A daY in the fiNal wEek of the SeMesTer

Today, we had a simple tea party with En. Muslim, our "Laboratory Safety & Management" Lecturer...i was in-charge of it..so early morning, my first stop at the uni's cafe..waiting for the food to be ready...=)

Our Lecturer, En. Tuan Hj Muslim giving his 'sepatah dua kata'...(actually more than that..haha)

En. Muslim :" Class, remember, the 1st rule is "Do not eat in the laboratory"."

Makan, makan..habis makan baru ada tenaga belajar!!!

we had nasi goreng, bihun goreng, curry puff, roti prata and dhal...yum yum..very full!!!hehe..glad everyone enjoyed!

it was damn hot at 1:55pm when we were on our way to Etika class...the next minute..i mean hour, the sky turned so dark and then down came the rain...the rain was so so heavy and the lightning was damn scary lor...we don't want to get ourselves soaky wet since we came to class by bike...so....

.....while waiting for the rain to stop..we have something to do...

1/2 gayitri..... 1/4 pAe..... 3/4 ida......

ahh...at last, a PERFECT shot!!!haha...

Wanna guess how long is my hair??hmm.....

Finally, the rain became smaller and we grabbed our bags and speed back to kolej! haha...the wind was so chilling..

yeah yeah...back room safe & sound =p

-my fiNaL WEeK_10/04/2008-

My new APACER AH225

Bought it yesterday..2GB..just thinking of having another pendrive for my personal use...its mini and simple design attract me..but there is another reason i choose it compared to Kingston and other design of Apacer...

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it's a special edition with a free ORANGE magnetic cap!! haha...well..u noe me...cannot resist orange thingy...=p

Malam Puncak Perdana IV

...Funky Nite...

Date : 30 Marach 2008
Venue : Sultan Iskandar Hall

This was surposed to be before DeanList Ceremony..but the photos came in late...so here they are...haha..what a night! Im glad that everything went well and the efforts of the committee were worthy..but just one thing..they forgot about the MCs who didnot even have the chance to eat or given a sip of water after rushing for rehearsal since 2pm!! hmmff* reached my room around 130am and had a cup of hot milk as my 'dinner'..haha..wad to say...but im glad everything turned out successfully! thumbs up for the performers and the committee!! job well done!

One shot on the stage =)

Me again =P

Praveena (my partner) & me



Pn. Noordiani & me_our clothes match!!

Pengetua & me_Funky!=)

DeanList Ceremony 2008

Date: 03 April 2008

Venue : Sultan Iskandar Hall

At my Faculty

"Knock knock..May i enter?"

me & Peggy

Jessica, Ming Fong & me_OrANgE!!!

SPN with our Dean

My coursemates_Congrats to aLL!!

My MiCroTeaching

My Record book (For my teaching practice next semester)

My nametag with a "ME"

Cikgu Munirah & Cikgu Ida

Let's start the lesson after the posing shall we?=)

It was finally over.i had done my microteaching today.everything went well and im delighted.thanked god.hehe. it was fun and my "students" were very supportive.haha.i hope everyone had a good time. well, there goes my first "proper" teaching experience.=p

A Blessed ME

My day was well spent. I am very happy today. It was a usual Monday as my class started at 8am and surposed to end at 4pm with only one hour break at 1pm. But today, english lecture was cancelled. so i was free since 1pm. one of my hometown senior asked me out for lunch, seeing nothing was in my way, i gladly agreed. we went to Tebrau jusco where we had chicken rice for lunch and i wanted to visit the biggest bookstore in JB!! (i guess..) - HARRIS. i spent my whole afternoon there and i found these great books.

...short stories about schools, teacher-students, motivational short stories and also love-myself stories for teachers to motivate students...

GUESS WHAT!!i got this for RM 18.90 only!!!! i was so delighted!~JAPAN, awaits me..haha...

