Counting down to your birthday, 26th March 2011

A special day for a special boy whose heart i called mine

It's a pity his side is not where I am now

But we both know that the days for us to cuddle and smile

Can't be too far away from now

Today you turned 25 years old

and soon i will do too

Growing up has never been so fun and whole

with all the laughters i shared with you, oh and the tears we had too

The funny thing is i never feel days are old with you

no matter how things will change or how long the journey will lead us

I always want to remember there is only one you and only really just you

that will make the perfect you and me, the perfect us^^

Babe, im not very good at this but I still want to write something for you on your birthday

so bear with me and let our hearts do the magic

Because it is only with you whom I want to spend my days

and one day may we walk hand in hand towards our most wonderful dream^^

I Love YOU with all my heart!

(a little parcel of love for you)

and oh yes, I miss you very much too!

26th March, 2011

Your 10th Birthday with me and with God's blessing

From here on, more blissful days and lovely birthdays to come.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Darling!

Forever yours, da

Being part of this and that

Well, my first post for year 2011! Great^^even after so long... Without realizing, it has been 5 months since i was back from Japan. So where was I in this 5 months?what have I done?what have i experienced? Many.

Coming back from Japan seems to be the beginning. I was getting busy for Convocation and making arrangements for my family. Mum and sister and brother-in-law happily came for my ceremony. It was exciting being able to wear the big heavy robe and finally with the mortarboard on our heads, we smiled proudly for the award of our first degree. My mother was being extra happy for her achievement. It was heart-warming for me. I called my graduation 'her' achievement as I will not be who I am standing at where I am if is not for her love and support. I know this must have mean alot to her as I can see the smile on her face and the sparkles in her eyes! Yes mum, we did it! I'm so proud and blessed to have you as my beloved mother. God, Thank you.

My Family

My dearest mother

Sisters!

After graduation in September, October stepped in. It was an emotional October for me. Lots of reflection and feeling confessions that were bubbling inside me. It was unavoidable. There was no place to hide my feelings. I have never missed someone more like how i missed him. He is the one. The one who will be there for me along the road and the one who will hold my hand no matter what. I was terribly disappointed with myself for not being able to see that when troubles in life came and took control over me. But he was there. He is my everything. I thanked God for giving me and giving us a new fresh start to reconnect our hearts and souls. This is it. We both knew it, is now and forever.I have always love him and always will. It had been an emotional and heart-challenging process, but nothing beats a good come back and from that moment on, love has conquered our hearts and filled our life with happiness and laughters again...That's how the magic of love works! I'm so blessed and being in love with him is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. You and I, our hearts are one. Praise the Lord!^^

My dearest Sean Ho Chun Han, my first love, my best friend and my greatest companion...

Baby, I LOVE YOU.

While I have this great man with me riding the roller coaster of life, I was stuck with making decisions for my career. I am determined to be a teacher. However, the only thing i wasn't expecting was having the chance to be a foreign language teacher! I had been thinking of getting into secondary school and doing my best to make full use of my skills and knowledge of a Science teacher. Life is always unpredictable^^

There I was, during my final semester, being offered a chance to continue training as a Japanese Language teacher in tertiary level. It was a wonderful opportunity. The only part that kept me in doubt is being put on list for quite some time. I was told that I had successfully passed the interview for faculty in December, but ended up waiting for almost 2 months now for the confirmation of position by the Senate.=( At times, it was difficult. But I trust God as there will always be sunshine behind grey skies. I have started teaching Basic Japanese classes and being pay by hour basis. The classes are exciting. As I have students enjoying my class and sharing thoughts and feelings for the language and making exploration for the country, the people and the culture. It was rewarding in terms of contentment and self-satisfaction for teaching as you have students calling you "Sensei" and can't wait to join your class the following week.^^ However, due to my 'young' look (haha), some students of mine are not convinced that I am able to teach at such young age. Well, what do you think? =p

It can't be helped if I'm looking young as a teacher because I am young! hahaha. you dont get such experience everytime! we all will grow old some day, it is just the matter of time. So let time do its job and as for our part, living life to the fullest is the most important thing to remember!

New year, new resolutions, new hope!

To my family (mummy, sister, little sister),

I always pray for their happiness and good health. Especially my mum, finally it was settled. It's time to move on and get life colorful with new colors! My sister, being married for one year, I hope I can get some nephews and nieces as soon as possible!!!hahaha...and to my dearest little sister, being by yourself, travelling all around the world, fill your eyes and heart with beautiful things and may you always have guardian angels with you to keep you safe.

