i will keep my fingers crossed. my heart too. Mummy, just a few more weeks. I'll be back to you. A daughter of yours, whom you love and never leave alone, with love that you given, i'll love u twice more than that. with all the support you gave, is time for you to lay back and let me be the pillar for your heart.

i'll stay strong as i ever will be. Nothing will be forever the same. little girl grows up and teary eyes open up. dark clouds will disappear and the sun will shine its warm ray and penetrate heart of stone. we will be alrite. Just like God promise, he never waste a hurt. He is always there.=)

Easter is here. so as grandpa and grandma's wedding anniversary. how things change in just four years. no one knows better. but im glad four years had passed and im glad i've see things go on until where i standing now...

Easter is a blessing. be blessed.I know i always have been.

Thank you God. I'll do my best in my final papers^^always will!

2009-08-23T13:02:00.003+08:00

^^ My pieces of thoughts^^

many thoughts may run through your mind..sometimes i feel so much better after i wrote it out and expressing them in my words...these are some of the shout-outs i wrote in my facebook for the past 2 months..haha..i enjoy reading them over and over again cuz they remind me of my feelings and how i overcome them or how i feel about life...so for those who read it for the first time, i hope u will like them just the way i do..=) cheers

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When you lost something important, u have to learn to let go cuz even u know it wont come back anymore. Issues of the past should be forgotten and forgiven, only by making peace with our past, we wont spoil out present. Agree to disagree cuz u dont have to win every argument. Just smile and relax. Live your life with choices you wont regret cuz u only have one life. Take my smile and keep it^^be blessed!~

August 20, 2009

Life can be so colourful & beautiful when you open your heart to others. Basket of love, joy & hapiness are meant to share, so they will always be full. So, always take TOO much pictures, laugh TOO much and love with ALL your heart. You never know when you will lost the chance to do all that. Hold on to your faith and dreams, hold on to my heart, I'll always be there to shine for you^^be blessed.cheers.

August 17, 2009

Simple moments are worth remembering for a lifetime; simple happiness are worth sharing with friends ^ loved ones at anytime. Life's too short to be wasted on complications. When things turn out the way you didn expect them to be, smile cuz they happened^^ What is hurting u, not killing u, makes u stronger each day & always take in charge of your own happiness^^be blessed with abundant smiles and good health. Cheers!!

August 8, 2009

A heart of gold, no one will let go. A heart of stone, no one will go for. But most of the time, we have a heart made of water, it melts & sometimes broken after harden. Wish i have a heart with lots of sunshine, so i can feel the warmth whenever i need it. Love yourself, simle cuz there's always be a better tomorrow^^you will never know how your smile can shine throught the rain of the world. God bless our hearts.

August 2, 2009

Lately, physically and mentally challenged!!!but still, reminding myself to find time for a smile, share my faith of love and sprinkle a little happiness of mine. Life aint all about what you achieved in the end, but is the process that counts, making you who you are in the eyes of our loving God!!keep my head up and my heart strong^^my angel, never let me fall!!

July 28, 2009

Words can be harsh at times, so speak gently; you never know who's heart you will hurt. Acts can be misleading at times so act wisely; you never know what trouble you will get yourself into^^My guardian angel, walk with me & hold my hands so im not alone in the dark & that your wings will cover me from the eyes of the world. I'll remember to keep my heart strong and go for my dreams!maybe one day dreams fo come true.cheers!!

July 26, 2009

To ask for what is not yours is unrightful; to be thankful for what you have is a blessing. Some things in this world may be overwhelming but they are not lasting. Only people who love and appreciate you for who you are can give u the meaning of life. Dont overlook & step away, one day u might realised that you have missed that very piece of you which is meant to make you life complete^^be blessed be loved~

July 21, 2009

I hold an angel today & she hugged me. She smells my hair & smiles at me with her heart. Some people are so lucky but they forget how to be happy. Others may not be that fortunate but they are blessed with happiness. May you always find the reason to smile and live your life to the fullest. Always keep your heart for the special ones and one day you will find your angel. I'll keep my finger crossed. God blessed^^

July 19, 2009

The world has too many eyes, but not many hearts. Eyes can be deceitful, but not your heart. Remember is the inner beauty that is what worth you going for. You are who you are, special & precious in your own gentle way. Smile with your heart. Only those who understand will see it^ cheers!!

July 17, 2009

Whatever life brings you, take it, hold it and treasure it. You never know what is coming for you. Whatever love shows you, bear it, share it & cherish it. you never know what is life until u love & sometimes get hurt by it. Smile with your heart & be happy. Life's too short.

June 20, 2009

Dont measure your success or failure by material wealth but how you feel. Our feelings determine the richness of our life & feelings dont lie. Love with your heart & your heart will be loved. cheers.

June 16, 2009

Dont ever forget how we laugh, yesterday was a piece to remember. Dont ever be too proud to cry ot be sad, today is a time to cherish. Dont ever be too stubborn to smile, tomorrow will be our day to shine!!!cheers!!

June 7, 2009

快乐=简单，简单=快乐。做人简简单单，为善最乐。爱也要简简单单，知足常乐。何乐而不为呢？愿大家快乐，不要忘了笑咯！！

June 7, 2009

2009-08-22T00:48:00.017+08:00

AUGUST is back^^

time flies!!!is almost end of august and today is the first day of Bulan Ramadhan^^

To all my Muslim Friends & students,

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN RAMADHAN
&
SELAMAT BERPUASA!!!

i still remember last year this time im in STF having my teaching practical.one of the most memorable teaching experience i had and will always be the sweetest memories in my teaching life. i hope the teachers and the girls are doing really well and happy. i met some of the last year form 3 girls at McD 2 weeks ago..they still remembered me and called me "teacher ida"..haha...i was really happy =p miss you all very much!!~hope to see u all real soon.

orange!!!wakakaka...

this is my 7th week of the semester dy. supposed to have a mid-break at the 7th week for every semester.however, not this semester. the mid-sem break will be combine with the raya break at the 12th week which will start sometime around 20th September...so, there's still around 3 more weeks to go^^ tired but satisfying are the words i want to use to describe my life here for the past few weeks.....just finished with SUKAM 2009!~got 6th for high-jumping, no place for netball(girls) but 1st runner up for the Netball boys!!!i'm proud to say that, im their trainer^^hahaha...enjoyed it so much!!supposed to take part in Tennis single, but i sprained left ankle during my netball game..so i have to give up my tennis =( but still i have to take care of my ankle^^i need my legs!!~haha...cant afford to injure myself during this pack season =p

everyday are well-spent with quizzes, assignments, lab reports and especially tests for this two weeks.. but last week,i was involved with a "Kem Pendidikan" program for the form 5 students from schools under DUN Pasir Raja^^ it was one of the best camp ever & i really enjoyed myself for that 3 days 2 nights camp at my college.

3 indian girls were staying with me as there's no enough empty rooms to accommodate 170 students. so some of the facillitators will take in some of them and have extra roomates^^ the girls, Mangalay, Sangeetha & Puva are such sweet girls...they were very happy when they get to know that they are staying with me...haha...others were asking them to exchange with them cuz they wanted to stay with me =p it was nice having them around. they even helped me to clean my room!!!! haha...didn had much time to be in my room since the program was pack with activities and we had only 6 days for all the preparation. I was one of the head for publicity with my partner Raj.

we designed the banner, the poster, the facillitators' nametags, the certificates...haha..i enjoyed all the process...it was great^^Raj and I were working wonderfully.no stress or tension at all..everything were carried out smoothly..we had a numbers of slots and games for the students...mostly fun-based but there's lots to learn from all the games that were chosen...students are happy, facis are happy and most importantly, we had FUN!!!!the facis are great and lovely people...no complaints and we work as a family. i enjoyed the presence of all of them.

the camp was last week..is saturday again..i just had my Radiochemistry Test this wednesday, Physical chemistry quiz yesterday and alot more quizzes to come...even now, im working on my microbiology quiz...take home quiz...(should be take room quiz, cuz my home very far..haha...=p)

life in uni is good and keeps me occupied. i get the chance to enjoy every busy moments and also the lazy moments when things are piled up!!~moreover, final year project, thesis to keep on track really making everyday so pack and hardly find the time to breath...ok, breath in, breath out...breath in..haha...oh, better!!! im loving my life here and i hope i can keep this up^^

i just get to know that my teacher supervisor from STF, kak shida delivered a baby boy last tuesyday!!!a fourth boy^^haha...thats wonderful..though she was hoping for a baby girl since with the three boys at home, but a baby boy is just nice to make up the four brothers^^once i heard my friend, izzah if im not mistaken, she told me, if a mother gave birth to four sons, she is said to be given birth to four leaders of tomorrow!!!so kak shida, well done!!!!god bless you and i hope you take a good rest after ur labour..is not easy^^though i dun have any experience,haha..but i know u are ard the best mother a child could have when u bring them to this world..love u^^

is been almost 2 months since i left home and came back to UTM...i do miss my mum and sisters and i pray for them everyday.i miss TIGER too^^ heard mummy said, he's very naughty...getting bigger and noiser...haha...he have a white pig soft toy in his kennel to keep him company (i put that in =p) and now he kept taking it out when mummy let him out at night which kinda annoy my mum cuz she has to put it back every morning!!!!hahaha....mummy said she's getting older and TIGER is nothing but trouble...hahaha..wish i was there...surely i'll "cubit" Tiger's butt if he's naughty...oh, i miss my Tiger BOy...=)

my sis is getting married soon!!~the lovely bride-to-be is busy preparing for her wedding and i hope everything going fine. God will bless you dear sis...just have faith and follow ur heart. is your wedding, once in a lifetime, no one else can make u happier other than you yourself..is your choice^^da jie will always here to support you...im always with you..i love u so much!!! same goes to len len..=) work hard and appreciate what God has given u..a good job, a home and your sweetheart...jie jie always pray for you..i love you too my little sister...hehe, not so little anymore, my sisters are so grown up to be gorgeous young ladies...i just pray that we will always have each other in our hearts...hugss^^

is a cold night, but somehow deep inside my heart, there's a piece of warmth..a touch of love and words of faith can sometimes be so powerful that nothing shall come in your way to bring you down...always hold on to your faith...u know you can always go further!!!love yourself and love people around u...share that basket of love that you have, so it will never be empty and happiness will come along. =)

blessed all who have love in their heart & faith in their hands.all the best for future undertakings to all my friends who just graduated during this latest CONVOCATION!!!

(Cyong koko, Janice, Wei, Csin, Rock rock, Pei Ling, Gab....& all my dear friends)

Also to my juniors who are having their mock exams for STPM. =) form 6 is not difficult but i know is not easy too. Just do your best!! dun ever give up!!u are just one step closer to a wonderful future =)

Tyng came to UTM^^so happy to see u!!hugs!!

have a sweet sweet sweet day^^cheers!!

me^^ hehe...
take care dear friends!!

2009-06-30T13:34:00.007+08:00

陪我聊聊

昨晚，被心爱的电脑“折腾“了一整个通宵。不知为何，下午用过后，关上然后睡午觉，一觉醒来，却不能进入windows！！！我的天哪？！不是开玩笑的吧！没有电脑，我在大学还能活像个人吗？好啦，是我夸张了点。不过，昨晚的心情啊...真得很不爽！明明是架新机，应该没那么快就让我失望吧。试了很多次，最后投降了，决定尝试最不想选择的选择，reformat吧！！问题是，我不曾亲自下手，我以前的旧机，也是托我大学一位电脑佼佼者--jacky帮我解决，我也只有坐在他身旁，看他神速的手，按着电脑键，挞挞挞...搞定！哈哈~昨晚呢？jacky还在家乡实习，大学的朋友也没几个回来，还好有几位朋友，拔刀相助，给了我一些指示，我就决定自己来reformat咯！

哈哈~终于！~=p 现在能上网，写写部落，我对自己还有一点点满意（真的是一点点啦！第一次嘛）。哈哈...好玩！诶朋友，谢谢咯！

下星期，新学期就正式开始了。而我也“荣升”老学姐了。四年了，同年进入大学的朋友们，修了三年的课程，都将在来临的八月出席毕业典礼了！！恭喜恭喜！毕业咯！带四方帽了~好开心！我也要，不过那要等多一年咯~我不只要带四方帽，我要开心地把我妈抱紧紧，给她带四方帽，告诉她：妈咪，你女儿毕业了！你女儿可以当老师咯！哈哈~我是不是高兴得有点太早？管我勒。开心就好！

今天是外婆去世一周年。我妈和妹妹一大早就起身，要到十七哩为外婆献花。不过，在天还没亮之前，隔壁的木屋不知怎样着火了！！刚才，我妈在电话里告诉我事情的发生，把她吓得脚软软。因为，就在大约一年前，我家也发生了一场小火灾。不过这小火灾造成的损失就没那么“小'了。整间屋子变得黑漆漆，每一个表面都被厚厚的黑烟尘盖上。什么都是黑的，连白色的天花板都...不知道我家天花板是白色的人，还以为我家是黑色古堡，怎么那么黑！不过，事情发生的时候，我都不在古晋，那天是去年七月，我回柔佛准备教学实习的第一天！

大家放心。我家已经慢慢从“黑暗中”走出来。刚过完的六个星期假期，就是我委任为家里的“清洁部部长”的值勤期。每天都要收拾家里，打扫清理，不是开玩笑的！很累诶~哈哈...不过还蛮享受的，因为无忧无虑，想把东西怎样摆就怎样摆，一个人收得无聊的时候，就把音响开大声，边舞动着我那“大头”，边把一堆堆，像小山的书抹掉灰尘，排列整齐。让自己在书房选书解闷的时候也不会感到杂乱。

那六个星期的假期，我在家最喜欢的时间就是和我的宝贝玩乐！我好想他！相信有我fb的朋友们都知道他是谁吧？他是我的老虎仔。他是...

tiger!!!

