UTM--->KL--->KUCHING~HOME~!!!

Today is Tuesday.i still have 2 sessions of Japanese class todae.will be leavin UTM to KL tonight.Jessica and many of my frens from Kolej are going to Sabah todae.they too will be leaving lata.that leaves me alone in Kolej.wahaha.will be taking bus alone too...ehem!~well..is not my first time taking bus to KL alone,so i guess that wont be a problem.however,i do wish someone would have accompany me,haha.at least i wont be so boring in the bus!!hhmmff*=p

is my final week in the WEST!!haha..at least for this year..Im having tis discomfort in my right eye..hmm..i dunnoe wad issit nar..mayb i still drink enough water..(but i drank alot alot d!!)hope the discomfort will disappear soon..

KL..will reach around 1130pm(i hope!) however,luckily i dun haf to go Pudu.ah huat will pick me up near Serdang area.at least i dun haf to wait at Pudu.haha.well,gonna get ready for Japanese class.My JLPT4 is this Sunday!!!wahh...will do my best nar~a bit nervous about it..haha..will take it cool..the test will be held in UPM,KL..hehe..never been to UPM,this will be a nice opportunity to visit UPM..till then,hAPPie hOLidAys everyoNe!!!!!

HoMe!!see u this SundAy!!

cheers!~=)

Exhausted

my eyes turned red and my cheeks are blushing...i feel the heat..guess im really tired after all the packing,moving,carrying...gosh!hate the college rules!

luckily jess is around to help me..or else..i cannot imagine moving all the bags and boxes by myself!!thanks jessica!!=)

tomorrow is Sunday...i guess 90% of the students from my college already went home..the cafe is closed for the holiday..my apartment is cleared..Kolej Perdana suddenly became like a dead city..hardly see anyone around...so here i am..staying wif jessica in her double room...really reminds me of my 1st year staying with my ex-roomate,mei wah...hehe..lovely girl..guess she must be enjoying her stay back home in ipoh..suddenly miss her..

i still got assignment to complete..physics...and japanese to revise!!~must focus!focus!nx sunday will be my test day!!wish me all the best guys!hehe..

tonite is a cooling,can feel the breeze but no stars..the sky is so plain dark..with my tired body,guess ill be having a good and sound sleep...sleep tight!sweet dreams~ZZzzzz....

paCkiNg pAcKinG

Ohayou gozaimasu!~

Beautiful friday morning...the final day of exam week!~ thr goes the bus..i gues today will be the last day for my uni's bus to operate..(the bus drivers must be very happy,one of them told be they will be paid during the one-month holidays without working!)hehe..good fer them as personally,i think the bus drivers(especially my college's bus) are wonderful people.they are considerate and friendly..at least much much better than other bus drivers from other college who may not be that "friendly"..well,no harm to treat ppl nice rite?!~

yesterday we went to JB City Square shopping mall.spent our whole afternoon there.was bringing janice, huiming and yun ning(janice's coursemate from UM who now are also my frens..haha..) "exploring" the so-called famous CS..took a public bus from Taman U and a 30 minutes ride before we reached the busy street of JB near JB custom. It was a fine afternoon.we jes doing the usual window shopping and eventually her frens bought something.we had our lunch at the food junction and there were people all around.youngsters, students in uniform, businessmen, family with babies and children...haha..it had been a long time since i last came CS...hmm...last Christmas i think..wen i went to Singapore to celebrate Christmas,that time i did drop by CS..walau..time flies...

Janice spent her nite at her fren's auntie's house lastnite..she's heading to Singapore today.i do hope she have a gud trip there.i didn follo her because there's things for me to do today..will need to clear my room before tomorrow.im staying in U4 which is the apartment of my college and we are not able to rent it since there will be programs going on this holiday and U4 will be occupied by the participants of the program.hmm..quite troublesome for us..im staying at 9th floor,and the store is at the ground floor!!imagine i had to move EVERYTHING(my books especially! they are so so so heavy) to the store..im staying in UTM until 27 nov..so ill be moving to u5(the block opposite U4) which we are allowed to rent for extent staying at college.

actually i already packed and stack up my books and notes.i jes nid to get nilon ropes and celotape and put them all in the big box.now leaving my closet to be clear..hehe...is almost the same every semester..how nice if we are allowed to stay in the same room or college for the whole duration of our course! that will really save us the time and energy.however,mayb is a gud thing to do some cleaning and clearing at times to avoid us pilling all unnecessary things..haha..ironic eh?how much thing will we have?=.=" is jes all the books and notes...

well well...gues i better start my packing now...gud day!~=)

HuRray!~Holidaes!
(haha...but of course,retirement still seems very very far from me...haha...)

well,thr goes my 3rd semester!~hehe..after the final checking of my SPP2006-Fundamental of Pedagogy paper,i walked out the examination hall with a smile.."finally..."it was such a relief to finish all my papers.i did my best and i hope that everything will be worthy.Hurray!! Holidays!!