Both October Babies^^

I love you all.

To my love of life,

Darling, my world has all the wonderful things again with you in it. Thank you for everything and I know, our future will be beautiful as long as we keep our fingers crossed and our heart close to each other. There is no one like you. Be in love and in happiness always just like how you have made my days^^I'm with you till the end.

Life is different with you in it. It's great!

To myself,

There is no easy way to achieve success and happiness in life. Be true to yourself. Love yourself and love those who love you. Treat people with sincerity and you will get hearts full of love back to fill your days with blessings and hope. Do your best in what you do best and have great faith in God that He is there for you to guide you through any obstacles. Smile and believe He has a plan for you!

Like He always has...for my life!

Happy 2011!!! God bless you!

日本、さようなら！またね！～★

ただいま！
マレーシアへ帰りました！

Finally, 6 weeks had passed in a blink of an eye.how time flies!!! First I was busy preparing stuff going to Japan, the next thing i know, I'm back with a heart full of stories to share about what i saw and did in Japan, the beautiful people i met from 13 different countries and the most of all, the wonderful time spent making full use of my Japanese Language.

I sure miss many things about Japan.I'm still missing it.

But undeniably, is always feel so good to be back home.though im not exactly home yet, reached Johor lasnite around 1130p.m. I had started my journey back home since 830a.m. Japan's time and travelled on the plane for more than 7 hours due to two transits.What a day.slept most of the time during the flight from Japan to KK.Then spent the time talking with an uncle from KK to KL.by the time flying back from KL to Johor, i slept throughout the flight.Then reached my place in Johor 15 mins before 12 and had a good time chatting with my dear housemates about Japan.haha.is always great to get a good chat!

Finally, no more waking up before 6am in the morning.haha.today i slept till around 8a.m. woke up and did some unpacking. it's already mid sem break for UTM, hardly see any students in Tmn U. I met up with my Japanese Sensei and we decided to have Tendon at Sushi King for lunch. When i tasted the rice, i missed Japan even more!!!! i missed the gohan!!!and the miso soup~and the ocha~ huhu.nothing here can compare to those food which you can get anywhere all around Japan.

Had such a great time sharing with Sensei especially when talking about Tsukuba University. I wish to go study now! but everything still has to wait.and I will wait. Now all i do is focus on my JLPT N1 exam which i had registered for this coming Dec and as what it's important now is to get myself even more ready for my convo, my interview and my exam!!!

Spent the afternoon emailing my sensei in Japan. Before i even message my Homevisit family, i ard got the email from my Okaa-san. It was sooooo nice of her to send me an email concerning whether i have reached and attached a photo which she took during the Closing Ceremony of my 6 weeks programs in Japan.

(That's me receiving my certificate from the Most honourable person of the Kansai Centre.
Okaasan took it.^^)

This two lovely person is my お父さんandお母さん.The guy standing next to me is Ei-san who comes from Shanghai, China is my partner for the Home visit. He's a really nice guy and it's been my pleasure to meet him and as a team in many different activities during the program.

we do have the feeling of a family, dont we?hehe.I love this photo.

I guess things are getting back on track for me now.Rest for another few days i need to start my intensive study for my exam. I'll do my best!!!!

がんばれ～！がんばれ！～

日本、またね！☆⋆

Good bye Pn. Habsah

Today i got to know a really sad news.

A teacher of mine, who was one of my teacher-in-charge for School Club during my secondary school passed away this morning. To my secondary school friends, im sure you know Pn. Habsah who taught Account subject and also IT subject. I heard from my friend it was cancer. I was really sad and i cant believe what i heard.

... ...

I had a nap today because i was not really feeling good. the aircon was too cold eventhough i already adjusted it to 28 degree. i even open my window to get some fresh air the whole day long. I had a sad dream which i dreamt of attending her funeral. It was really unusual as i dont normally dream during nap time.but i guess i was really going to miss her and was thinking about her whole day.

My dear Pn. Habsah,
I will always remember you.

May your soul rest in peace.

God bless your soul.

A sad day for me~ =(

Loving yourself

Last night, i wrote a post in my fb.