哈哈...看到这张照片，我就会忍不住要笑！什么表情？？头好像要被斩了，还装可爱。每一次，他都来这个臭招。把自己的头故意塞在那里就算了，然后就发出那好像几年没人睬的可怜叫声，让我每次都以为发生什么事。由于他的头只能进不能出，所以我必须把小门打开，然后他才能把头伸回去。不过，他每次就趁这个时候，像一只没脑的大熊，冲出来！！！故意的！吃了几次他的招，我也学聪明了，每次他以这样，我开了门，一脚踩在他的头，把他给推进去，看谁比谁厉害？！哈哈。

不过，他还真的很很很可爱！他的温暖窝是新建的，我一手设计的。就差没有亲手把它钉完，因为还没厉害到那个程度。由于家里的木还蛮多的，所以就不要浪费了。这个tiger,幸福到爆！里面还有一只小猪（他的娃娃），一个大枕头，一个大桶（不是他的厕所，是他的水壶）还有一个大毛巾，给他遮太阳！是不是很幸福？很温暖吧？要不要进去住一下？哈哈。还有，我还为tiger的颈上绑上“我长大了欢乐营“的橙色围巾！哈哈。可爱吧！

把他搬进新屋后，每个傍晚，我就会开门让他出去“做生意”。我怀疑我这个宝贝有洁癖，他从不在他的新屋里大解或小便！（就只有搬进去的第一天，应该是吓到才大便在里面吧！哈哈）所以，傍晚时分，他一看到我从屋子里出来，他就已经准备好，站在他的小门，尾巴摇到过分，还有那个嘴巴好像在笑！（有点恐怖）一打开大门，咻！不见了。不知去那里找地盘，惹人了。放心，tiger不会咬人，可是他的体型每次吓死人，他的吠声也不是开玩笑，很大声！有一次，把邻居小孩吓哭了！给我打屁股~可怜的小孩，那晚不知睡得下吗？现在，我回大学了，没有机会每天疼他的大头，给他食物，帮他冲凉，我还真的很想他！！以后自己有家，我一定要养狗！嘻~我喜欢大只的狗种，就好像tiger这类型的。我不知道他是什么品种，不过他和他爸还长得一模一样，只是它比较笨样咯！哈哈。但永远是我的宝贝。

大头狗

很快地，我回来大学也有一个星期多了。由于变换新家具，我的宿舍还没好，所以就暂时和朋友住在felo的屋子。很不错哦~不只可以无线上网，还有免费冷气享用。=p 好几次想要打网球，但碍于我的球鞋还被收在储藏室，根本没有鞋子运动。昨天，下了决心，要买一双新网球鞋奖励自己在上个学期，“生存”下来，所以...太棒了！有新鞋穿！=）

鞋子有了，网球拍拿回了，有谁要来和我过两招？随时奉陪！=)

没伴陪我玩，还真的很扫兴~也希望今天下午不要再下雨了。不然，我又会被我温暖的被子给引诱，去会周公了！

2009-06-30T02:55:00.008+08:00

失去

二零零九年六月三十日

去年今夜，我在医院里度过了一个难忘的夜晚。我想我永远都忘不了那几天，看着外婆躺在病床上，和自己挣扎，和时间挣扎，还有我们一家人那几个晚上不曾平静一刻的心情。

一年了，整整一年了~365个日子就这样走过来了。

可曾想过，在这365天没有外婆的日子是怎样过的？
可曾想过，这365天外婆离开后的日子，我又长大了多少？
还有，这365天之中发生的每一件事情、每一个片段、每一次的对话，对我和对我最亲爱的家人，到底让我们以后要走的路起了多少变化？

多少年了，在一起生活多少年了。突来的离开，让我们措手不及，连道别都没有机会。不舍得，很不舍得。

人活在世上，生老病死是不能避免的。外婆虽然年纪大，但仍然心存喜乐。我知道，外婆很想念外公。少了老伴，难免觉得孤单。她对他的思念，都在她的笔记簿里随着日子，堆得满满的。她对他的心，从没有变过；她对他的爱，从没有减过。这段美丽的爱情，永远在我心中拥有特别的回忆，就好像我对外婆的爱和思念只有自己懂。

麻麻，我很想您。
希望您在天之灵会过得很好。
希望您安息。

二零零八年六月三十日，水仙花飘花香的那一天。
外婆离开我们的那一天。

2009-06-26T12:58:00.010+08:00

自己的故事

用起伏的背影挡住哭泣的心
有些故事不必说给每个人听
许多眼睛看得太浅太近
错过我没被看见那个自己

用简单的言语解开超载的心
有些情绪是该说给懂的人听
你的热泪比我激动怜惜
我发誓要更努力更有勇气

等下一个天亮
去上次牵手赏花那里散步好吗
有些积雪会自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁达的天堂

等下一个天亮
把偷拍我看海的照片送我好吗
我喜欢我飞舞的头发
和飘着雨还是眺望的眼光

有时听歌就好像听别人和你讲故事，听着听着，偶尔会触动你的内心世界，也许你不知道，但或许你的故事也好像某某一首歌。起伏的心情，随着音乐的旋律，犹如平静的海忽然被一阵无名的风吹起，顿时的我希望我是那阵风。如果我是风，我就会把所有的不快乐吹到九霄云外；如果我是风，我就会把自己带到那最高最高的云端，然后再往下看，就会看到那不是风的我，其实是那么地渺小。

每个人都有自己的故事。故事的进展就跟着我们走人生的步伐节奏进行。要怎样走，要跟谁走，其实都是自己的选择。人的一生中都在做选择，读书/工作？接受他/不接受她？嫁给他/娶她？放弃/继续？就算有了稳定的工作，安定的生活，幸福的家庭，人还是不断地做选择。一个人的选择，有的简单、利落，有的拖拖拉拉，更有的或许都根本是不是选择的选择。难道除了那个选择，就没别的了吗？

曾经写过，“简单=快乐，快乐=简单，简简单单，为善最乐；快快乐乐，何乐而不为呢？”那是心里所想说的。随着自己长大，有些心情真的不再是文笔所能形容的。爱你，有多爱你？心痛，有多心痛？我自己也不知道，但却默默地“享受”和接受这心情。每个人经历的心情可以有很多，快乐、幸福、迷失、复杂.....都是心情。我从来不抗拒伤心的心情来侵，我认为那是让我更认识自己的一种方式。很久没有那种感觉了。现在彷佛回到第一次失恋的心情，酸酸的，心是累的。

爱过，谁舍得放弃？美过，谁舍得放手?

人的心本来是小的。每一天，新的心情都会慢慢地将心装满，不久心也渐渐地被撑大了。有一天，有些心情不见了，那时候的心就好像少了一些东西，空荡荡的，很不好受，人就一直在想办法填满它。那时的心，最容易受伤害。一个不经意，一个不是故意的心情如果来用来填补那空位，只会让心受更大的伤害，加上更深的伤痕。其实静一下，停一下，让疲惫的心喘口气，或许是对受伤的心最好的疗伤之道。

其实很多事情也有一样的道理。自己的人生，要自己走才是最美的。自己的选择，要自己决定才是最有意思的。在生命中遇见的每一个人，都有他要带给你的好与坏。有些人与你度过短短几年，但却在你生命里留下很深刻的回忆，足够改变你一生的看法。也有些人，你从不知道你的生命里可以没有他的存在，因为在你还没懂事的那一天，他已经是你生命的一部分，但是要是他有一天贸然的离去，你也应该放手。没有人可以掌握他人的选择，因为那是他的故事，他要走的路，包括是他生命一部分的你。

现在更知道，学海无涯，放手也是一门学问。没什么不应该，没什么不可以，有些事情不需要问为什么。最重要是知道自己在做什么，要的是什么。要珍惜眼前的亲人、朋友，珍惜当下拥有的东西，因为我们本来什么都没有，有了就要珍惜，没有人会永远在你身边，也没有东西是永恒的。世界会变，人更会变。只有如何去接受和明白那变化，才是给自己最大的挑战。

亲情、爱情、友情，你拥有多少？每一段情都有自己的循环。从开始到结束，就好像上课，你学到了多少？一段成功的爱情、友情还是亲情，重要的不是寻找对的人来爱（有时我们也别无选择），而是学习如何去爱你找到的那个人。当然这不是单凭口说的容易事情，需要的是时间、力气和努力，最不可缺少的就是--学问。所以不要放弃任何能让你学习的机会，包括去爱一个人，包容一个人还是想念一个人。

爱是一个选择，离开也是一个选择；两者之间，你要如何选？

愿大家都能找到自己的选择，理由是什么，或许当你看到镜子里笑得幸福的你，已经不是那么重要了。努力活出美丽的人生，没有什么是可以打倒你，有也是你自己，那时候也只有你自己可以救你了。而你，准备好了吗？=）

愿你幸福、快乐。
愿我幸福、快乐。
愿他幸福、快乐... ....

2009-06-20T22:46:00.005+08:00

而言而语

很久没有更新部落部了,有点惭愧。每次回家，自己的时间就给了家人，朋友。有时间就是懒惰时间，追看连续剧，猛看电影片，吃、喝、睡，统统是回家的优待。难免老妈看不过，会多说几句，不过我知道她还是很开心我回家了！妈咪，爱你哦！

不知怎么，时间过得特别特别快！！想起之前那等待考最后一张试卷的心情,然后自己搭飞机回家的心情，再来在家就这样过了六个星期，眨眼间，我又回到大学了,回到那熟悉的校园,回到自己在外读书的生活。

最后一年了！！大学的生活整整占了我生命册里的三大篇了。（一年一篇啦~）这次回来，即将要大笔挥章我大学生活的最后一篇了！写什么都好，最重要的是每一段都要是值得自己去写，作为将来毕业后最好的礼物，生命中美好的回忆。

最近,有了很多想法,也做了几个决定,当中也经历了一些所谓的"人生"。心情难免会有起伏不平的时候。但在波折重重的同时，我也“长大”了不少。谢谢他们，没有他们给我的经验，我哪儿会找到坚强的自己？也不会知道原来或许没有他们，我还不知道快乐和幸福是自己坚持的。

也许他们会给你伤痛，但没有人能夺走你的快乐；
也许他们会带给你悲愤，但却打不掉你对幸福的坚守。

要相信自己，就好像相信雨过总会有天晴；流过泪的眼睛，会让自己把生命看得更美丽，更珍惜自己所拥有的一切。不过有一件事，我不哭了。眼泪，要留给值得流的人而流，不要轻易弹泪。虽然我不认同很多事，也拥有许多自己的想法，不过我们不能为别人决定自己要走的路，后者对我们也一样。

笑多一个，心会更快乐，
爱多一点，心会更幸福。

晚安咯。

2009-06-20T21:58:00.004+08:00

Home, where love begins

Years passed
stories told
laughters spread
tears shared
I'm still a daughter, a sister
a special bond gifted
by someone above who loves us so much

i was home
a place in my heart
the big grey metal gate
the smell of family
the cozy couch i lay around for movies
my collection of memories
my heart...
most importantly
i have my loved ones with me

at night
i lay beside her
i watched her sleep
sometimes i wonder what's in her dreams
at times i wish i'm in her dreams
for i'll make it a sweet one
some nights we stayed up
we chat & we laugh
we share our thoughts
the best time a mother & a daughter can have
nothing can compare
the pain she bear for me
to bring me to this world
the love she pour on me
to make me who i am today

6 weeks passed by
my heart find its way
through many things
photos, writings, conversations...
i'm reaching deep inside of me
Am I...?
Should I...?
Why you...?
Why us..?
Maybe....

everything is different but the same
how can they be, you may ask
but is true
the earth won't stop spinning
the sun won't stop shining
& we won't stop loving each other
we are living our life
there's nothing to be afraid of
'cause He is with us

Mummy~
WE LOVE YOU
you are my angel, my diamond;
u gave me everything in this world when u gave birth to me
so there's nothing i shud ask more from you

Mummy~
may God BLESS YOU
He LOVES YOU
you are HIS child, HIS precious;
he gave us to you 'cause He knows you are the best for us

Mummy, I LOVE YOU~
you re the best gift a daughter can have
I'm blessed
...+Happy Birthday，Mummy+...
13.06.2009

2009-04-30T11:56:00.016+08:00

Angels from Heaven

One moment in life
Two person met each other
Beautiful sunshine, lovely rainbow
Love came in
Three precious smiles
endless sweetness
Three little hearts
endless love
hands to hold
shoulders to share
hugs to give
& love to spread
we are meant to be together
before we are even born
God has tie our bonds
He sees it all
He knows we are the best for each other
through the years of growing up
we are together
we walked pebbles road in the park with our little feet
we hold our little hands tightly as we walk in the crowd
we fight over who gets to have the swing first
then we laugh when one of us break a joke
we cry when we said hurtful things
then we hug and say the most powerful words,
"I'm sorry & I love u"
one year passed
three years gone
five years of dolls
seven years of pillow fights
10 years of birthday parties
18 years of love
22 years of sisterhood
we have come so far
from baby pink
to Orange
Blue
& Red
we started to have our own choice of colours
from doll-styled hair
to long
curls
& dyes
we started to shine our own way
we used to talk about playgrounds & ice-creams
we always wear the same "pattern" of dresses
we cuddled in bed & giggle about dreams
we always fell asleep without brushing our teeth
as years goes by
topics changed
we started to meet people
we had crushes
we had friends
we had best friends
we had stories
& we had a different life
but i know we never gone far apart
before we realised it
one of us is getting married
a beautiful bride-to-be
smiles so lovely
touch so gentle
& a heart fullfilled with courage for love
tears of joy rolled down my cheeks
when the love of yours kneeled down
& asked for your hands
to walk with him in the journey of life
i never knew i will have that feelings
so real & touching
my little sister
who i get so angry when u peeped my diary
who i lose my temper when u took my favourite pillow
but in the end
we always have reasons to forgive each other
my youngest sister
a favourite among children
a favourite among elders
we love you
& we want the best for you
eldest child always have the first step
the younger ones follow behind
thats why is so important that the eldest walk the right path
lead the right way
have the right attitude
& shower ample love for your little ones
is hard and painful when we fall
we may slipped and fall
we may missed a step and fall again
but we never stop there
we get up, pat ourselves, dry our tears
& we get over it
cuz we know there's always a hand to hold us from falling
wind to carry us
& love to keep us alive
my sisters
become my best friends
my sisters
become my best parters in life
& my sisters
become the most beautiful reason for me to smile
the world outside is full of challenges
but i know there will always be a place we can run to
to shelter us from any harm
and provide the comfort and support we long for
the world is always changing
but i know there's one thing that will never change
that is our love for each other
the support and prayers we have for each other
nothing stands between our hearts
cuz our hearts are ONE
three angels
three beautiful gifts from GOD
when things go wrong
& emptiness fill our hearts
SMILE
when we are sad or down
& when disappointment fill our hearts
SMILE
always look up and remember to smile
cuz only the smiles that struggle through tears
will be the most beautiful
my love for both of you grow more with each passing day
the thought of both of your gorgeous face fill my heart
& our brown eyes will fill people's souls with happiness
because i know
we are children of God
angels from heaven
only a heartless person will shut his door at us
missing all the love we give
the joy we bring
& the beautiful smiles we share
heartaches are real
disappointments are true
being strong is an option
not a must
but deep in our hearts
we all know that
things will turn out to be just alright
he became the only reason for us to be sad
but we realised
there are a thousand more reasons for us to be happy
so be it
rainbow, sunshines & butterflies
we will have them all in the end of the road
at the meanwhile
we are sharing baskets of strength, love, happiness & joy
all from the love of God
too bad he choose another path
is his choice
so be it
young & loving
fun & charming
hugs & kisses
smiles & tears
that what make us who we are today
& i thanked God that he make us understand better
that we are worth more than that
one day
maybe just one day
u will see there's an empty spot in our hearts
but when u look in deep
u will see the empty spot in our hearts actually is filled up
with God's love & blessing for us
i love you my dear sisters
keep shinning and keep loving
no matter what life will bring us
you know da che will be here for you both
thats not a promise
thats the fact
& the bonds we shared
will held our hearts close to each other
no matter how far we are apart