Janice came to Johor.i went to meet her and brought her around UTM with a bike.haha.is her 1st time riding on a bike with me.i gave her a tour of my uni campus.after that,we went to have dinner in Taman U and she spent the night here at my apartment.i was so happy to meet a old friend of mine here.we chit chat and had a great time~=)

it is almost 530am here and i woke up around 430am.haha.it was so early!!~but i couldnt continue to sleep...haha..so here i am,sitting in front of my laptop,updating my blog..

is Thursday today..will be bringing Janice and her friends from UM to JB today..gonna b a "one-day tour guide"..haha...it had been quite sometimes since i last went to JB.It was a busy semester and im glad is over now so i get to recharge myself with all these holiday mood~happy~

to all my buddies in Swinburne who are having their finals now,all the best!!~ do your best and c u guys very soon!!

take care!~cheers*=)

失眠之夜

This was supposed to be my post the day after i finished my 2nd paper..however the line was terrible and i cannot even sign in my yahoo or friendster..so finally, here it is..in my blogspot blog..i suppose this one should i post in my friendster blog..but im unsure whether i want it to be thr or not..guess i still prefer it to be more 'private' and since tis blogspot is more personal to me,i decided ill post it here...hehe..

i anticipate the arrival of my holidays with hope i can have more to write about myself,my feelings and my thoughts...cheers!~=)

现在是凌晨12点20分。对我的室友来说，在这个时候看到我醒着算是一个奇迹吧…我也不清楚自己醒着的理由是什么，可能是我心里的情绪做怪吧。让每晚早睡的我，现在竟坐在电脑银幕面前，挞、挞、挞…随着手指在键盘上的摸索，不知觉得把我现在的情绪变成了文字。

到底是什么？是什么让我醒着？有点觉得我不应该在这样的夜晚坚决读完那本书——吴子云（或藤井树）的“寂寞之歌”。但在那时的我（即几小时前）虽然睡意渐有，却舍不得放下它，就这样眼睛半眯半开着地一口气把它看完了。看完了，灯灭了，心想说睡了…但糟糕我却睡不下了。心里老是在想着书里那几个句子，我想我能想象作者当时的心情吧~所以忽然之间，有所感触。回忆又像那微微的风，悄悄地在我心底深处掀起一阵小旋风，让我不得不去注意它。这时，我问我自己，为何我心会如此地忐忑？

那一霎那间，我有很多话想说。以前的种种回忆和当时的感觉也毫不客气地像多年不见的老朋友，一齐涌上心头。回想起当年所发生的一切，那算是初中和高中时期的少女情怀吧。我相信每个女生都希望能和自己喜欢的男生相遇、相知、相惜，在一生人只有一次的年少青涩中拥有一个浪漫甜蜜的爱情故事吧。（或许我这样的形容来虚幻了，感觉只有在现在的台湾偶像剧才会发生的事情。）但至少当时的我是这样想的。

当然，故事的发展并不是和我想的一样。那故事的男主角是出现了，就是我亲爱的翰。他是我的初恋。从相遇、相知到现今的相惜，这一路走来并不是那么顺利。我曾经以为他不再属于我的世界了。那时的我，在一大堆不清不楚的理由中，我努力地寻找说服自己放弃的借口，拼命地对自己说没事的、没事的。可是我到现在都忘不了那痛到心扉里的感觉。我想我这一辈子也忘不了吧。但我很珍惜这个感觉，因为就是这个感觉让我一夜之间“长大”了。

“对的，其实感情不就是这么简单的吗？

俩个人在相爱的时候分开，

那就是双方都有必须反省的地方…”