Wow..i was really happy lar..

what can i say..is like recharging myself and doing something i like after weeks of rushing assignments and tests and staying in my room!!! i was so relieved as i scroll through the piles of book on the bookshelves....looking at books and magazine of different categories...it was great....and guess what..i even managed to get han's birthday present!! hehe...i was wanting to come to Tebrau jusco but find no time...so i thought mayb before the semester ends ill come to buy han's favourite...Wh store's boxers!!! haha..it is the only branch i know...i was searching for it in KL but never found...so i guess is only here to be found.=p

So tis is it! nicely packed and ready to be sent back to Kuching by POSLAJU...wakaka...im so excited and i hope he will be very very happy when he gets it...An early birthday present..just from me...=)

I believe God answered my prayer in this way..he makes me really happy and felt so blessed...God's love filled my heart...as we prepared ourselves for this holy week, let us always give thanks to HIM and pray hard...God is always with us...Thanks be to GOD! I love you, dear Lord....God bless everyone and the world...

*CheErs!*

DizZy MushRoom

i was diagnosed to have minor "food poisoning" this morning when i went to my Uni's Clinic to get some medicine for my dizziness since yesterday afternoon!! Yesterday after my Japanese class, just before i stand up to leave the room, i felt a sudden strange dizziness....i didn give in much thoughts and even went out to fill petrol for my bike....lucky for me to reach room safely!!thank God...when i reached my room, i was feeling awkward as i constantly cannot keep myself in balance and the world is like "unstable" to me...after a few attempts of almost fell off my feet, i went to bed at 10pm lastnite...argghh....i was suspecting the mushrooms and vege that i took for lunch yesterday..without any doubt, im right!


so guys..please take care of what you eat...especially food that you eat outside...some of the causes may not be the food..like in my case,i had tried the mushroom several times and this is the first time i have experienced this effect...it mayb the cooking ingredients of the chef or the fertillizer used by the supplier...i dont know..but the only thing i know is that...i will not be eating mushroom for a very long time!!


ja!~

A SWEET taste of HOME

I was reading through the emails that my friends forwarded to me when i came across this one...all about ice cream..yumyum...cant resist it...and the most important thing...

it reminds me of home...

i grew up with ice cream..believe or not, i even wonder my name "I"da also related to "I"ce cream...haha...since young, my school parties, my tuition parties or my birthday parties...ice cream will always be in the menu...my family owns a mini ice cream factory...my dad will make our own Majestic-recipe ice cream...the ice cream that we produce normally goes to the shoplets or koperasi in the kampung area...thats why you wont find my dad's ice cream in the city (unless you come my house..haha)

my dad drives his ice cream lorry and spend the day driving for hours to reach the kampung areas to distribute his ice cream and sell to the shopkeepers there..i had experienced some of the trip with him and it was really interesting and i have special feelings for all of it..i got the chance to see how people live in the kampung, how my dad interact with them, the things and surroundings that you wont be able to experience in the city..i will always climb to the back of the lorry and my dad will tell me the type or the quatity of the ice cream to take and pass to him...that's the best father-daughter interaction i have...haha...however, my dad dont really want me to follow as he dont want me to get tired because he know it always does....so he rather keep me staying in the office doing the paperworks...=.="...sometimes, just sometimes, how i wish im my dad's boy so i can share his work and go along with him...haha..what a thought..but anyway, im proud to be my dad's girl and i always will be....

home...i miss you so much....one and a half months to go...i cannot wait...

papa and mamie...i miss you both so much..take care always and ill be home soon to be in your arms...love you both!!!

J33- SEKOLAH TUN FATIMAH

A Twist of fate

I was on my way to class that day when me and gayitri met En. Ali who is the coordinator for our teaching practise next semester..i was told that he refined the placement and decided to put me to STF which was also my first choice. i was stunned. seriously, i was speechless because i thought there was no chance for me to get that school and i was so ready to go to St Joseph, JB. Haha. However, the news from En. Ali did somehow make my day.=)

Pn. Khadijawati was the first one in my mind that i want to share this good news with her. just reached her lasnite and she was really happy that i got that school too...hehe...guess somehow God arranged a surprise for me..hmm...from what i know, STF is a well-known boarding school in JB..i heard that the girls there are smart..the school has been well-maintained and with high reputation throughout Johor and Malaysia! Phew!~ this means i must work extra extra hard and make full use of my time in STF...i pray that God will guide me through it and i will do my best!!

And guess what, i was surfing through the net looking for some information on the school..eventually there is a official website of the school! wow..very cool..im impressed~

this is the school logo that i found from the school website...well, guess i have a lot to catch up and must polish up my teaching skills so that i wont let my dear parents, teachers, lecturers and myself down! will do my best!!