I LOVE YOU both
cuz
both of u are
my ANGELS from heaven

2009-04-26T11:28:00.018+08:00

Butterfly kisses - Bob Charlisle

"There's two things i know for sure

she was sent here from heaven

and she's daddy's little girl

as i drop my knees by her bed at night

she talks to Jesus and I close my eyes

and i thanked God for all of the joy in my life

oh but most of all

for butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer

sticking little white flowers all up in her hair

walk beside the pony daddy it's my first ride

i know the cake looks funny daddy but i sure tried

oh with all that I've done wrong

i must have done something right

to deserve a hug every morning

and butterfly kisses at night

sweet 16 today

she's looking like her mama little more everyday

to perfume and make up from ribbons and curls

trying her wings out in a great big world

but i remember

butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer
sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
you know how much i LOVE you daddy

but if u don't mind

I'm gonna kiss you on the cheek this time

oh with all that I've done wrong
i must have done something right
to deserve a hug every morning
and butterfly kisses at night

all the precious time

like the wind the years go by

precious butterfly

spread your wings and fly

she'll change her name today

she'll make a promise and i'll give her away

standing in the bride room just staring at her

she asked me what I'm thinking

and i said i'm not sure

i just feel like I'm loosing my baby girl

and she leaned over

gave me butterfly kises with her mama there

sticking little white flowers all up in her hair

walk me down the isle daddy

it's just about time

does my wedding gown look pretty daddy

daddy dont cry

Oh with all that i've done wrong

i must have done something right

to deserve her love every morning

and butterfly kisses

i couldnt ask God for more than this is wad love is

i know i've got to let her go but i'll always remember

every hug in the morning and butterfly kisses"

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

a beautiful song for a lovely morning
a song just so right for that daddy's little girl whom i knew a long time ago

an ordinary day, a different Sunday
something hopped in my mind
is a feeling that i cannot explain
a feeling that had been haunting me for quite sometime lately

why now & why you?
what then & how?

i've always been there to witness all
such strong bonds we had
something so special
'cuz God in heaven know us so well
that He choose to put us together as one
but somehow, a decision was made

everything will not be the same anymore
though i understand
nothing in this world will stay the same forever
things will change, people will change
but, u were the last person i expected to put me in this situation

the time spent
the jokes shared
the laughs we had
the love we showed
the memories of growing up
everything shall be kept to our hearts now

maybe many years from now
when you looked back
if u remember
you will see smiles that are so familiar to u
are no longer yours
you will see the shines in our eyes
but they wont be shining for you

you made your decision
is time for us to make ours

instead of waiting or longing or hoping
for you to give us the reason to be happy
we create our own way to be happy
something as simple as a smile will be enough to start our way

life is a journey
every turn we decide can lead us to the unexpected
people we meet, words we receive
but we must believe
at the very end of the road
there will always be rainbow to light up our hearts

keep holding on
still holding on
i know everything will turn out just fine

every hugs
every smiles
every kisses
i'll save them all
for the ones i love & care
because nothing in this world mean more than them to me
they deserve more than i can give

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

i dream & someday my dreams will come true

i love & someday my love will return

i smile & someday someone who understand my smiles will find me

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

life..

so much to lose and very little to choose

choose wisely & choose with your heart

so you will never lose what u have chosen

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

i couldnt ask God for more
'cuz He had given me so much
im no more a little girl
i know what i have to choose
u know i love you
& u know i will shine
but u have no idea what u are missing

..::26th April 2009::..
+a birthday+

+an ordinary day+
+a different Sunday+

2009-04-23T16:23:00.005+08:00

That's the way it is

Celine Dion

I can read your mind

And i know your story

I see what you're going through

It's an uphill climb

And I'm feeling sorry

But I know it will come to you

Don't surrender

'cause you can win

In this thing called love

When you want it the most

There's no easy way out

When you're ready to go

And your heart's left in doubt

Don't give up on your faith

Love comes to those who believe it

And that's the way it is

When you question me

for a simple answer

I don't know what to say

But it's plain to see

If you stick together

You're gonna find the way

So don't surrender

'cause you can win

In this thing called love

When you want it the most
There's no easy way out
When you're ready to go
And your heart's left in doubt
Don't give up on your faith
Love comes to those who believe it
And that's the way it is

That's the way it is

When life is empty

With no tomorrow

And loneliness starts to call

Baby don't worry

Forget your sorrow

'cause love's gonna conquer it all

When you want it the most

There's no easy way out

When you're ready to go

And your heart's left in doubt

Don't give up on your faith

Love comes to those who believe it

And that's the way it is

A very meaningful song. the words speak for itself & it's true, there's no easy way out in everything.i must hold on.

Set my mind, set my heart to face anything that's coming my way.'cause no matter what the situation is, i know, God is there, you are there and i will get through it!!!

2 more weeks, 4 more papers and im heading HOME, a place so familiar yet so far to reach. There's so many questions in my head now and i don't have the answers to all.

all i have to do now is focus and be clear what i want and what i have to do.must stay true to myself.

stay blessed everyone~

2009-04-16T09:26:00.009+08:00

Morning thoughts...

One day
u might wake up to find that things are different from yesterday
u find that people u know for so long have changed
u find that time has taken many things from u
& at that very moment u know
life isnt going to be the same anymore

never take for granted every person who happens to be in ur life
people who fall in love with u
people who are close to ur heart
people who hate u
people who hurt u
or people who let u down and hit u hard
thank them for stepping into ur life and
when u think back
once in ur life, u met someone who did something to u
and make u who u are today

Don't compare your life to others'.
You have totally no idea what their journey is all about.
What other people think of you is none of your business.

Focus on what u have now and what u want in the future.
Life is too short to be wasted on hating anyone or even hating urself.
If u don't love yourself, how on earth will u learn to love others?

Issues of the past should be forgotten.
What has happened already happened.
No use crying over spilled milk.
Get up~Get real~and get over it
Make peace with ur past so it won't spoil ur present.

Everytime there's an argument
Face it and take it
but keep in mind that,
you don't have to win every argument.
Agree to disagree.
Just smile and laugh more
'cuz no matter how bad a situation is, it will change

Same as no matter how good a situation is, it will still change
but it will be different if we learn to appreciate and treasure
all that has happened to us.
God never waste a hurt
What is hurting u, not killing u,
makes u stronger each day

Do not have negative thoughts over things that u cannot control
Instead, save and invest ur energy for a better, positive present moment.
Everyone has limits
Don't overdo, always keeps ur limit.

At times, u sure will feel down
u feel blue & u feel life isnt always fair
things that belong to u may just be gone
but remember, nothing belongs to u
everyone is a passer-by in life
they can walk in and they can step out
the only difference is the footprints and memories that was left behind
cherish every moment
the best is yet to come

I don't regret the things that i have done
n the things i didnt do
'cuz i know somewhere along the road
i must have done something right
for i ended up smiling
& thanking God for things that have happened to me

Sometimes, doing the right thing can be so difficult
everyone has their own way of thinking & seeing things
u cannot satisfied everyone
u don't have to

Don't waste your precious time and energy trying to do so
Life's too short

Get rid of anything that isnt useful, beautiful or joyful
Live ur life to the fullest with peace & love
thats the key to happiness
Have faith in God and lay ur worries & problems to Him
thats the key to solution
Give ur time and care to people around u
especially people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6
laugh with them
smile with them
care for them
thats the key to appreciate life

Be a person full of love and life
stay simple and be happy
When things go wrong and nothing seems to be right
cross ur fingers and pray to God
& tell urself "I'll get through it"
God heals everything

When u wake up in the morning
thank God for it
morning doesnt mean that u have to get up and work again
It is a way God's saying that
He loves us so much
He wants us to live another beautiful day

No one is incharge of my happiness except ME
i'll keep smiling and hold on
there's always be sunshine & rainbow after rain
i just have to enjoy the rain & get wet sometimes
'cuz i know
thats the life and im glad im still taking the journey

3 more days to FINALs!!!
i'll do my best!~

To all my friends preparing for final exams,
all the best & may God bless you~
Drink plenty of water, eat better and love urself
take great care & smile always

Have HOPE, have FAITH & have LOVE

*cheers*

2009-04-12T19:43:00.005+08:00

Smile when in leisure

Smile when in pain

Smile when troubles pour like rain

Smile when someone hurt you feelings

'cuz you know, smiling always starts the healing!!!

i always love to smile 'cuz is just a natural thing to do.it does not cost anything but u gain much from it. i remember this from somewhere:

people will forget what u did

people will forget what u said

but, people will never forget how u make them feel

feelings are such funny things that sometimes u have no idea what are they all about. lately i have many mix feelings, some with joy some with tears but no matter what my feelings are, i know life goes on and is my choice how i want to live with it...& so i thought, smile!~

smile and laugh more

smile and love more

smile and dream more...

A smile is a language that even baby can understand. so how come some people still dun get it?smile is contagious.when someone smiles at you, please smile back. 'cuz u never know, ur smile might just brighten up somebody's day!!! smile always~=)

Happy Easter~God has risen!!god bless everyone.

take care

2009-04-06T13:04:00.004+08:00

My life My rules

Life is short
Break the rules
Forgive quickly
Love truly
Laugh constantly
& never stop smiling
no matter how strange life is

Life is not always the party we expected it to be
But as long as we are here,
we should smile & be grateful.

God never waste a hurt
even though the feelings are really heart-aching
i know God wants me to be strong & keep moving on.

God has a reason for allowing things to happen,
we may not understand His wisdom
but we simply have to trust His will

God bless us all the way.

2009-03-12T13:06:00.002+08:00

So CLOSE yet so FAR

I'm not going to PERAK for the camp as the community service at Bukit Gantang, Perak was cancelled due to the tense political situation over there. i was so dissapointed to receive the news when our principle announced it on Tuesday night.=(

so sad yet have to accept the fact that we are not going. I was so ready and excited to go and carry out the activities that we planned and prepared together for over a week. What should i say... though surely there will be another chance to go, i just felt as though your warm heart was being splashed by a pail of cold water...haha...as the chinese saying goes...

oh well well well...that means i have more time to prepare for my quizzes, tests and assignments!!! i should do better since i have extra time for them..wakakka...will do my best!!!hope i get the chance to go for the camp in near future..smile !da!!~~=p

good day!!~

2009-03-08T13:02:00.016+08:00

!da's BACK!!!!

miss me??!~=P

There goes my first week of March.I've not been updating my blog for such a long time!!!~I was so in to my uni life that i spent more time OUT of my room than IN it!!~haha...is not such a bad thing as you get more fresh air outside your little hostel doubled-room.=p many of my friends noticed my change in my attitude, my style of learning and even my sleeping time! haha..oh yes..there's a slight change in my sleeping time and hours...hmm..i dun really know the reason but i know im very different compared to my previous semesters. However, everything is A.O.K!~ will take care and most importantly drink plenty of water and get enough rest. sleeping wise, i will work on that..haha...

lots of programs and activities had been going on since the beginning of my new semester after my teaching practise in STF!!~ oh i missed all my girls...and the teachers in STF...hye girls, if you are reading this...."I MISS you!!!!" hope you gals are enjoying your study life in Form 2 and strive for your best. i know you can do it!! and remember what i said to you if you study and blindly follow your book...hehehe....yes~ i'll do something with your book!! so, be active!! read more books and go exercise!!spend time with your friends because your books wont take care of you when you're sick, your friends do. really miss you all....

oh alright..back to my activities..let's see...i was so occupied with my programs and at the same time managing my studies, i hardly find time to write it all out in my blog!!~i know i know...lazy bum~ahahah...oh well, so i thought uploading photos to friendster and facebook will be another way to keep my friends update to what im doing lately...pictures speak a thousand word, don't they?haha..but i know there's still something missing...without my "explanations", pictures only seem boring...hahhaha....teacher cannot help it...teacher "explains"..so that's what im going to do...but first, let me list out what have i involved myself for the past 2 months....

UTM students' representative council election 2009/2010 (Faculty Candidate)

Nomination of Candidate at Rumah Alumni, UTMPosters-stapling with our "jentera-jentera"...

from left:Ah Soon, me & Sharvinder
We LOST with PRIDE!!~haha...
but thanks for those who voted for me!!!

JKM Appreciation Dinner at Kampung Nelayan, Gelang Patah

From left: Ravin, Tan, Imran & I

Josh so happy wen Ah soon wanna "kiss" her..haha...