—— 吴子云

其实，今夜的我，不只是惦记着翰，想念着他。我心里也不曾忘记过在我生命中曾经和我分享岁月的“朋友”。我想要说…

伦，你在那儿还好吗？你的课程快读完了吧？我…我想说，谢谢你对我的好，对不起让你伤心了。我知道我现在说什么都没有用了，不小心摔破的杯，就算是多不小心，它还是破了。虽然很努力地将碎片接回，但却接不回裂痕，永远补不了的伤痕。你也已经在我心划了一条线，永远在我心深处留下一个值得珍惜的美丽回忆。我真心希望你会过得好。

祥，虽然我们在一起的时间很短，但是你还是在我生命中留下了脚印。或许那时的我们都还不清楚自己想要什么，但很感谢你的出现，也让我领悟到一些道理。我希望你能早日找到自己想要的目标，那个时候就不要轻言放弃了。加油！

翔，你还好吗？对我而言，你现在就像个陌生人。我有时都不知道我是不是真的是认识过你。事情的发生到现在也有两年了吧。我想你应该也有了自己的目标，过着自己的生活吧。不联络我是否是你要彻底忘了我的方法？可能吧。不管怎样，我也希望你是快乐的。

哇~说出了这些还真是舒畅了许多哦！我不知道别人会怎么想，但我觉得我不需要去在意。因为这是我的故事，这些都是我想说的。我真得很想告诉他们我心里的话。在此能和你们分享，是我的荣幸。也许有些话说出来会比憋在心里好很多吧！太多思绪的累积，如果没有适当的释放出来，会变成负担的。说出来也可能会得到意外的收获，感觉上自己又长大一点。哈…

我很感谢上天让我和翰有机会再次相惜。或许因为有些事情的发生才给了彼此这个机会吧。我们很珍惜它。现在的我们，过得很好。离开家乡到西马半岛求学的日子虽长，令我俩见面的时间也不多，但庆幸我们都知道只要心里有彼此，多远的距离都不是问题。这是真的。然而我不否认距离对我们不曾是问题，尤其在思念情绪泛滥的时、想第一时间与他分享感受的时候、失落想被爱人安慰和呵护的时候，这些“时候”就很容易变成了“距离的最佳利器”，一不小心都可能让一段感情成为无辜的牺牲者。所以我很用心地照顾它，而我也感受到翰的努力。谢谢你，亲爱的。谢谢你一路来的细心和爱，我都很珍惜。我们也一起走过不少的路，也一起长大了不少。我们继续一起加油吧！未来的日子还很长，但我相信有你陪我一起走，一定很美！我爱你。

现在是凌晨2时22分。

今夜，我失眠了。

2007年11月7日

"The LORD bless you and keep you;
the LORD make His face shine upon you
and be gracious to you;
the LORD turn His face toward you
and give you peace."
Numbers 6:24-26

One more week!!

Today ill be having my 4th paper-SPM1702 Multimedia Design.after this,2 more papers to go after i head for KL to sit for my JLPT 4. what a relief yesterday after i finished my SSG3573 Biological control paper.hehe..thank God. I can answered all the questions. at least im done for my 1st 3 credit subject. well, not to be too happy yet as i still got one more battle to fight.my SSP1223 paper-Modern Physics!!=p


will do my best!~cannot wait to start holidays!~hehe..to all my friends who have finished their finals,HApPiE hOlidays!!~ & to my best friend and buddies who start their final next week, All the bEst and giVe ur BesT pErfOrmance yea!!~im sure u all can do it!~Ganbatte kudasai!~ take care. C u guys wen im back! hugs!!~

LOVE

Love and magic have a great deal in common
They enrich the soul,
Delight the heart,
And they both take practise.

Tell me who admires you and loves you
and I will tell you who you are.

If you love something, let it go.
If it comes back, it's yours.
If it doesn't, it never really was in the first place.

Immatuire love says:"I love you because I need you"
Mature love says:"I need you becauses I love you"

Love doesnt consist in gazing in each other,
but in looking outwards together in the same direction.

You don't love a woman because she is beautiful,
but she is beautiful because you love her.

Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get,
it's what you are expected to give - which is everything.

To fear love is to fear life,
and those who fear life are already three parts dead.

We are born for love.
It is the pricnciple of existence and its only end.

Love doesnt make the world go'round.
Love is whar makes the ride worthwhile.

To love abundantly is to live abundantly,
and to love forever is to lie forever.

Love is love's reward.

so dear friends,don't be afraid to love...Love God like you love yourself and love your lover,family and friends...be loved and love others...take k and i love you all...