Ja!~

我活了 我愛了 我都不管了 心愛到瘋了恨到酸了就好了 可能的 可以的 真的可惜了 幸福好不容易 怎麼你卻不敢了呢？我還以為我能 不同於別人 我還以為不可能的 不會不可能”。

-摘自梁静茹的新歌——“崇拜”-

这几天，天气都冷冷的，很想找“东西”来暖暖自己，却被我发现听歌也是一种取暖的方法，但暖和的是我的心。“崇拜”中的这一段特别令我有感觉。听着听着...平静的心又荡起涟漪。可能是前几天发生了一点小事故，让我觉得，爱情，真的可以是世界上最坚固的东西，但同一时间，它可以是很脆弱，很不堪一击的。幸好对我来说只是他一时之间的想不开，所以不以为然。一番理解后，一切雨过天晴。但也令我有所感触。听着歌，想着他....对我而言，真的只要活着爱过了，其实不需要去计较那么多。人，都会对失去的“一切可能的，可以的”感到惋惜。我也是会，因为我是人。这应该是最好的理由。

幸福的定义有很多。俩人能相爱到老，一起体验生活的美好，可能这一生也无憾了，是幸福。如果明明遇到爱的人，但却没有结果，那这一生却也是否无憾至少遇到过那个她/他，那也是幸福？至少我曾经这样想过。

世界何其大，要在对的时间遇到对的人，那个机率是百分之几？还是万分之几？我扯到世界也未免太离谱了吧...那就把范围缩小到自己的生活圈吧..机率又变成了多少？或许爱情和感觉不能与数字和理智画等号吧。算了吧...

今天才知道，我其中的一位好友失恋了。失恋了，过了一段时间就好了；心伤了，过了多久时间才会好呢？是否想过，感觉真的很奇妙。恋爱的时候，总会有甜甜的感觉；伤心的时候，带有苦涩和酸酸的感觉；失恋的时候，它带来的感觉却是失落和失去的感觉。东西不见了，安慰自己说，东西不见是难免的，下次小心就好；爱情呢？是不是也难免呢？是不是下次再小心就好？......

朋友，希望你安好。

私の日曜日＠My bEautiFuL SUnDay

LuncH_lakcheong mushroom black pepper fried rice(haha..it tasted GREAT!!=p)/JaPanese GreEn tEa/my hOme-going-cOuntdown

ElEctrOnic_tuToRiaL SuPerpOsitiOn theoreM for RLC CirCuit/mY pRoCessOr/Another dAy in KoLej PERDANA,UTM

Check out this laptop from Apple! World's thinest Notebook!

Unbelievably...thin!!Aiseh~cool!

Ohayou Gozaimasu, Sensei!~

i got my result for the school that im going to do my teaching practise...guess which school i got? of course not schools in Kuching..thr's a bit disappointment when i know that i cannot go back to teach in Kuching...but well..is still ok..at least i get the chance to experience teaching in Semenanjung...back to your guess..no idea? check this out..

J29-SMK St. Joseph, Johor Bahru

i didnot get my first choice. this is my third choice.somehow i gladly accepted it.i was wondering whether it is same as St. Joseph, Kuching??it also reminds me of St. Thomas, Kuching....the atmosphere of the school...haha..too many thoughts start filling in my mind..well...is a boy school..yape,should be challenging but im excited to face the challenges..wish me luck!~but i will definitely do my best! Teaching practise will start in July...i must make full use of my time to prepare for it..cannot wait till the days! im sure it will be a wonderful experience..

God bless the school...God bless me~cheers!(",)/

“失”与“得”

今天，我的手机不见了。

第一次真正懂得“欲哭无泪”的感觉...

失恋的时候，至少我还会痛快地哭一场。今天的我，哭不出，不停地抽绪，也只能等心情回复平静，但是伤心和惋惜的感觉挥之不去。

上个星期，原本以为失去了pendrive，却从一位好心的马来朋友手中得回来。失而复得的心情是很不错，却没想到今天又让我尝到“失去”的滋味。

“失”与“得”都是一种心情，只是看我们如何去看待两者。

或许我们太习惯用好的心情对待“得”，反而不懂得用好心情来接受“失”。

难道真的是这样？

现在的我，怪自己的粗心大意，怪自己的不细心，但又如何？尝试在刚才的巴士搜寻，但可惜有人比我快了一步。东西已经失去，能不能得回，就要看那个拿了我手机的人愿不愿意做个好心，把它还给我...