Calon MPP yang kalah
we...lost...*sob sob*..nay!~

I like this pic..but Tan as if fainted...haha..the BLACK team..ah soon, ure out!the three of us =)

Kolej Perdana SUPER (Sport Day) 2009 - Netball Competition

We are the CHAMPION team!!!yeah baby!~

IEM Week - Charity slot: A Day With Special Children

Sharvinder(Chairperson of this meaningful event) & I

2009 Chinese New Year Celebration at Long Lama, Sarawak

I can "drive" the motor boat!~now im can survive if get posted to LONG LAMA..haha..shot gun catridges!!i fired one of these!~awesome feeling!!hunting pose

Fresh lobster from PAPUA NEW GUINEA!slurps~

The most tasty and fresh coconut drink ever!!slurp slurp!!~Fish fish..come~ come here...me & ah Di!i miss you...

Malam Puncak Perdana 7 - Malam Etnik Kreatif (Master of Ceremony)

Masters of ceremony: Me, Sharvinder & Farah

Kitha, me, Gayitri & Jeyamani~ lovely sarees...with Hot & Pretty International Students..they are from CHINA..Josh & I
Sabah & Sarawak..haha..Eka eka...me & kai Sheng( leng zai junior) =pMr. Soon Lam San & Ms. IdaTan junior and Tan Senior
(don't ask me about his expression, i didn know it until i saw this pic)Farah & IThe k9 gang!~haha..
Josh+Mahen+!da"Family photo" with Che mat & Pn. Zilla
Love it!me & cute ekA

.....now and most excitingly...coming...

Community Service: Kem Pendidikan at BUKIT GANTANG, PERAK (B-GACS09) in conjunction with program organised by KPT & UTM

I will be going to PERAK next thursday night as the program will start on 13th March until 15th March. We will be organising programs for UPSR students from 2 different schools from that area. the objective of this camp is to motivate them and expose them to new things by sharing and care for them through some group activities. we have only 2 weeks plus to prepare everything but thanked god, everything is working out smoothly. Like today, we just had our aerobic session among the Facis!!( we only have 25 facilitators handling the camp..this is our team!) i was so excited that the aerobic was supposed to start at 7am..but i was used to wake up around 6am, so as usual i did. not feeling anymore sleepy, i got dressed and went for jogging around 615am!!haha...it was cold in the morning...my college is like on cloud and is dark~....haha..but everything fine..and so, as planned, we had our aerobic and dance...i feel great!~

despite all the hectic schedule for meetings and activities, thanked god i still manage to find time for studies. this semester is CRAZY!! im taking ..*ahem*...Applied Mechanics, Analytical Chemistry, Cell and Molecular Biology, Java Programming Language & Physics Lab II!!not forgetting im continuing my Japanese Language Preparation for JLPT2!! speaking of JLPT...the results are OUT!!!i wonder how i did for my JLPT3???ahhh.....hope i can pass...haha....see how "complex" is my credit subjects this semester???!! the 3 science subjects are already enough to give me a heart attack...is like FORM 6...i think worse than form 6...hahha...now i really wonder why my Form 6 teacher says that University will be a piece of cake compared to Form 6....ahh...however, im really enjoying all these "excitement" in studies and at the same time managing with time for activities...hahaha....is all up to us to deal with it the hard way or take it as a challenge and face with an open heart~hehe..im sure things will turn out real fine....cross my fingers and pray hard!!!

another thing to share is that i am currently part of a students' exchange program under my faculty which is still in the proposal stage. My friends, Jayne, Joseph and I worked together and came out with a proposal for the program which it involved the exchange of UTM students to University of Michigan, US~ we are yet to hear any result from our dean..so again, cross my fingers!!! and cross yours too!!pray for me that i may have the chance to get it..hahha...will be attending the summer school in MU (Michigan University) in June if everything's on track.=) Ooo...it feels so good~but i was looking forward for a chance to go JAPAN!!!maybe next year then..hehe...

so i guess thats most of it..now you know what i have been up to...for my PERAK kem Pendidikan, i will update my blog about it!!cuz it will be definitely worth sharing!!!till then my frens, take care and be happy!!!no one is incharge of your happiness except you!~so, smile and laugh more & just be you and be happy!!

cheers & God Bless!!!

2009-01-30T18:15:00.010+08:00

...::::Happy Chinese NEW YEAR!!~::::...

Gong xi gong xi!~is the Ox-Year!~Moo...!

elo my friends..so sorry i didn update my blog for so long. i was occupied with lots of interesting activities in Uni and also back home during CNY!!~wow!!so many things to share with you all.but i think i need some time to rearrange everything and sort out one by one to post in my blog.

Just before i get my hands busy with typing and uploading photos, here's something i would like to share. A simple paragraph of beautiful words that i get it from an email sent by my mother.i hope you all can read it slowly and feel the power of the words. It's very true and it happens anytime, to anyone, anywhere. This is a new year, a new beginning for all of us! i hope that everyone can be blessed with happiness and the courage to love yourself and others!!!do not be afraid!!Love is all around.Stay strong and stay true.You will never know what's waiting for you unless you open your heart and give it a try!!~

"As we grow up,

we learn that even the one person
that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will.

You will have your heart broken probably more than once
and it gets harder every time.
You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.
You'll fight with you best friend.
You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
You'll cry because time is passing too fast and
you'll eventually lose someone you love.

So TAKE too many pictures,
LAUGH too much and
LOVE like you've neer been hurt
because every sixty seconds you spend upsetting
is a minute of happiness you'll never get back!!

Don't be afraid that your life will end, be afraid that it will never begin."

LOVE your LIFE!!!

2009-01-23T01:34:00.006+08:00

爱。唉！~

有谁
能够告诉我，
爱和情，
本是两堂不一样的课题，
还是一样？
先有爱，还是先有情？
爱情、亲情、友情又是哪分派？

我们，
都是这堂课的学生。
有的人喜欢单人座位，
静静地在属于自己的世界里上课；
有的人则选择了双人座位，
也选择了拥有“同伴”一起上课；
大家都在学习、习惯，
各自扮演着不同的角色。

讲师是谁？
就让我来给你们介绍，
他的名字叫——时间。
他的外号有很多，
有人称他为“残忍”、“执著”；
也有人称他为“解药“、“考验”。
时间的外号，无奇不有，
但他却无动于衷，
依然用着自己的步伐，
牵动着每个人上课的心。

在上课的时候，
难免会有不专心的时刻。
时间的逼促，
更也让人偶尔透不过气来。

这个时候，
往往渴望有人可以
敲敲桌子，
发问问题，
好让时间能停一停下来，
乘机舒口气，伸伸懒腰。

或许我们有时候太不自立，
总以为会有他人做主动。
不知不觉，
一切都让时间控制了；
后知后觉，
才发现要学、要惜的那一段，
已经错过了。

时间常说，
岁月不留人。
错过了就等于
那一题，
你交了白卷，
狠狠地在你那张爱情卷上
画了一个大大的“X”——不及格！

不过，
一直有上课的人，
也不见得会好到哪里，
面对着同样的题目，
也不一定能作答。

我想，
这应该就是
为何
爱情这课题
那么难以让人理解！
那么难以令人捉摸！

有谁
能够告诉我，
我的爱情课题
会不会有交白卷的一天？？

而又有谁
能够告诉我，
你的爱情课题
会不会
有一篇值得我
永远去珍藏？？

我期待
会有得到答案的那么一天。

2009-01-05T16:31:00.006+08:00

橙的梦

2009年就这样静悄悄地过了五天，每个人也开始收拾放假的心情，渐渐地又回到那自己熟悉的生活步伐。开学咯！~学生们也回到了学校生活圈子，而像我们这一班大学生，大部分终于拖着那蛮不甘情不愿的心情离开自家的温暖窝，回到大学继续了升学~大学，我回来了！

刚顺利完成教学实习的我，回来大学也有整整一个星期了。在一个星期里面，同时挥别了去年，踏进了今年，一个新的一年。

2009新年快乐！！愿大家新的一年里，事事都能如愿以偿！~当然，身体安康是上主给你最大的财富！还有，是学生的就发奋图强；工作的朋友就今年升职、升薪水；嫁老公，娶老婆的朋友就百年好和，早生贵子！！好有喜气的祝福对吧！哇,顿时心情也好了不少~

这个学期是我第六个学期，第三年了！还有一年半就正式以大学生的身份毕业了。好期待！当然，这学期对我来说会是一个很充实的学期哦！~希望一切能顺顺利利，让我的大学生活多了几份值得回忆的色彩。朋友们，记得多保持联系！只要有心，我们永远不会离很远。

对那些这个学期毕业的朋友、学长学姐们，加油咯！！！很快地，我就能去参加你们的毕业典礼了！又多了一份期待的心情！=）

昨晚，我做了一个很美丽的梦。一切仿佛是那么地自然~就好像那青翠的树，盼了多年，终于开花了！而且开了我最喜欢的橙色小花......对~我说开花了，没有结果。我不曾知道，原来没有结果也会是一样的美丽。那一种心情，就好像回到中学时代，那青涩又甜进心窝初恋的味道是一样的，但特别的是它却又带给我一丝丝的心酸感觉。好像在以前和某些事情擦肩而过，回过头时，才发现已经过了很多年。真的很特别！~很开心做了那场梦。或许永远不知道梦的结果会是怎样也是一种福气。因为那珍贵的感觉永远在我心底的深处，保留了一个特别的位置。我会好好珍惜这场美丽的梦，永远让那橙色小花，陪伴我走向未来美好的夕阳，美丽地绽放！！

一切顺其自然，放开心胸去接受不一样、不知道、不要~人自然会长大。我相信世界上还有很多更美好的事情等着我们去发掘。把心交出来，你也会得到心比心的对待。

愿有心人时时刻刻在身旁守候。要幸福、要快乐！

我的祝福永远陪着你！！

2008-12-31T17:37:00.009+08:00

With LOVE

To mummie & papa~

To my lovely sisters~

To my DuaPao kias~

To my TOMODACHI~

&
To EVERYONE i know in my life.....

HaPPy NEW YeAR 2009!!!

Sayonara 2008!!!!
GOD BLESS~

*cheers*
!da

-31.12.2008-

2008-11-28T14:32:00.005+08:00

me...BACK!!~

*ahem* finally i feel like myself...

my coughing has gone gone away!~but i still have irritating mucus down my chest..=.="trying my best to get rid of them....
that few nights of coughing made me miss my good-nite sleeps..=(

but i really have to hug my mummie and thank her for her care and love when i was really sick..glad im at home when all these happened...really feel bad to cause all the sleepless nights...

"Mie...LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!~"

my JLPT3 (Japanese Language Proficiency Test Level 3) will be held next Sunday (7th Dec 2008) at UPM, KL..departing on Thursday(4th Dec 2008) evening...

O.o...is like only...less than a week!!!!!

everyday im doing my revision...though there still some new chapters left that i need to look through all by myself...this semester i had to study PART2 by myself...how i wish i can attend Sensei's preparation class for JLPT3...for sure it will be a lot easier..=.="..oh well, no use whining..haha..still have to study!!!!

but i would like to express my thanks to Rizal~also known as Mohammad...he unhesitatedly lend me his notes to photostate and also try his best to explain to me when i have doubts...today, i received a post that he gladly helped me photostated the latest chapters of notes and took all the trouble to go to the post office and post it by PostExpress...

Rizal君、ありがとうございました！！！！i really appreciate it....thumbs up for you!!!*big grin*

i better go back to do my revision~"I must do my best" in Japanese sound like this...

わたしががんばれなければなりません！！
watashi ga ganbarenakereba narimasen!!!

to all my friends taking JLPT4 , JLPT3 and JLPT2...がんばってください！！！*cheers*

2008-11-21T21:59:00.003+08:00

A cut Above

i cut my hair yesterday
decided to have a new look
hmmm...suddenly i looked "younger"..haha..

despite my bad coughing,
i'm having good hair days...i hope they last..

struggling with my coughing and managing my Japanese Language revision...
arrrggghhhh....

my coughing, get over already!!!!~=(

2008-11-19T21:31:00.002+08:00

Sick baby

I'm coughing my heart out these few days....can't get any good-night sleep at all due to the "intensive" coughing im having....my goodness, how i wish i have a magic potion and stop my coughing this instance!!!!...is killing me!!~

seriously, i never cough until this extend before...just after my dinner, suddenly i cannot stop this reflect~i almost cough out of my breath..just imagine!eventually, i vomited! yucks..i know...but i really can't help it..anyone know how to stop a bad coughing?? without medicine maybe??

today is a sad day for chun han and his family.
His grandmother passed away last night at the hospital. Grandma was transferred from Sentosa Poly-clinic and placed at her home. I only got the news this morning when han's sister called me up. I wasn't prepared at all as grandma was doing alrite when i last visited her. Although bed-ridden, she managed to recognise everyone and chat about things she remember...however, her time was up and was taken home by God.

I miss my grandma and grandpa dearly.

this is the second death i experienced this year.is part of life i know.death...so real yet so abstract...wad am i thinking??i have no idea...

just wanna blog..

*still coughing*damn...

oh well, bed time's near..."patient" like me should sleep early??haha...i hope i can sleep deep and sound tonight after an one hour massage...i seldom get massage session 'cause i cannot "enjoy" it!!~it gets really painful sometimes!!but to some people, is satisfaction you get from massage~i wondered how~gosh....but of cuz, after the massaging, u feel relieved and relaxed due to muscles tension release....ahhh...that's wad im talking about~

hmmm....*coughing* somemore...i hope i wont hurt my throat!~that's it..off to bed soon..have a great day tomorrow my friends...sweet dreams..nite~

2008-11-15T09:31:00.003+08:00

LIFE

Life is but a stopping place,
A pause in what's to be,
A resting place along the road,
to sweet eternity.
We all have different journeys,
Different paths along the way,
We all were meant to learn some things,
but never meant to stay...

Our destination is a place,
Far greater than we know.
For some the journey's quicker,
For some the journey's slow.
And when the journey finally ends,
We'll claim a great reward,
And find an everlasting peace,
Together with the lord

- Author unknown-

We live for different purposes. We engaged ourselves in different ways to walk the path of life. A path will always lead to a destination. However, our destination is still a mystery. But no matter what path we choose or take, where does the path leads or how long it takes to walk the journey, we learn something along our way. The people we meet, the experience and emotions that we encounter along the journey make us who we are today.