"Sometimes cares fall on deaf ears,sometimes love brings so much hurt,at times hearts seem so near yet is so far and at times u dont understand why.You can never tell a child what is he going to be when he grows up,bt you can tell him how he can be better.I can never know what is there for me tomorrow,but i know i can smile now and make today a day to remember.You only live for once,so do it now!Love yourself~"

In life,so many ups and downs to go through.we never know what is going to happen next.Things can be complicated, things can be simple.It just depends on how you take it i guess. I'm a simple girl i think. simple things can make me very happy. when sometimes things just turn out to be aint as simple as i thought they should be and making my heart sad, i'll just have ice cream!!!haha.funny though...but it works, all-the-time!!! especially oreo cookie vanilla ice cream, it works the best! =p I just love being myself.

It's my final week in Japan.Ill be having my final presentation on Wednesday. There will be a total of three presentations.

1. The Partner University Visit
2. The Interview
3. The Poem

and guess wad, for the interview they actually will make it live on ustream on the internet. This is the first time they do it. But is my first time too! haha.going to present in a formal settings in full japanese!!!

Wanna share my first time with me?? I'll be glad to have you all with me during my presentation.I'll do my best~just dont laugh at my japanese language.hehe^^

here's the time to watch the live stream of my group presentation, my group will be the second to present so it will be around 1350-1400 i think.

Japan time: 13 30 - 15 40/Malaysia time: 1230 - 1440

http://www.ustream.tv/channel/%E7%A0%94%E4%BF%AE%E7%99%BA%E8%A1%A8%E4%BC%9A

Or you can reach the live broadcast at this address too.
http://www.ustream.tv/user/kansaicentre

im really going to remember all the things i did here in Japan. It is such a life-experiencing. Thanked God for my beautiful life.I'll be having a busy week. After my presentation on Wednesday,i'll be off to KYOTO and NARA!!! cant wait to visit that beautiful place in Japan.but first thing first, presentation preparation!!!~

so im going off to practise my poem...haha.a japanese poem,interesting~

Let's have a beautiful dream tonight.
Nite nite~

またね～★⋆

A Sunday in Japan

After a long day out in Osaka,today i find staying in my room doing pretty much nothing is something i enjoyed too.

woke up as usual at 630am, had a wonderful breakfast like always and started tidying my room~it was kinda messy for me since it was a busy week with the travelling and preparation for presentation.finally,i get a tidy room but still a table full of materials.hmmm~books and stuffs.my table is always full!

well,had a good lunch and a great chit chat with Katie in the centre canteen. It was so much fun chatting with her practically about everything!!!im going to miss her so much!!i know i sure will!~we were talking about our up coming Kyoto.Nara trip when we started to talk about shika, which means deer in Japanese. She was telling me that the shika in Kyoto are like running around the park without even bother about anything.In New Zealand, you cant really see shika cuz they are hiding in the bushes so that they wont be shot by hunters!!! and i was like...what?? I have shika in my Uni but they were in cages so that they wont run around and definitely no one's going to shoot them i think.

then we had this crazy thought that, what if we put the Kyoto's shika to New Zealand, the New Zealand's shika to UTM and UTM's shika to Kyoto.what will the situation be???

so the Kyoto's shika in NZ will be like:" why is everyone shooting at us??why????"
NZ's shika in UTM will be like:"Ouch~why is there cage around us? where's the bushes?where??where??"
lastly,UTM's shika in Kyoto will be going:"Why is this cage so big??I cant see the end of it!u sure??where's the food?"

hahahaha.it was so funny when we were doing the shika's expression...haha.gosh,tats really funny at that moment!

how funny when even animals are so used to their environment,they actually had their mind set on it.
what more it is for humans?=)
we really should be experiencing and getting to know more before we had our head stuck on to something which might not be the same at different time,different places with different people!!!

is cool though to hang out with her^^I love u KATIE!!!

now,is almost 10pm in Japan which is about one hour earlier in Malaysia.but im feeling a bit sleepy as im doing my stuff for the presentation preparation and having Ume Wain at the same time.It's tasty and smells really good too~^^

Drinking Japanese wine while listening to Japanese songs under the night sky in Japan...this is really something worth remembering!!!

I'm happy. Thank you dear God.

Guess i'll be off to bed soon.Sweet dreams.