有人说，失就是得，得不偿失，有失就有得...耐人寻味~

算了吧。在这里也只是想抒发心情。至少比憋在心里好受。

今天我又再告诉自己：不要再这么粗心了！！大头虾！

P.S:朋友们，对不起了！你们的联络我又要一个个收集了。到时别介意我不认得你们的手机号码哦。

我也不想的。

手机不见日.2008年3月5日

轻轻告诉你...

终于想起这首歌是怎么样唱的了！一首小时候唱的歌。歌词虽简，但歌词其中所带出的童真与真诚，真的很难得...所以我很喜欢这首歌。时常还是会哼上一两句...朋友，你喜欢吗？（=

不要问我太阳有多高

我会告诉你我有多真

不要问我星星有几颗

我会告诉你很多

让我轻轻的告诉你

天上的星星在等待

分享你的寂寞

分享你的欢乐

还有什么不能说

让我漫漫的靠近你

伸出双手你还有我

给你我的欢笑

我的祝福

生命阳光最温暖

不要问我太阳有多高

我会告诉你我有多真

不要问我星星有几颗

我会告诉你很多 很多

A true friend is one who is concerned about what are we becoming,

Who sees beyond the present relationship,

and who cares deeply about us as a whole person.

"That's what a friend is for,

when you lost in darkness and searching for the light,

to help you through those lonely nights,

when everything around you fails,

just hold out your hands,

I'll come running.

To love without condition,

To talk without intention,

To give without reason,

And to care without expectation,

Is the heart of a true friend,

& that's what a friend is for"

Take care my friends..

-Love,ida-

教师是人类灵魂工程师。

天赋再好的孩子，如果没有经过教师的指导、塑造，也难以取得傲人的成就。

师者，所谓传道、授业、解惑也！

01.03.2008 1st dAy of MARCH

This is my 3rd Saturday since my break from cny...alot had happened in 3 weeks...i had just submitted 3 assignments in a row and guess what just happened? my lappy was infected by stupid mIRC virus!!!=.=" i was really upset as i have been caution with my lappy and was 'protecting' it from the attack of virus...well,what can i say~i was forced to open my group member's pendrive and without even clicking on the "open" button, vUaLLah!~$%^!@@#! so my lappy has to be hospitalized..but luckily one of my dear friend, a well-known computer expert from my college, JACKY helped me with it..=) however, i lacked some of my driver's compenents..so will be out to get it somewhere or mayb download it at cc...

so that's what happened to my lappy..and then, my pendrive...=( accidentally left it in my programming lab yesterday evening...called my demonstrator, she said it should be alrite since our class was the last class...so i can still go try to get it on monday morning when the lab assistance open the lab..dear God..i pray is still there..even though, the price of a pendrive is unbelievably cheap nowadays (1GB=RM25;4GB=RM59!!!) but i still hope i get mine back...my 1GB Apacer-black,my first pendrive~=(

i checked online and found that the result for the placement of students in school for our Teaching Practise next sem is out!!! unfortunately, i will not be able to go back Kuching to do my practical...so dissapointed..but look at the bright side, at least i can still be around in UTM to attend my JLPT3 preparation class...speaking of JLPT, i wonder how was my JLPT4 result??!~it should be on its way from TOYKO & i hope is a big envelope with a certificate in it....haha..i crossed my fingers...

back to my Teaching Practise,i have chosen Sekolah Menengah Tun Fatimah in JB zon A...it is my first choice...what i heard from my lecturers and friends is that it is a very good school~one of the well-known school in JB..is a girl boarding school..i am really anxious about the result..i hope i get it...Pray for me guys!~=)

this sem is really packed with assignments, projects and studies...electronics, C++, Authorware and so many others subjects to revise...however, time flies..this is now the tenth week and the semester will end in week 15..and ill be back home on 030508!! haha..unfortunately, it will be real rushing for me as my last paper will end at 430pm on that day which after that i have to catch my flight at 1925pm...=p well, guess it wont be a problem with good timing...