I'm exploring the path of my life. I hope i find what i truly want someday.

God speed.

2008-11-03T10:04:00.006+08:00

Part-time!!~

I was called up by my friend to take up a part-time job as Digi promoter last saturday and Sunday. There was a carnival organised by the StudentCouncil of Swinburne University and Digi had a booth there. So there i was, with another promoter who i just met, her name is Evon. A very cute girl who just sat for her PMR exam..very hardworking indeed~ hehe..is my pleasure to meet you!~

Digi is promoting
"DIGI Prepaid I Like"

so for you Digi Prepaid users, NEW PLANS!!!

"Super FnF"
with already 11 Friends & family, user who subscribe this plan can add-on 4 more other network users to ur FnF list..so now, u can have a total of 15 FnF to sms and call!!!
*only 1 cent per SMS & 15cents/min for all FnF

"Super SMS"
if you like blowing out SMS everyday, this plan is definitely a must for you!! After any 5 SMSs sent (which cost u 10 cents per SMS) to Digi or other network, you are entitled to send SMS FOC for the rest of the day!! (only for Digi-to-Digi number)
*long story short : just hit 50 cents of SMS per day and u get the whole day messaging for FREE!!

& the most interesting part???!!
is FREE!

no monthly subscription fee
and you can change your plan after one month if you feel like trying it either one of the plans!~

How to subscribe / change plan:
1. Just key in *128#
2. Reply 7 (Change Feature)
3. Reply 2 (Digi Prepaid I Like)
4. *Choose the plan you want (1 Super FnF; 2 Super SMS & so on)
5. Reply 1 to confirm
6. You can check your new plan by keying in *128# then reply 1(Account Info) then 3 (Call Plan) to see your plan!~

*note!!
To MTV POWERPACK and FUI-YO users, if you have decided to change to either one of these plan, keep in mind that you will not be able to change back to your previous plan as MTV P and FUI-YO plans are not longer available.

oh well, just some information to share..hope is applicable for my Digi-user friends out there! Cheers & take care!!~

Me & Ah Joo (Dealer)

Me & Evon (promoter)

Hafiz & I!~=)

Jia Foong is the tall big guy with a friendly smile behind me!~

Smile with DIGI!~=)

2008-10-27T11:37:00.006+08:00

Goodbye my dearest girls

&
till we meet again!!!

LOVE YOU ALL ALWAYS...

1 Setia (2008)

1 Feminin (2008)

Finally, 3 months' teaching practise is over....an once-in-a-lifetime experience was over when my watch showed is time for me to end 1 Setia's Science lesson at 1040am on Friday, 24 Oct 2008.

It was so hard to say Goodbye to my girls. I know is hard for them too but still, i have to go.

Thank you for all the cards and gifts that i received from all of u. They are all so lovely and wonderful. but the best things are having you all as my students (my first badge!!!) and i hope my 3 months with you all can bring happiness and most of all, knowledge to you all about the way of studying and learning in a fun way.

To all my students, 1 Setia & 1 Feminin....
***************************************************************************

Thank you for everything!!!

Study Smart and help each other to improve and be the best that you all can be...

All the best for your coming finals and please do your very best!!!

I love you all and i will always pray for you all...Take care and smile always~ hugss...

***************************************************************************

Ms. Ida

Hugss and Kisses from
Cikgu !zzah, Ms. !da & Cikgu Nan!~

Sayounara!!!!

Last but not least,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO iLhAm!!!!
27-Oct-2008

May you always be blessed with good health and happiness...
God loves you..
I love you too...
Enjoy your day!!!!hugss!!!

2008-10-19T00:59:00.010+08:00

Just 22!~DOUBLE joy and happiness!!

Finally...the clock strikes 12 midnight!!~
Guess what i'm doing on the night before my BUrfday?!

Playing viwawa BIG 2.5 with tyng and han!~haha..

To all my friends who sent me gifts and b'dae messages through sms, mails, blogs, friendster, facebook, MSN...and by all other means!!~haha...(speaking about the power of communication and networking eh)...haha...

a BiG THANK YOU to all of you...
ありがとうございました！！

you all made me very very happy!~ even though i don't get to celebrate it with my family or close friends..but all these wishes and blessings are more than enough to fill my heart with gladness and warmth, im so touched and im really happy~

hereby, i would like to share with you all the cards my friends gave me cards..they are all so so so lovely!~Thanks buddies!!~

A Malay Version of B'dae card from my darling!~=.=".. haha...first time got a Malay b'dae card..
& Tyng's card!!.....
......still in the office~
haha...she planned to give me a surprise and thought i will check my mail box..but i didn get it on Thursday and when she told me on Friday, the office is closed and only open on Monday..haha...not bad~at least i still get a card on Monday!!muacks!!

From Kim Ching~ an air-mailed Boomerang!~ thanks pal!!and thanks for the song!~Andy's song really suit my day!

my birthday cake from ah ROCK!! delicious! the orange panda (just named it "rocky junior" 'cause it will keep rocking his head side to side when exposed to light~(remind me of my orange plant at home from kChing!~haha) & the card..with b'dae song somemore!~

A gift from Rizal!~ he even blogged about me just for my birthday!
Arigatou Rizal-kun!

A SWEET card and a name -chain from SuiChen and Calvin~
& also a dinner treat on Friday!!~

My dearest Gayitri!!~haha... she hid it "somewhere in" her before she gave me~haha...

From my cute and most dearest mentor in STF... she put it in my bag without my knowledge... was really surprised to found a card in my bag...haha.. THANK you Pn. SHIDA!

Last but not leasr,
a card from my mUmmie!!~
and a little wish bottle...she gave me 6 wishes!!!~haha...
mummie, thank you so much! i love you too...too much!!

my 6 wishes from mummie!!

Well, that's all my cards for this year~ what now??too bad my coursemates are not around in campus, im not back home yet, my friends in Uni (mostly final year got busy) and my roomate went for church service today...hmmm.....practically, yea, im alone.haha...but is my BIRTHDAY!!!! i think im gonna find something to do and make myself happy~ haha...have a good day my friends!!!~take care!

2008-10-12T16:21:00.003+08:00

3SPN

SUBJECT REGISTRATION
Semester 2008/2009/2

To my coursemates of 3SPN, the registration starts tomorrow(13/10/2008) until 24/10/2008(Friday). I took a photo to show the section for 3-SPN to register for each subject. (you can enlarge it to have a better view) Kindly pass the message around to our friends and if anyone cannot do their registration online, please SMS me and let me know. I can register for you. Two more weeks to go!!!~ALL THE BEST!!~ see you guys very soon!!~

P/S: the NEW timetable is out too. You can go HERE to print it out!~

2008-10-12T14:28:00.008+08:00

A SUNDAY IN OCTOBER!!~

just got my renewed road-tax on Friday..

is in ORANGE colour!!haha..

I woke up suddenly and realized that the day was bright.I quickly switched on my handphone to check the time (clock on desk too far, cannot see without my glasses..haha..) oOps!~is 715a.m.! i was supposed to wake up at 630a.m. to attend mass in JB with my teacher and why didn't my alarm clock rang? It was as simple as "i forgot to tick "Sunday" in repitition category."=.="....

So, in a rush, managed to freshen up myself, changed and called Mrs. Chong that im on my way out. well, she just wake up too...(mass starts at 745a.m.) from UTM to STF takes about 20 minutes..jumped into my car, started the engine and set to go.

Reached STF about 15 minutes (took a shortcut..shhh...haha) no sign of Mrs. Chong's car anyway, and also Eldaa (the only Christian girl in the school..i mentioned about her before in my previous post). i waited for about 5 minutes (i know, we are already late for mass) then only saw Eldaa. She went in the office to get permission from the warden for outing and just when she's done, Mrs. Chong arrived. Both of us went in and off we go to Sacred Heart Church near Taman Pelangi in JB.

It's my first time to Sacred Heart. It's a very lovely church next to a post office.Obviously, we are really late and we missed the opening prayer and readings. I felt bad about it. But at least we still make it for the mass.

the altar

Mother Mary statue

The mass ended around 845a.m. After blessing from the priest, who happens to be an Irish (same as one of the priest in Kuching, St. Joseph Church...can't remember his name..Father Albert???), we prayed for a while in a special prayer room where they put the Body of Christ. After that, we get ready to leave. Mrs. Chong met a few of her friends in church and she kindly introduced me and Eldaa to her friends. She introduced me as "her colleague". haha..guess what's the reaction of her friends?

"She's so young!~A very young teacher!~"

haha..yea, with a T-shirt and jeans on me, of course i look young.but im very happy and honoured to be known as Mrs. Chong's colleague. I'm a future teacher anyway.haha...

After mass, we went for breakfast. At first, Mrs. Chong planned to bring us for Fishball soup but the shop was not opened yet. So, instead of fishball soup, we went for wantan mee. I noticed a phenomenon in Johor, breakfast are not as laku as in Kuching!!~ hardly see young people having breakfast here...no offence to my WM friends but even Mrs. Chong agrees. In Kuching, me and my friends often meet up for breakfast which is quite normal for us...but not here, most of my friends will rather have lunch (or brunch to be appropriate) together. haha..culture shock? not at all!~

well, after wantan mee, Mrs. Chong dropped by a bakery shop (Season Bakery - a popular bakery shop here, almost like MITA or TAKA bakery in Kuching) and bought me and Eldaa each a set of assorted cakes.That's so nice of her.haha...so happy to get cakes!~haha...well, not think too much but sweet things do make you happy rite??so yes~i'm happy!

Back to STF, got in my car and headed back to UTM. But before that, i went to JUSCO in Taman U to buy mineral water. Almost finished my stock in room and decided to shop something for myself. A pair of shoes maybe?? I was thinking...

reached JJ (the name people used for Jaya JUSCO) around 1015a.m.~hardly see any shop open yet! (operation time 1030a.m to 1030p.m.) my first time to a almost empty JJ because usually is like people mountain people sea in JJ!! that's one reason i dun really like to hang around in JJ but today was quite a pleasant sight.haha..

with two boxes of (1.5litre x 12) mineral water in my trolley (yes~i'm the one who carry the boxes, not the staff) and just wander around to see if i needed anything else. I'm glad that i did that. haha..Guess what i found? a PERFECT gift for myself!~

Tada!~

a Beijing Olympic 2008 souvenir cap in orange and white design!~

=front view=

=side view=
nice leh...haha...love it!!

It is displayed in the glass cupboard. No wonder i never seen it or noticed it before this!! The design i picked comes with 3 colours, pink, blue and orange. blue and orange only left the last one. i think i think for....2 seconds?? and decided to buy the orange one. haha..oh well, orange is a great temptation for me and after all, i love baseball caps!~(i have a few right back home if my dad didn took them for himself lah) it will be even useful during holidays when im going for trips with my friends!! (speaking of trip, there is one coming on!!!~stil in the process of planning...hehe...=))

there you have it...i'm just wanna share with you guys my "happiness".haha..yea, despite i'm going home in 2 weeks' time and finishing my observations for teaching practical, i think i still can find a lot more reasons to be happy.

well, that's my lovely Sunday morning~ hope you guys have a great day and great week ahead!!~hugss!~

2008-10-11T14:17:00.004+08:00

My 1st Nomination
&
my 10 Lucky stars~

Tammy-san, arigatou gozaimasu!tottemo hikkurishita(surprised) nee!~

haha..again thanks to Tammy who kindly nominated my blog as one her lucky stars!~ it was cool 'cause it's kinda first time for me..haha...so here goes, as Tammy mentioned in her blog, i have to pass this on by selecting 10 more nominations of blogs...well, that's not a difficult task at all 'cause i think i have more than enough blogs of my choice to be nominated..haha..here goes..

1. CalvinChong

My old and best pal, a trustworthy friend~
Keep up with your photo blogging!~your photos are amazing..just love your blog~
keep writing and remember "Nobody walks alone"!~

2. AngelaChang

Dear Angela, a sweet young lady with a heart of gold.
I like reading your blog.Keep blogging!~

3. SzeShyangKho

A cute future doctor, with a sense of humour...
most importantly, a real Kuching-kia (read his comics)!~

4. DodoTay

A future doctor, a young future doctor~
start reading his blog last year and still "clicking" it.

5. CassieChong

Once my schoolmate...my tuition classmate (ITS?)... a sweet girl who has bunnies as pet!!~
love reading about them. =)

6. HazelAnthony

She had a blog shared with her girls..i think that's real cool and sweet!!~
interesting life and beautiful smiles!!~miss yea sista!!~

7. AlexLim

A guy like his header says: "living life to its fullest"!~ an active scout member in school, a band major and now, a cool dude persuing his dream!!~All the best!~

8. PriscillaKho

A sweet and gentle girl..and she's fair!!~hehe...she blogs about her life, her family...
love reading them especially with all those nice layouts...stay sweet gal!~

9. SheilaTan

Love reading about her life in Aussie..so far, we have 2 things in common...our surname and i know her mum~hehe..she's my ITS teacher, Mrs. Tan.=)

10. ... ...
well, for my 10th lucky star, i guess i have to leave it blank for the moment..ever since i changed my blog layout, i lost many of my friend's blog link and im in the process of tracking them back...everyone is doing a great job in blogging, good enough to keep us update about their life, their thoughts or even get to know someone you never met...i think is real cool and i adore that..

Finally, to my lucky stars, it seems that you have to pass on the butterfly....

Put the logo on your blog.
Add a link to the person who awarded you.
Nominate 10 other blogs.
Add links to those blogs on yours.
Leave a message for your nominees on their blogs.

To all my friends, this is the era of BLOGGING!~ keep updating your blog and stay real!~thank you to those who read and credits to those who blog!~

Ganbarimasho!~Good day!!~=)

2008-10-11T13:34:00.006+08:00

HOUSE Season 4

Dr. Gregory House
starring Hugh Laurie

Yes. Im so into HOUSE lately ever since i got it from my sis during my one week stay back home for her engagement. Though only got episode 1-13 and though is my first time watching it (i knew about this TV show long ago, just didn't get the chance to watch it), i immediately "fell in love" with it and find Dr. House very amusing and interesting. haha..he made me laugh with his sense of sarcasm and of course..his sense of humour..not only that, im also impressed with his skills and knowledge when it comes to diagnosis....by the way, did i mentioned that he only diagnose those cases which he "thinks" is interesting???