~Rainy days~

Finally,here i am, sitting in front of a desktop that allows me to online~ hmpff* im in my uni biggest computer lab (C.I.C.T.),just finished my 2nd paper (islam & isu-isu semasa)!~hehe..came out 15 minutes earlier since i had finished answering all th 80 MCQ~such a relief!~finally i can get all the facts out of my mind and start focusing on the other four subjects...tis is study life...we study and we exam...after exam we study again...it had been like tat since we step into school,well,for those who is working now,sure they will say "study life is the most enjoyable moment of life!!~once you start working,no more enjoy lor~so enjoy while you can!!~" really?.haha...however i think study and work,both have good and bad...which is which, i still dunnoe..so since im still studying..so..studying enjoys me!~haha...

my next paper is Bilogical Control which is on 16/11/2007 followed by Multimedia Software Design on 17/11/2007...aarrrr...10 more days before the 2 papers...thats mean 10 more days fer me to do revision..haha..guess there is ample of time if i really make full use of it...sure ill make full use of it since im staying in hostel and going nowhere...=.="..all i do in room is study and watch anime or cartoons..haha...(my favourite past time)..everyday almost the same...slept early and wake up early...life is really boring sometimes..how i wish i have wings and fly high up into the sky and feel so free and go wherever i want and fell the wind and....!!~~ahems*!~ (back to reality..that's not going to happen) wel,is nice to imagine things like tat sometimes...haha...blek!=p

Cold...is the word that is going around my mind all these days..is windy and rainy days in johor...it makes the days so gloomy and blue...but there is always rainbow after rain..is like telling me after exam, u wil have holidays..so cheer up!!~ do your best and great time awaits you!!! yea!! is true...im looking forward to finish my exam including my JLPT4 in kl and go home...i got so many plannings to carry out...haha...thinking of renovating my room, get a new colour for it...buddies' camping/gathering...haha...wonder who's the OC this time....oh yea!~i plan to organise 2nd 2003 Highians' Dinner!! anyone have any idea or suggestions??hehe...well..it excites me just thinking of all the things i can do after exam when i go home..yea..HOME~my favourite word...hehe...home sweet home!~

wow..happy thoughts make happy people...hehe...so happy to think of these...cannot wait to finish exam..so..HAI! GANBARIMASU!!~ must work harder and strive for the best!!! for all my friends having exam, relax yourself when u are stressed out...find your happy thoughts!!~list them out or shout them out...haha..believe me,it does give u a boost of energy!! after that,continue your hardwork and you will earn your fruits..hehe...all the best!~jia you!~

God bless~

Sunday 日曜日。かぞくのひ　Family day

The connection line really slow these few days..don't know what's the reason but it happens once a while..=.="...i cannot online,cannot chat,cannot read my mail,cannot surf net....bla bla bla...really annoying..finally the line was ok abit now..i quickly grab the chance to write something in my blog~

well..is 3rd Nov today..which means im going home in less than one month!~wahaha...i mus be home sick so seriously..haha...but hey,im sure everyone miss home here..especialy when we are "away" from home...like me!~=p

is Sunday!!~another family day...wow..how time flies..i remember writing in one of my blog also mentioning, Sunday Family day...hehe..today i am going to mass too..at the late evening...by the way,i am doing the 1st reading (in Mandarin) for today's mass...i have been attending Mandarin masses since im in UTM as most of the chinese students go for mandarin masses here..i always attend english mass in Kch,so it was quite "unfamiliar" for me to pray the prayers in mandarin..well,is God's house also..and now i am alrite,just still need to refer to the transparency to keep up with others...(i miss going to St. Peter's Catheral with my family every Sunday~)

is another beautiful Sunday!~ the sun shines softly and the breeze is so refreshing..is a beautiful sight from my apartment (9th floor) as i can see a wide range of view...i wonder if is the same lovely weather in Kuching...guess my family are on their way to mass now...while im here doing revision before sitting for my final examinations...

"Dear God, please bless my family with a great day and protect them from all danger and harm. Grant them peace and happiness in their heart and appreciate for being able to stay and live as a family. Dear God, please give me your strength and shower your blessing upon us so we can stay strong in love and faith. Love you God. Thank you. Amen~"

Have a lovely day everyone!!~ God bless...

Final GANBATTE KUDASAI!!! =)