HoME!~a place a miss so much...just wanna go home...i anticipate for the arrival of the day to go home...it will be approximately 2 months holiday before i come back on 060708 for my practical..will be expecting to work as temporary teacher in Kuching High during that holiday..afterall, i need to polish my teaching skills and get familiar with the Science syllabus..hehe...very excited..im going to teach in schools!!im going to be a teacher!~haha..will do my best!

*CheErs!*\(",)/

我亲爱的部落部，我好久没上网写了。但你是否有想念我?

满怀期待的新年也过了。对不起，来不及祝你“元宵节快乐”！但你是否有看到那明亮的满月高挂在漆黑的夜空中，偷偷地在向你述说我对家人和朋友的想念？

迫不及待就在新的一年前夕就开学的新学期，现在也过了一半，我还没真正能喘口气，每天就为了学业和功课奔波！但你是否有看到我内心对自由的向往和呼喊？

我亲爱的部落部，请原谅我这么久才出现。一直以为…反正写不写也没关系，都只是自己和你在聊天。但你是否知道我现在才发现到有人的出现就算只是带来一个简单的问候，那对我来说就好比一个很久没见的朋友给我的一个温暖的拥抱！是一支强心针！我想我是幸福的…因为我不只有你，默默地等着我的出现，等着我分享我生活的点点滴滴，我的心情，我的想法，我的一切…原来，还有我的朋友…谢谢你！让我在忙碌的生活中终于找到放慢脚步的理由…想想是时候养一只蜗牛，有空带它散散步，这样或许我会发现身旁一切的美好…也只是等待着我去发觉…

好想好想…散步…

2008.02.23

Shinnen Omedetou Gozaimasu!~welcome 2008!!

here i am, back to UTM on new year eve. Before u realised, the clock striked 12am and GOOD BYE 2007 & HELLO 2008!!!

reached UTM around 6pm.the road was quite jammed at senai area. i was informed that my apartment room was changed and so when i reached my new room, i had to rearrange my cupboard, my bed and my table...my everything...boxes unpacked yet..and my closet still empty..haha..was so tired that nite and i slept soundly after making call to han to wish him happie new year...glad that they are having a great time for countdown..=)

is the 1st day of year 2008 and sumthing happened to me.i lost one of my boxes which i put in the store room during holidays...so sad=(...i guessed sumbody just took it..cuz inside there was my iron,my table lamp,my tupperware bottle and sum useful stuff...i was disappointed when i was certain that i cannot find it anywhere anymore..but mommy was telling me is okay and since is new year,i can get new things..ha..so sweet of mum,but i still feel bad of having to spend these "unnecessary" money to buy the things that i supposed dun haf to buy..well,no needs to cry over spilled milk..so i'll b more caution next time and make sure i keep my things safely..hope u guys who are also staying in hostels,take note of this...=)

today is wednesday..2nd of jan 2008...classes had been going on as usual..im registering for Japanese 3 tis semester..however,there wont be any credit class so i'll be attending the paying class..hopefully i can also attend the JLPT3 preparation class this semester to get me ready for the year-end test..wah..im gonna do my teaching practise next semester!! kinda excited but too bad i knot go back hometown to do it..haha..oh well, is the same i guess..new environment will give me more experiences and hopefully i can do my best!~

Once again, a new year, a new beginning...must work harder this semester and i prayed that life will be happy and interesting for me...must live life to the fullest!!~
same goes to everyone!!take k and happie owez..

God bless..=)

UTM--->KL--->KUCHING~HOME~!!!

Today is Tuesday.i still have 2 sessions of Japanese class todae.will be leavin UTM to KL tonight.Jessica and many of my frens from Kolej are going to Sabah todae.they too will be leaving lata.that leaves me alone in Kolej.wahaha.will be taking bus alone too...ehem!~well..is not my first time taking bus to KL alone,so i guess that wont be a problem.however,i do wish someone would have accompany me,haha.at least i wont be so boring in the bus!!hhmmff*=p

is my final week in the WEST!!haha..at least for this year..Im having tis discomfort in my right eye..hmm..i dunnoe wad issit nar..mayb i still drink enough water..(but i drank alot alot d!!)hope the discomfort will disappear soon..