In season 4, he was asked by Dr. Lisa Cuddy (the head of the hospital) to get another team of doctors ( as before this, he got a team consists of 3 members; Chase, Cameron & Foreman) to wrok with him. Well, he did all sort of tricks just to avoid this topic with Dr. Cuddy but end up getting a team by choosing three doctors among a class of 40. haha..he was really an interesting and unique character.

i wonder if there's really a doctor like him?? ......hmmm.......

i finished the 13 episodes and was hoping to get the finale for that season.Haha..and yes! i got it from Louis. It was so happens that i asked about House and he got all the seasons!!~my gosh!! Thanks Louis!!! was really thrilled when i knew that! well, he gave me episode 15-16 for House Season 4 and it turned out to be a really sad ending for the season..for those who watched surely agreed with me...very sad and very unexpected..the emotions are really all over...

The is the scene which Amber is going to die after involving in a bus crash because she went pick Dr. House up instead of Dr. Wilson (House's best friend) which was really heart-touching and it made me so sad...The song that was playing, Iron & Wine- Passing Afternoon was a hit!~ here's the lyrics...is really meaningful...

There are times that walk from you like some passing afternoon
Summer warmed the open window of her honeymoon
And she chose a yard to burn but the ground remembers her
Wooden spoons, her children stir her Bougainvillea blooms

There are things that drift away like our endless, numbered days
Autumn blew the quilt right off the perfect bed she made
And she's chosen to believe in the hymns her mother sings
Sunday pulls its children from their piles of fallen leaves

There are sailing ships that pass all our bodies in the grass
Springtime calls her children 'till she let's them go at last
And she's chosen where to be, though she's lost her wedding ring
Somewhere near her misplaced jar of Bougainvillea seeds

There are things we can't recall, blind as night that finds us all
Winter tucks her children in, her fragile china dolls
But my hands remember hers, rolling 'round the shaded ferns
Naked arms, her secrets still like songs I'd never learned

There are names across the sea, only now I do believe
Sometimes, with the windows closed, she'll sit and think of me
But she'll mend his tattered clothes and they'll kiss as if they know
A baby sleeps in all our bones, so scared to be alone

"You can't always get what you want..." is what Amber told Dr. House when they met in House's dream after Amber died...hmm..that left me thinking..maybe in a way or another, it's sending the viewers a message....hahha...maybe is something else.....or maybe i just think too much~ haha...oh anyway,long story short, it's a TV show definitely worth watching!!~i'll continue to watch and so far im going the other way by starting from Season 1...hehe...

if u re also a fan of "HOUSE", do feel free to show me some links or even share me some of the seasons' episodes...haha...Thanks to those who will!!~=)

2008-10-11T08:12:00.006+08:00

Feeling GOOD

5 days had passed, is a Saturday!~is my 11th week already...gosh, already start to miss my students and teachers...yea, 2 more weeks to go!~Guess what?! " Merdeka!!" haha..i had 2 observations in a day on Friday which one is by my lecturer (she came to the school without telling me earlier - a 'surprise' observation) and another one is by my mentor, Pn Norsidah. Both were my last observation for my full teaching practical; 3 observations by lecturer & 6 from mentor.

Hurray!!~the feeling is like "finals are over!" even though i do not have to sit for any final exam this semester...haha...really happy..The real happy thing is i got both positive feedbacks from them...Lecturer commented me as "a good mentor to stucents", "able to make teaching fun & enjoyable" and "able to motivate students"..=) no sense of "haolien-ness" here..just to share...and as for my mentor, she also gave comments like "teacher possessed high spirit and self confidence", "2-ways interactions between teacher and students" and "induction set is interesting".

It was a feeling of relief and haapiness and also contentment. It feels really great to see real comments about urself ( in my case, teaching), it does help to increase my self-esteem.wahaha...isn't it wonderful??i'm feeling glad and wonderful indeed!~

the day didn end just like that. One of the chemistry teachers, Pn Rohaiza invited us over to her open-house. I went over with Pn. Shida and her eldest son, Danish who is only 8 years old. She drove and we chat along the way.we reached Pn. Rohaiza's house in about 15 minutes. She welcomed us and served us spagetti & soto!!~hehe..in case some of u are not familiar with the name of food called soto, is where you eat the ketupat (sometimes bee hoon or mee) with the soup (chicken soup or beef soup) and you eat it with sambal kicap. remember? i made the sambal at Pn. Nor Azian's house. haha..

I didn managed to get any pictures. haha..but i did get some chocolate bars.=p Pn. Rohaiza's house is a corner semi-detached house but she bought the house next door so it became even bigger house. very nicely renovated and even got a mini waterfall just in front of her house compund.most of the school teachers were there.after the lunch, we thanked her and left.

Back to school, i dropped by Pn. Shida's house sort as to "raya" while waiting for Danish to take bath and get ready for religious class in the afternoon at 230p.m. As i wait, Danish gave me some old photo albums to look at.haha..so cute lah him, he even showed me his baby's photos and his brothers...there were also pictures of Pn. Shida when she's young. I enjoyed my time there!~=) haha....pictures do bring back alot of memories....

Finally, i went back to the staffroom where izzah and nani were waiting for me...hehe...for your information, izzah is back!!~ yea, back to school. She's doing well just still recovering from her wounds.haha..she was the "star" today because every teacher who passed by were concerned and asked about her condition. haha...we were joking that she should record the frequent questions asked and play it whenever she was asked...nah...just kidding, really!!~hehe...

Before we headed back to UTM, i went to collect my renewed road tax sticker from the owner of the car. On the way back to UTM, i dropped by SHELL to fill petrol for my car and treat all of us ice-cream!!~haha..the weather was so so so hot!!! it usually rain during the afternoon but not yesterday!!~HOT!~ haha..look how happy is izzah with the ice-cream...

Happy izzah with ice-cream..haha...

and NO..im not a 'mum'. izzah and nani kept teasing me like their mummy since their accident and i helped them in someway..please lah...not that old yet..haha...

That was almost how my friday went..when i reached room, im so sleepy because of the hot weather..so i took a shower and washed my hair. so refreshing!!~ haha..but that made me even sleepy 'cause im feeling so comfortable and xiang xiang...haha...nap like a baby~

2 more weeks!!~all i have to do now is to finish marking all my students' activity and experiment reports!!~ piles of them!!haha...enjoying it though...well well well, I just can't wait to go home!!~=p have a great weekend my friends!!~

photo i took on Wednesday when Pn. Shida treat me and En. Mizan for lunch at House of the Sundanese Food at City Square, JB..the food was mouth watering & simply delicious!!~

Pn. Shida & I

Roasted Chicken with Spices

Udang Sambal

Egg Taufu with Sambal

Soup of the day

Ikan panggang

Taufu Balls

2008-10-07T11:52:00.002+08:00

Be safe, Be careful!~

I just came back from UTM after sending my two collegues, Izzah & Nani to clinic for check-ups. They were in an accident yesterday evening and i only got izzah's message this early morning!! I was really anxious when i woke up to read the message. I called but i guess it was still too early, that was around 530a.m. Then, i drove to school as usual. But i cannot stop thinking about them. Finally, i called izzah again and got the story. She is now in UTM, staying at her friend's room with Nani. Both of them got injuries but izzah seems to have more serious wounds. Thank god both of them are alright despite the wounds and bruises, i thanked god.

Eventually, i got the permission to leave the school for few hours and headed back to UTM to bring them to clinic. I suggested that they stay in UTM for the remaining three weeks and we can go to school together by my car. Izzah and Nani gladly agreed. (That was the plan before we started our training!!~but they rented a house near the school earlier on with another two seniors and eventually travelled by izzah's motorbike everyday!~=.="...)

that's what happened...so please my friends, who are driving or riding motorbike, please drive safely, be alert!!~ drivers on road maybe reckless in addtion, road conditons and weather may worsen the situation, i pray that my friends are safe from any harm and danger.

God bless you all. Take care.

To Izzah & Nani, get well soon!~ hugsss....

2008-10-05T15:28:00.006+08:00

A bag of LOVE

yesterday, vincent came back to UTM after spending his one week break at home.my mum managed to meet him up at the airport that morning and asked him to pass some things to me.

besides two baju Kebaya that my mum bought for me when she went to Sibu last month, she also gave me a birthday card that she made herself. I was surprised and delighted to receive a birthday card from my mother (kinda a first time eh)..it was emotional. inside the card are words of a mother to her dear daughter and birthday wishes for a daughter who is far from her side. I cannot hold my tears back as i flipped through my card. believe me, it has 5 pages.haha. she even put in my Kindy graduation photo.hahaa...(i guess she cannot wait to see me putting on my real Convo robe)my mum is so cute to make a card for me. Besides a card, there's an "angpow" for me too.haha.guess that will be a birthday angpow for me as im only be back to Kuching one week after my birthday..and also..a mini glass bottle with mini scrolls inside..i wonder what's written in it..well, i think i'll kept it until my birthday...miss mum...miss my home...

mummie's handmade card just for me...thank you mum!!

somemore surprises in the bag my mum gave me...haha...a cute 'orange' beetle!~well, is not a real insect, rather is a pencil sharpener!~haha.this is not the first pencil sharpener my mum gave me though..i think i had three before this and all of them were orange in colour but came with different shapes.=p

isn't it kawaii??haha...

not only card, stationary and clothes...my mum sent me back my blankie!~gosh i miss my blanket. it was from my grandma..yes, my dearest beloved grandma...the last holiday was the last time she sew the torn parts for my blanket she made for me when i was born...dear god, i really missed her so so so much....You guys know wad? when i watched MoneyNotEnough2, i was crying like crazy...the grandma in the movie has similar features of my grandma..and the scene where she was lying on her bed in the hospital...walau, i cannot help myself...my mum and sis were right about me after they watched that movie, they cried too but they bet i will cry even more than them...=.="...frankly, they know me quite well though..i did cried alot....haha...not to making this post a sad one, just wanna share some thoughts..i always tell my grandma "麻麻，家有一老，如有一宝！你是我们家的宝！~"now, grandma had gone in peace, is like missing a piece of something in my heart...i really miss every moment she had with us..i really don't know what to say when she left us...i really miss her...just as much as i miss my grandpa.

my blankie!!!~you're back!hugss!see the blue patches? grandma sew that for me...

Ooops..i got emo....

back to my bag from mum..well, not forgetting my tummy, mum bought me kolo mee for my lunch..specially delivered by vincent...oh, it tasted just the same..delicious!~hehe..what a special lunch after all the days of eating out....

yumyum Kolo mee from Sekama

oh well, that's almost everything i got form my mum...thank you mummie!!~ it really made my day!!~i love you so much and i cannot wait to go home and hug u!!~i'll see you very soon!~muackks!!=)

Is Sunday!~tomorrow school starts as usual!~yeah yeah,im going back to school to teach for another three more weeks....the three weeks leave me with my last observation from both my mentor and supervisor...i'll do my best for my last strive!~pray for my my dear friends...hehe...thanks for the prayers first!!~

ahh..not forgetting october babies....

誕生日
おめでとうございます
to my dear friends,
Tommy
caught in action!!~hahaha...
and
Teh C Peng (a.k.a Tay Zhi Kwong)!!!
got this pic from his friendster since i cannot find his pic in my laptop..wahaha..
he never change =.='..still so 'teh'...haha...
hehe...long time since i last met u guys!~hope to see you guys very soon in Kuching..all the best and take care always!hugs!~be good boys har!=p haha...

2008-10-02T08:08:00.004+08:00

HAPPY EID MUBARAK!!~

Mini Raya cards for my students..hehe..

Finally is Hari Raya!!~the day all my muslim friends are waiting for. After a month of fasting, it is time to celebrate!~haha.this raya is special for me as i got the chance to experience the festival with a Malay family, where i helped out during the eve of Raya and also on the first day of Raya.

My lecturer, Tuan Haji Muslim (who happens to be the one who interviewed me in Kuching before i went in UTM) invited me over to his house in Taman Perling. At the same time, his wife, Puan Nor Azian happens to be the Excellence Teacher of Biology of Sekolah Tun Fatimah where im currently doing my practical.haha.What a coincidence right? Actually, both of them invited me to their house.so i went over around 10am that Tuesday morning.

Guess what?

Since is my first time to Taman Perling and my lecturer's house, so i waited him at a Petronas station in the neighbourhood to come out and lead the way.Then, i felt something, so i came out of my car and checked. Yea, rite. A flat tyre!!~gosh...this is my first time for the sem to meet my lecturer and he changed tyre for me.hahaha..what an experience! finally, we managed to replace it with the spare tyre and drove to a nearby shop to repair the flattened tyre.Got a nail stucked in the tyre which caused all these.Luckily is just that nail and after the mechanic fixed it, my tyres are in good shape now.(just imagine, i may be driving a flat tyre for that past few days..=.=")

My super flat tyre...

finally, i reached his house.It was a really nice cozy house. I was greeted by his three daughters and two sons.(actually four daughters,Nurul; Akmar; Syazmin; Munirah; Amin & Hafis..=) the eldest one was at work at Singapore that day) everyone got job to do.the daughters are baking cakes, chocolate cakes!!!the elder son (now in Form 3) was asked to do his revision as PMR in just a matter of days after raya!!~while me and the youngest son (now 10 years old..very cute guy!) helped my lecturer with the ketupat..haha...seriously, i made them!! after done with around 70 ketupats, we started to fill in with the rice (just above 1/3 full will do) =) and then, boil in hot water for 4 hours!~ thats how you cook ketupats!~

Making the ketupats

After that, i also helped with the rendang and the sup tulang. i cut the vegetables and onions for tomorrow's cooking, ayam masak merah and lontong.haha.the house is filled with raya mood.im glad i was invited to join the family and helped out. it was fun and really warm to be around.hehe.thanks to my lecturer and teacher.we worked until almost 7pm and got ready for the break of fast.at around 7:02pm, dinner is served.=) i went back UTM after the dinner.