お休みなさい～

A day with myself in OSAKA

I had the most wonderful day yesterday!☆☆～

Since this is my last 2nd weekend in Osaka, i decided to buy myself the one-day pass for Osaka visit which cost me 2300yen and I used it yesterday.

My plan was to visit 6 places,

1. The Teunoji Zoo
2. The Sakuya Great Observatory
3. The Maritime Museum
4. The Stata Maria
5. The Umeda Hep Five Ferrie Wheel
6. The Floating Garden of Osaka

My day trip started at Rinku town where i boarded the 8:47a.m. Nankai Line train.Let me list out my route.is kinda cool as u get to experience how convenient is the Train system in Japan!＾＾

０８４７　りんくうタウン（南海線）　→　天下茶屋（堺筋線）　→　動物園前

｢天王寺動物園｣　admission fee: 500yen

１１４０　動物園前（堺筋線）→　長堀橋(長堀鶴見緑地線）　→　鶴見緑地

｢咲くやこの花館｣ admission fee: 500yen

１３０３　鶴見緑地(長堀鶴見緑地線）　→　森ノ宮（中央線）　→　コスモクエア

｢なにわの海の時空館｣ admission fee: 600yen

１５０６　コスモクエア（中央線）→　大阪港

｢サンタマリア｣ admission fee:1600yen

１７００　大阪港（中央線）　→　本町（御堂筋線）　→　梅田

｢HEP FIVE 観覧車｣ admission fee: 500yen

｢空中庭園展望台｣admission fee: 700yen

２０５０　梅田（御堂筋線）　→　難波（南海線）　→　２１４１　りんくうタウン^^

I was so happy that i managed to visit all these places according to my plan and the trip was so worth it!!!the admission fee was already 4400yen even without the charge of train fees.I had a great time walking around, sightseeing and taking pictures to keep as my memories. I know my mum will be really happy and i might be spending the night telling her about the places i ve been. One day, il bring her and my dear sisters around Japan too^^

I even did some shopping in Umeda Hep Five Shopping mall^^hehe.thought of buying a backpack as mine has a large rip infront.but i cant find anything orange that i like!haha.il definitely get something orange for my new bag. I didn got a bag in the end, but i bought a top for myself. simple as it is, i like it^^

It was really a great experience going around the city by myself. I was supposed to meet up with my friends at the Maritime Museum but eventually we failed to do so.without having their numbers,i was unable to contact them. By myself,i did enjoyed my journey and i know this will be one of my most unforgetable day!!!^^

Another 10 more days to go before this program ends and i'll be heading back to Malaysia. Im sure going miss my dayssssss in Japan!!! till i write again, il make sure il spent the rest of my time in Japan to the fullest!!!

２０１０年８月１６日、大阪

またね～

Tadaima~

Back to Osaka.

A total of 4 hours 32 minutes travelling (I told u already how Japanese are so precise with time^^) with a distance of 666.5km!haha.I'm back safe and sound.A little tired from the travelling but i think il do fine with a good night sleep later~

Finally, I can say, "Tsukuba University, I was there!" Of course if i got the chance i would like to say, "Yea, I'm from Tsukuba University^^" but i guess that's going to be another one or two years before i can know whether I can go. I look forward to it~

This week just pass in a blink of eye! Tomorrow is friday and I'll be having a session to learn about Japanese Drum 太鼓(Taiko). Though i had a little exposure done back in Tsukuba this morning, cant wait to do it again with my UP buddies^^

Take a look at the pictures took this morning for the Japanese Musical Instruments & Odori(dance) exposure.

we had so much fun.the students even did some performances which was overwhelming especially how they perform with such lively spirit!

watch it for yourself and feel the beat!!!

It was cool isnt it?! we all enjoyed ourself^^

guess wad i'm doing now? waiting for my laundry.haha.after a busy week, is time to get my clothes washed especially since i didn bring many of them =p then again wad now? I have to do HOMEWORK~

My reflection of first two weeks

haha.yea, we are required to write memos about what we know about the Japanese Society and Culture(the white memos) and about the Japanese language that we learned*(the blue memos) during a certain period. It's useful to me. At least i get to write out what I see, I hear, I think and I feel~ it sorts out your learning process and you actually see all the pieces as a whole after u finish writing them all out.=)

guess i need to get on with my homework now.hehe.feels nice to have the study feeling even though im "half" officially graduated!hahaha.learning never stops! So always be ready to learn.

頑張ってね！
また～