KL..will reach around 1130pm(i hope!) however,luckily i dun haf to go Pudu.ah huat will pick me up near Serdang area.at least i dun haf to wait at Pudu.haha.well,gonna get ready for Japanese class.My JLPT4 is this Sunday!!!wahh...will do my best nar~a bit nervous about it..haha..will take it cool..the test will be held in UPM,KL..hehe..never been to UPM,this will be a nice opportunity to visit UPM..till then,hAPPie hOLidAys everyoNe!!!!!

HoMe!!see u this SundAy!!

cheers!~=)

Exhausted

my eyes turned red and my cheeks are blushing...i feel the heat..guess im really tired after all the packing,moving,carrying...gosh!hate the college rules!

luckily jess is around to help me..or else..i cannot imagine moving all the bags and boxes by myself!!thanks jessica!!=)

tomorrow is Sunday...i guess 90% of the students from my college already went home..the cafe is closed for the holiday..my apartment is cleared..Kolej Perdana suddenly became like a dead city..hardly see anyone around...so here i am..staying wif jessica in her double room...really reminds me of my 1st year staying with my ex-roomate,mei wah...hehe..lovely girl..guess she must be enjoying her stay back home in ipoh..suddenly miss her..

i still got assignment to complete..physics...and japanese to revise!!~must focus!focus!nx sunday will be my test day!!wish me all the best guys!hehe..

tonite is a cooling,can feel the breeze but no stars..the sky is so plain dark..with my tired body,guess ill be having a good and sound sleep...sleep tight!sweet dreams~ZZzzzz....

paCkiNg pAcKinG

Ohayou gozaimasu!~

Beautiful friday morning...the final day of exam week!~ thr goes the bus..i gues today will be the last day for my uni's bus to operate..(the bus drivers must be very happy,one of them told be they will be paid during the one-month holidays without working!)hehe..good fer them as personally,i think the bus drivers(especially my college's bus) are wonderful people.they are considerate and friendly..at least much much better than other bus drivers from other college who may not be that "friendly"..well,no harm to treat ppl nice rite?!~

yesterday we went to JB City Square shopping mall.spent our whole afternoon there.was bringing janice, huiming and yun ning(janice's coursemate from UM who now are also my frens..haha..) "exploring" the so-called famous CS..took a public bus from Taman U and a 30 minutes ride before we reached the busy street of JB near JB custom. It was a fine afternoon.we jes doing the usual window shopping and eventually her frens bought something.we had our lunch at the food junction and there were people all around.youngsters, students in uniform, businessmen, family with babies and children...haha..it had been a long time since i last came CS...hmm...last Christmas i think..wen i went to Singapore to celebrate Christmas,that time i did drop by CS..walau..time flies...

Janice spent her nite at her fren's auntie's house lastnite..she's heading to Singapore today.i do hope she have a gud trip there.i didn follo her because there's things for me to do today..will need to clear my room before tomorrow.im staying in U4 which is the apartment of my college and we are not able to rent it since there will be programs going on this holiday and U4 will be occupied by the participants of the program.hmm..quite troublesome for us..im staying at 9th floor,and the store is at the ground floor!!imagine i had to move EVERYTHING(my books especially! they are so so so heavy) to the store..im staying in UTM until 27 nov..so ill be moving to u5(the block opposite U4) which we are allowed to rent for extent staying at college.

actually i already packed and stack up my books and notes.i jes nid to get nilon ropes and celotape and put them all in the big box.now leaving my closet to be clear..hehe...is almost the same every semester..how nice if we are allowed to stay in the same room or college for the whole duration of our course! that will really save us the time and energy.however,mayb is a gud thing to do some cleaning and clearing at times to avoid us pilling all unnecessary things..haha..ironic eh?how much thing will we have?=.=" is jes all the books and notes...

well well...gues i better start my packing now...gud day!~=)

HuRray!~Holidaes!
(haha...but of course,retirement still seems very very far from me...haha...)

well,thr goes my 3rd semester!~hehe..after the final checking of my SPP2006-Fundamental of Pedagogy paper,i walked out the examination hall with a smile.."finally..."it was such a relief to finish all my papers.i did my best and i hope that everything will be worthy.Hurray!! Holidays!!