I slept like a baby that night. It was raining heavily and i was tired after a whole day of standing and helping out.haha.It was such a nice sleep.

the next morning, is RAYA!~since my lecturer asked me to reach his house around 9am, so i woke up before 8am and got ready.reached his house and had my "breakfast"~gosh..heavy breakfast!haha.but is a tradition to have ketupat and rendang for the breakfast on RAYA day.i had the ayam masak merah also.very delicious and spicy.then my lecturer came back from the mosque after the morning prayer.the colour theme for their raya this year is BROWN!~so everyone is wearing brown baju kurung and baju Melayu except me and the youngest son.haha..he wasn't in time to buy or make his clothes as he studying in one of the boarding school in Kelantan and me, no brown baju kurung. the nearest colour i get is ORANGE!~haha...

behind: Amin/Syazmin/me front: Munirah/Hafiz/Pn. Nor Azian

From left: Munirah, Akmar, Syazmin, me & Hafiz

before we go out to the neighbours' house for house visiting, my lecturer has a tradition which they practise every year with the family.my teacher told me they will "raya" with the family first. that is when they ask fr forgiveness from each other and show respects to the elders in the family.and i have the pleasure to be the camera girl to videotape down the event. it was really nice to see husband and wife, holding hands together, asking forgiveness and understanding for all the things they have done, father and daughthers & sons sharing thoughts ( hugss and kisses to his daughters and sons, Tuan Haji Muslim really showed his love to his children), mother and daughters & sons, sisters and brothers...im really touched to see the strong bond of family and the close relationship among them.It is a good practise and i admire them.Family is everything and the most precious of all.nothing will be a problem if we face it with our family.Tuan Haji Muslim showed me a good example of the meaning of family.=) really made me miss my family too narh...

well, after that, is house visiting!!~ we walked in a group to the neighbours' house. the auntie served us with her special sambal and ketupats and pulut. there's also rendang, curry and even Laksa Johor!~I never tasted Laksa Johor before so it was new for me..haha...it tastes very different from Laksa Sarawak (nothing close to Laksa S'wak actually...) and i think im still more into Laksa Sarawak!~haha..=p

Akmar, Hafiz and me...
Akmar is such a pretty girl and she's getting married this November!~

The brothers and I

My morning was well spent with house visiting and not forgetting, i got green packets too!!~haha..so nice of my teacher and the neighbours to give them to me...hehe...happy!~=)

Green packets!!!~

i stayed until 2pm and then thanked them for their hospitality and all the food.after that, i headed to my mentor's house ( also a teacher from STF) which is near to UTM. she served me with lotsa homecook too and everyone was delighted to see me. I went to her house once to help her with one of the Majlis Doa Selamat for her mother.so the family kinda knew me and was happy to see me again.hehe.she has three sons, Danisq; Zulhin & Zuki. haha.very cute boys.the eldest is only 8 years old.i stayed until around 430pm and thanked them before i leave. I was really full!~haha..but i really did enjoyed myself!~ too bad, my friends werent around, or else i can have companies to go house visiting together.

My day did not end there!~ haha..my friend, Louis who is working in Pekan Nanas finally having his holiday and asked me to join him for a movie. we went to Tebrau City Jusco to watch "EAGLE EYE" premier!~it was a good movie!~2 hours with actions.hehe.you guys should go watch for yourself~

that's my raya day!~after the movie, reached my room before 12am...wow!~ what a good day!~hehe..now, my one week holiday is almost half-way, i think today will be a day-off for me after all the rendangs and ketupats...haha....

Good day my friends!~take care and enjoy your raya!~ cheers!~=)

2008-09-29T09:19:00.007+08:00

Balik Kampung...balik kampung...

yea, everyone's balik kampung, but i didnt. i will be spending this raya break in UTM. as expected, my college is 95% empty (i think..or maybe more than that!!) is so quiet here, luckily i still have 2 of my ex-housemates staying back at the same wing as mine...my roomate found a part time job at McD, so she will be staying out for the week as transportation is more convinient. that means is only me, my laptop and my pillow..haha..sound pathetic?! oh well, not really..im the one who said i don't want to go back when my mum asked me to. is just another three more weeks for me after the break and i will be back in Kuching for my 2 months holidays!!!~yeah rite!~2 months! ('cause there's no finals for me this semester..muahaha..) but not so happy yet!~i will have my Japanese test in Dec..oh dear..lots to catch up...without attending sensei's classes, i have to study it all by myself!! gosh...is not "so" easy...i hope i can do my best!!~so scary ah...just imagine learning all the grammar by urself without any guidance...i just hope im in time to get all the notes from my friends to help me with my revision....

yeah..spending time in room can be really BORING~~not that i don't want to go out to have fresh air..but most of my friends (westM) are all back to hometown...obviously only Sarawakians and Sabahans will stay back for the break...what to do? watch drama? watch movies? i cannot do that whole day..my eyes will dropped out...hahahhaa....well, i still have paperworks to mark...experiments reports to look through....guess i will be fine....=)..i hope...

miss my family...& my friends...=)

HAPPY EID MUBARAK
(Selamat Hari Raya in English!i just learned it!=)) to my Muslim Friends and Happy Holidays to all my friends!~ Take care..

a deco from my school

TEACHERS OF STF!~

STF SCIENCE DEPARTMENT

*cheers*

2008-09-21T16:37:00.003+08:00

there goes my weekends!~ i cannot sign in MSN!~gosh..something wrong with the key port..guess that gotta do with my college's network..surfing the net is totally fine just not Messenger..ah well, hope this wont happen during raya break!~=.="...

2008-09-21T15:56:00.007+08:00

1,2,3....my 10th week!

one more week for my students, who anticipating their raya break before coming back to school for their final exam for the semester. Another five days of teaching just to make it my 10th week of teaching practical in Sekolah Tun Fatimah.Whoa...time really fly!!

I just passed my second observation from my lecturer.It went well so to say.hehe.i enjoyed my class that day and i hope my students did too!they shown improvement on their mind-mapping skill and as i marked their work, I am delighted. They showed me their work with full commitment. I am very happy to see all the improvement and progression they have done. Well, though 4 weeks left, im going to try my best to teach them and finish the last chapter of the syllabus before i left the school. Oh, i already start to miss them just to think im going to end my teaching soon.haha.oh dear..but i have to say,this 10 weeks (until now~) is one of the wonderful moments of my life!~=) haha.I'll keep making memories of these and i hope i can continue to do my best in everything.

May all of my friends and my coursemates continue their best efforts in their teaching! Ganbare everyone!=)

here are some photos of my students that i took during experiment:

Here are some concept maps about difference in heat and temperature that my students did:

( i really didnt expect these but it made my day!!i love those girls~)

This is a special one.haha.i think i wont forget if i have a mind map shaped like this!~well done!~

2008-09-14T22:22:00.003+08:00

工大中秋晚会

日期：二零零八年九月十四日
地点： Laman Menanti UTM

Pei Keon & Pei Li *sweet*

Me & Pei Li

~+~Me + Mei Ching + Pei Li~+~

HAPPY MID AUTUMN FESTIVAL AGAIN!!!=P
*cheers*

2008-09-14T20:25:00.002+08:00

haha...i visited Rizal's blog after the previous post and got this...is really true!~im feeling tired and all im thinking now??...well, is clear!~ my friends and my rest!!!no secrets???haha...thanks rizal and hui hui for sharing this...=p..is a japanese website, is fun, u guys shud try it! just go here and type in your name!~let's see what's in ur brain!!have fun!~

2008-09-14T19:08:00.004+08:00

月亮圆，月亮圆，月亮照在我的家

八月十五

一天的时间就这样过了，明天又是新的一天，是我教学实习的第九个星期了。时间过得好快！做了快两个月的老师，我似乎也习惯了。每天都在和学校老师和学生打交道，用心准备教课和教材。不知不觉，实习也只剩下最后一个月了。两个星期后，开斋节也到了。一个星期的假期，我也还不知道要做什么。吉隆坡之旅临时取消了。我想到时应该也是时候好好休息，准备我的日文复习吧。

今天是中秋节。

今晚应该是家人团聚的好日子。一家乐融融地在庭中赏月、吃月饼。不过，现在的我身在柔佛，我妈在诗巫，就剩下我爸和小妹在家。我想啊...他们应该也没买月饼吧。说到月饼，我不会吃月饼诶。不知是否家里没人吃，还是很少吃，我的印象中也没什么关系到吃月饼，所以中秋节，我最没有口福啦！哈哈...=p

我想家，也想外婆。

今天也是我好朋友的生日。今年的她二十三岁了。不知为何，感觉才刚刚过了她二十二岁生日啊，怎么一下子一年就晃过了。哈...想想我和她也认识了将近八年吧？其实初中一就同校了，但没什么机会认识，因为我转校了。但期间还是有到她家去拜年，（哈！原来我和她的家很靠近！）到了高一，我们同校了但不同班。因为红新月会，友情更深一层。一起毕业了，我们再一起共度中六生涯，又再次同校不同班。回想起，那么多的回忆，那么多的体会，不知为我的生活添了多少色彩。好朋友在一起，分享生活、享受生活...我外婆过世，我的家里有事，不必说什么，她都会在我身边陪我渡过...不过当然斗嘴、生闷气我们也是少不了，哈...但都无心，更舍不得那份友情。婷，谢谢你！

我想我的一班老朋友。

突然发呆，突然心酸，突然不知要说什么。好久好久没有写出心里想说的话。突然...心里觉得舒服很多。

失去过什么，又从中得到了什么？

所有拥有的一切，握在手里，收在心里，是否有一天应该学会放开？

是否应该给自己多一点空间，还有多一点点地时间去回忆、去体会？

........我想是应该的。

2008-09-14T09:44:00.012+08:00

华文班十周年晚宴
HYB Nite

Date : 13th September 2008
Venue : M Suite Hotel, Johor Bahru

华文班
十歳の誕生日おめでとうございます！！！

叶老师， Hong Wu and 傅老师

It was a wonderful night. I was glad i made it. Many of our "senior" seniors came back just for the night. It's the 10th Anniversary of our MANDARIN CLASS SOCIETY!! everyone was excited to see the program lined up for the night. But most importantly, everyone cannot wait to see and meet all our old friends and "collegues"!!! Here are some photos i took during the night. i almost lost my voice when the nite was coming the the end.haha..for what reason im not sure cuz it's not like im shouting or wad, was speaking softer than i m in school teaching!!haha..but i enjoyed my self..as im having my teaching practical at the moment, i sort of lost connections with my friends in HYB!! but luckily, the night is just perfect for our reunion. Xiao Wei was there too. we were excitedly sharing our teaching experience..haha..anyway, the fun part is the photo-taking and the footloose. pictures speak the best.ENJOY!

girls rule!

Diner is served! (im hungry. i didn't have lunch cuz my school canteen didn open today!!=.=")

Xiao Wei, mE, Jenny & Jye Yuan

RocK & Su Ling performing live on stage!~ Su Ling sings sweetly!!! & Ah Rock ROCKS!!!haha..

C.K and Ah Yong.. Ah Yong's voice melts heart...i bet Pei Ling's heart melted too..haha...=p

Ah Rock & I +Partners for the night+

Ms. Kiu & Ms. Ida FUTURE Chemistry Teacher & Science Teacher haha....

The theme of the night: 华忆映时节，楷意传薪庆十年

mE in BLACK =)

YY!!!

Group photo No.1

Haha..The King of the night?? or the Queen??hmmm... (blue ribbon is for the guys, pink is for the ladies)

Me & Ah BEAN

ROCKＲＯＣＫ & Ms. Kiu

Me & the Queen!!

RoBin

Louis!~

Chung Huang! pEace eyo!

Cute yuan yuan!

Me & Rizal He speaks mandarin fluently!!~

GROUP PHOTO!!! (u will hear everyone running towards the stage when ppl start shouting this "command"!!haha)

BIG HAPPY FAMILY OF HYB!!!!!! I'm glad im one of them!!! cheers everyone!!!

And to end the night perfectly, i got a lucky draw prize!!!!haha..despite things happened to my car today, i guess im still lucky. (ahem..this is my first lucky draw prize!! i never win any lucky draw before!!haha) so, cheesing with my prize..haha...
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TadA~ a bath robe..haha...sponsored by JSaloon..
well, is perfect for my sis, she always want one..haha..

Lovely night...not mentioning my voice become "sexy'..haha..hardly hear wad i said...
well, just purrrfect!~
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& when the clock struck 12 midnight...

HAPPY MID AUTUMN FESTIVAL EVERYONE!!!!
中秋节快快乐乐！！！

~+~月圆圆，人团圆~+~

A Mooncake from PN. Lim (a teacher of STF) and Ferrero Rochers+Full Cream Milk Choc!!
ain't it perfect for a mid autumn? haha..thank you Pn. Lim..really sweet and thoughtful of you..

Last but not least....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TYNG!!!!
14.09.2008

happy birthday to you...
happy birthday to you....
happy birthday to xiao tyng
happy birthday to you!!!
hugsss!!

(remember that my voice was "sexy"??haha...)

My best friend's birthday!!!!haha...wad a special birthday! well, at least she got 2 cakes for her birthday..yeah, birthday cake and mooncake!!!haha...and also a beautiful moon for the night...miss you so much!!! hereby, i wanna say THANK YOU for being my friend, my company and my family!!!hehe..i wish that all ur dreams come true and stay happy always...May God bless you and shower your life with happiness and blessings!!!

Love yea!!muackkss!!!

Have a Happy Happy Birth-dAY!!!!
晓婷，生日快快乐乐！！

2008-09-07T08:58:00.003+08:00

An Inconvenient Truth

A GLOBAL WARNING

A documentary which was presented by former Vice President Al Gore about the compelling view of the future of our planet - and our civilization. This documentary delivers the message of the danger of global warming and the consequences that we will face if we just let the problem be. Mr. Al Gore's presentation of slides and data showing the all the reasons why we should take the problem seriously and that we must act now to save our only planet Earth, our home.

"Each of us can make changes in the way in which we live our lives and
BECOME PART OF THE SOLUTION."

is a MUST SEE...i don't want our Earth to be "gone" for our children to see and live..
we must do something to preserve it..starting now!~
PROTECT & CARE for our planet

we are our only hope..

2008-09-06T13:51:00.004+08:00

A Gift of LOVE
to
Papa & Mammie
~+~19.09.2008~+~

yea..i noe it's still early and almost 2 more weeks before mum and dad's anniversary..haha..but i knot wait to get them sumthing...sumthing nice and sweet just for their anniversary...so that's when i decided to make them a card..yea..handmade card for them...i know it's not exactly an expensive or special gift but im sure mum and papa will really appreciate it! mum kept all the cards that we (sisters) made for her since young!~hehe..oh..since is still days from my parents' anniversary, i think i will post the pictures later in case they visited my blog and saw it first..haha...but i dun mind sharing a photo i edited in photoshop specially for them....hehe..i hope they like it!~

miss u pa! & miss u mammie!~
love yea both!
-da-

2008-09-03T06:57:00.003+08:00

No connectivity!!

there goes my holidays~ oh, Happy 'belated' Independence dAy to my country!~spent my saturday at Tebrau City Jusco hanging around and watched "The Mummy"!!! finally, it's still on showing in Johor Bahru, not in Kuching anymore, so i thought i no more chance for me to watch in cinema...but wakaka...=) not bad, but kinda fake as mostly of the movie parts were computer animated characters...oh well, i enjoyed it anyway..just one thing, is too cold in the cinema!!!! i didn't bring along my jacket or my sweater...was shivering and nearly freezed!~cold lar~

after that, was room-alone for 2 days as my roomate attended a bible conference at her church..leaving me in room doing..emm...practically not nothing, i actually enjoy my time watching movies and cartoons...haha...i watched "Meet the robinson" for like...emm...many times!haha..it was such a nice cartoon..anyone has "Wall.E"? haha..cannot wait to watch it again though i ard watched in cinema...so cute...WALL.Eeeee...

one thing was bothering me this holiday..no connectivity!!!!damn... i knot online, knot update my blog..knot do anything!~ i was anticipating this holiday where i imagined that i can online for the whole day!!!but my plan wasn't able to work out without the connnectivity!~adui.....so dissapointed with the connection in my college..=(

oh well, im in school now..i reached around 640am!!haha..the staffroom wasn't open yet so i had to wait..=p finally i can online to surf..no class for me today but loads of work to prepare...7 more weeks to go...ganbatte ida-chan!!!~=)

have a great week everyone!*cheers*

2008-08-24T12:52:00.003+08:00

My piece of warmth and comfort

i totally forgot my blanket!!my baby blanket!!gosh...so sad lar...though is only another one and half month or more to go before i finish my practical here and go back home, i miss my blanket!!!~i never left it wherever i go..this is the consequence of last minute packing....hhmmmpppff~+.+"

Johor had been really "cold" for the past few days...it had been rainning and drizzling...lastnite was extremely cold and i had to wear my jumper to bed...real cold....

school will start as usual tomorrow,so as i also, teaching starts as usual.well, only less than two months to go, must really work harder and at the same time, enjoy my teaching practise..Wee...=)

i miss my blanket...anyone coming to Johor??mind to bring it over for me?

2008-08-16T11:53:00.002+08:00

新しいのBlog template

Teng teng teng teng!~ my new blog template..all new~but damn..i lost all my old page elements...it cannot accommodate the old version's page elements so i had to start my personal customization again!

to my friends who i lost ur blog add, or to new friends who got your own blog, do feel free to drop a line on my chatbox or leave a comment, so i can "reunite" with all of ya.

im still in the process of customising my blog..is "orange" i know...well, that suits me~haha...will be leaving Johor at 815pm later, guess will reach airport at around 6pm..still haven't pack..haha..lazy to pack lor!!~anyone wants to give me a hand?=p

is raining and the sky is so gloomy today...i havent take my lunch yet..so will do it soon!~

before that, will do more blog-hopping!~haaha...

take care friends..=)

2008-08-15T19:46:00.007+08:00

Review of "The LAST LECTURE"

today is the last day before my students head off for their one week holiday as well as mine. will be going home by Airasia at late evening tomorrow.eased by the feeling of finally settle a week's of lesson plannings and testpapers reviews, i took Mr. Randy Pausch's Last lecture which was laid on my bedside and started reading from page 15 when i reached my room at around 5pm.

It was amazing.

reading through his work is like listening to him telling you stories about his life and his final days living to the fullest trying to settle his family and yet still thinking of his work. It was truly inspiring. Till just now...I managed to read up to page 153 and i cannot wait to blog about it!!!

i am reading the section of "It's About How to Live your Life" and i'm already half way through it. i think i want to save it for my time while waiting to board my flight or even during my flight back tomorrow.

His last lecture on "Really Achieving Your Childhood Dreams" really wowed(a word i learned from his book) me!As a child, Randy had some many great dreams and the most interesting part is how his dreams came true with all his hardwork and determination. He's a real-life dreamer and achiever!!!! I really appreciate his work and effort. He's truly an inspiration to others. He was so real and yet seem so unreal..haha..ironic~but as i know that he passed away just two weeks ago really sadden me and made me grieved at such loss.

I will continue to read it and you bet i will read it again and again for my favourite quotes and cliches he wrote and told.haha.great man!~

i like one of his Live your Life thingy which is to be the first Penguin...

"EXPERIENCE is what you get when you didn't get what you wanted"

He wanted to encourage students to attempt hard things and to not worry about failing and he wanted to reward that way of thinking. So he created a award by presenting a stuffed animal - a penguin to one team of student at the end of each semester. It was called "The first Penguin Award". This reminds me of Happy Feet when Mambo was the first penguin to "jump" into the great water on their graduation!!hahaha....for you who don't get it, "First Penguin" winners were losers who were definitely going somewhere. Isn't it cool to have such lecturer??again..another WOW! for Mr. Randy!!

so much to share but it sure will be different if u can read it yourself!! I'm doing it now!!! I didnt expect to get this much when i started to lay my hands on this book!! you guys should try it!!!is great!!

I'm bringing this book home for mummie!!!i'm sure she will be delighted too.

yeah~yeah~ i'm going home..again! cannot wait to hug mum and papa, sis and sis, grandpa and grandma...and of course my a-hem..haha...

HOME sweet HOME~

Happie Holidays everyone!!~=)

2008-08-12T18:16:00.003+08:00

The LAST LECTURE
by RANDY PAUSCH
Professor, Carnegie Mellon
with Jeffrey Zaslow

finally i bought this book!~ it cost me RM34.90 (got it from MPH) and i think is worth it!!~*happy* well, i haven't start reading it but im looking forward to...to my friends, i highly recommend this book and i hope you all will like it and be inspired and motivated.is my pleasure to share.

Happy reading!~=) *cheers*

"We cannot change the cards
we are dealt, just how
we play the hand."
-Randy Pausch

2008-08-12T17:44:00.003+08:00

Brayman & Ursula

~*~Happy Engagement!!~*~
Congratulations!!

The engagement was announced on 10th August 2008 (Sunday). I went back to Kuching without telling my sis and gave her a big surprise!!~haha..i was so happy to see her and she was shocked to see me standing outside her room when she opened the door..haha...i hugged her and almost cried...i missed everyone so much...many things had happened but i thanked God for everything...He who blessed my family...

The engagement party was held at Hilton poolside. It was decorated with lovely purple and white ribbons..fresh white roses and a music band singing lovely oldies songs...it was a simple yet meaningful ceremony...Father Albert was invited to conduct the ceremony and blessed the couples...everything was so lovely...

I know that pictures speak the best but for now, i yet to get the pictures during the party..hehe..there were professional photographers taking the sweet moments and also cameraman...will post pictures later when i got them...

It was a different experience for me to see my younger sister engaged. I cannot stop smiling when they exchanged their rings...tears were filling my eyes.. i was even more emotional when Brayman suddenly kneeled and proposed to my sis!!!!! gosh!!it was so sudden and my tears cannot stop streaming down my cheeks!!It was like a fairy tale story..haha..of course my sis was so shocked (again!) and touched ..who wont be?? she said "yes" and eyes filled with tears of joys...Im so so happy for my sister and Brayman..my "future" brother-in-law!!!haha...i got a brother!!~thats really cool... I prayed that God will bless them and showered them with happiness in their life...May they always have faith and held on to each other to face everything that is coming to challenge them..As a sister, i felt really blessed with my sisters and family..thanks to mamie & papa too...haha..without them, i will never have the opportunity to feel the joy of having sisters in my life!!!~=)

so now, im back to Johor for my teaching practise...but will be back Kuching on Saturday!!!!haha..been catching plane twice in a week..well well, im really glad that i made it to my sis's engagement ceremony..how could i missed it??!!!~is my sister's engagement for heaven's sake!!!~hehe...for now,continue with my teaching in Sekolah Tun Fatimah and after Friday is bye bye Johor for a week and hello HOME!!~ miss home...=)

2008-08-06T21:54:00.003+08:00

Passion for RED

Here I am, sitting in front of my lappy with two piles of testpapers to be marked. hehe..I just managed to finish marking for one of my class (28 girls) and calculated their marks for their paper 2 which contains 5 structured questions. One more class to go, 30 girls. The girls sat for their Science Form 1 yesterday. I got the marking scheme only today so after that i started straight away during school hour.=)

i want to share a student's answer with you guys...i think is the "answer of the year"! haha...the question sounds "How do you want to test the presence of oxygen in the air?"

guess what this student answered?

"I will use myself for this experiment. If oxygen is present, i will survive. If oxygen is not present, I will die"

=.=" i cannot stop laughing when i read it. im not laughing at her answer though, dont get me wrong, but her creativity and imagination are awesome!!~ haha...so cute..too bad there's no marks for creativity of answer..or else sure she will get a perfect score!~haha...aint her answer adorable? my teacher was saying that she will give the student two glass jars and ask her to test the presence of oxygen and let's see what will happen...haha...gosh!~guess this student must be sleeping due to "inadequate supply of oxygen" in class...haha...really made my day!!~

Look at my new red pen which i bought along with the blue one on Monday..haha..just imagine..i think i can finish a red pen in 4 days..not only testpapers to mark, but also science experiment reports and files to check. but i got to say this and im saying out loud, im really enjoying!!~the feeling of fulfillment keeps rushing into me...when i looked at the students' answers and their work, i mark with my heart...haha...gosh..im not yet a teacher lar!!~ but just that feeling...maybe everything is still new and fresh to me, that's maybe the reason which keeps me energetic in doing all the work but i really hope this feeling will stay with me and wont fade away!!~i like the feeling...hehe...im really happy that i choose to become a teacher...and i will work hard for it!~same goes to everyone...never let yourself down..must be dare to dream and take up the challenges..go for it!! experience your dream and work hard....you may find what you really want and the real you deep inside~=p

have a lovely nite friends! i gotta continue with my testpapers!~good nite!!~=)

2008-08-05T19:05:00.004+08:00

Just for you guys!!!~

>>SABAH TRIP<<<

haha...i got all the photos from calvin's sabah's post for the backgrounds and the layout...and i did all these!!~including the "VISIT PASS" stamp!!haha....nice or not???!!~i hope you guys love it...forgive me if there's some kecacatan 'cause im still in the process of learning and upgrading my photoshop skill...this is where i can get so far...haha..anyway, im looking forward for trips to come with you guys and all the best experience in life!!take care my dear friends and happy always!!!!Tata!~=)

2008-08-04T20:40:00.004+08:00

Randy Pausch, author of "The Last Lecture" died

on 25 July 2008

The dying man who taught America how to live

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/people/randy-pausch-the-dying-man-who-taught-america-how-to-live-800182.html

This is the man who wrote the book "The Last Lecture", RANDY PAUSCH. He died last week, 25th July 2008 at the age of 47-years old. A Computer Science lecturer in Carnegie Mellon University in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania. He was famous for his last lecture on 27 September 2007 which he delivered in his University.

He was diagnosed with terminal pancreatic cancer in September 2006 and underwent an unsuccessful attempt to halt his cancer. He was told to expect a remaining of three to six months of good health in August 2007.

Pausch delivered his "Last Lecture" titled "Really Achieving Your Childhood Dreams," at CMU on September 18, 2007.

I read about his speech during his "Last Lecture". It was so nice of Ms Raha, Head of Language Department of my school (STF) to share with me. Here are some to share with all:

"I don't know how to not have fun," Pausch tells his audience. "I'm dying and I'm having fun, and I'm going to keep having fun every day I've got left."

"Never lose the childlike wonder," he advises. "Show gratitude... Don't complain; just work harder... Never give up."

And this is the one that stays in my heart and i cannot stop thinking about it......

"If I were a painter, I would have painted for them.
If I were a musician, I would have composed music.
But I am a lecturer. So I lectured,"

I'm really sad to hear about his death. Even though i never meet this man, or even have the chance to know him, but what he said and delivered was tremendous. It was inspiring.

May God bless this good man's soul and his family. I hope you guys can also read up or even watch his video on his "Last Lecture". It was amazing.

May Mr. Randy Pausch rest in peace~

2008-08-04T20:24:00.005+08:00

A Message by George Carlin

(he died recently, June 22, 2008)

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways but narrower pointviews.

We spend more but have less, we buy more but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge but less judgement, more experts yet more problems, more medicine but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom and hate too often.

We have learned how to make a living but not a life. We have added years to life but not life to years. We have been all the way to the moon and back but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbour. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We have done larger things but not better things.

We have cleaned up the air but polluted the soul. We have conquered the atom but not our prejudice. We write more but learn less. We plan more but accomplish less. We have learned to rush but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships.
These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses but broken homes.
These are the days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.
It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom.

Remember;
spend some time with your loved ones because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember;
say a kind word to someone who looks up to u in awe because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember;
to give a warm hug to the one next to you because that is the only treasure you can give with you heart and it doesnt cost a cent.

Remember;
to say 'I Love You' to your partner and your loved one but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember;
to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

And ALWAYS REMEMBER;

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away.

more about George Carlin

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i received this as an email from one of my friend..A message by Mr. George Carlin who is a comedian of the 70's and 80's..what he wrote was very eloquent and i admired him for that...the last sentence really meant a lot to me...Life should be like that...we should treasure every moment and count those moments that take our breath away~ just an article ought to share with you guys..is worth a share! Peace!~=)