Janice came to Johor.i went to meet her and brought her around UTM with a bike.haha.is her 1st time riding on a bike with me.i gave her a tour of my uni campus.after that,we went to have dinner in Taman U and she spent the night here at my apartment.i was so happy to meet a old friend of mine here.we chit chat and had a great time~=)

it is almost 530am here and i woke up around 430am.haha.it was so early!!~but i couldnt continue to sleep...haha..so here i am,sitting in front of my laptop,updating my blog..

is Thursday today..will be bringing Janice and her friends from UM to JB today..gonna b a "one-day tour guide"..haha...it had been quite sometimes since i last went to JB.It was a busy semester and im glad is over now so i get to recharge myself with all these holiday mood~happy~

to all my buddies in Swinburne who are having their finals now,all the best!!~ do your best and c u guys very soon!!

take care!~cheers*=)

失眠之夜

This was supposed to be my post the day after i finished my 2nd paper..however the line was terrible and i cannot even sign in my yahoo or friendster..so finally, here it is..in my blogspot blog..i suppose this one should i post in my friendster blog..but im unsure whether i want it to be thr or not..guess i still prefer it to be more 'private' and since tis blogspot is more personal to me,i decided ill post it here...hehe..

i anticipate the arrival of my holidays with hope i can have more to write about myself,my feelings and my thoughts...cheers!~=)

现在是凌晨12点20分。对我的室友来说，在这个时候看到我醒着算是一个奇迹吧…我也不清楚自己醒着的理由是什么，可能是我心里的情绪做怪吧。让每晚早睡的我，现在竟坐在电脑银幕面前，挞、挞、挞…随着手指在键盘上的摸索，不知觉得把我现在的情绪变成了文字。

到底是什么？是什么让我醒着？有点觉得我不应该在这样的夜晚坚决读完那本书——吴子云（或藤井树）的“寂寞之歌”。但在那时的我（即几小时前）虽然睡意渐有，却舍不得放下它，就这样眼睛半眯半开着地一口气把它看完了。看完了，灯灭了，心想说睡了…但糟糕我却睡不下了。心里老是在想着书里那几个句子，我想我能想象作者当时的心情吧~所以忽然之间，有所感触。回忆又像那微微的风，悄悄地在我心底深处掀起一阵小旋风，让我不得不去注意它。这时，我问我自己，为何我心会如此地忐忑？

那一霎那间，我有很多话想说。以前的种种回忆和当时的感觉也毫不客气地像多年不见的老朋友，一齐涌上心头。回想起当年所发生的一切，那算是初中和高中时期的少女情怀吧。我相信每个女生都希望能和自己喜欢的男生相遇、相知、相惜，在一生人只有一次的年少青涩中拥有一个浪漫甜蜜的爱情故事吧。（或许我这样的形容来虚幻了，感觉只有在现在的台湾偶像剧才会发生的事情。）但至少当时的我是这样想的。

当然，故事的发展并不是和我想的一样。那故事的男主角是出现了，就是我亲爱的翰。他是我的初恋。从相遇、相知到现今的相惜，这一路走来并不是那么顺利。我曾经以为他不再属于我的世界了。那时的我，在一大堆不清不楚的理由中，我努力地寻找说服自己放弃的借口，拼命地对自己说没事的、没事的。可是我到现在都忘不了那痛到心扉里的感觉。我想我这一辈子也忘不了吧。但我很珍惜这个感觉，因为就是这个感觉让我一夜之间“长大”了。

“对的，其实感情不就是这么简单的吗？

俩个人在相爱的时候分开，

那就是双方都有必须反省的地方…”

—— 吴子云

其实，今夜的我，不只是惦记着翰，想念着他。我心里也不曾忘记过在我生命中曾经和我分享岁月的“朋友”。我想要说…

伦，你在那儿还好吗？你的课程快读完了吧？我…我想说，谢谢你对我的好，对不起让你伤心了。我知道我现在说什么都没有用了，不小心摔破的杯，就算是多不小心，它还是破了。虽然很努力地将碎片接回，但却接不回裂痕，永远补不了的伤痕。你也已经在我心划了一条线，永远在我心深处留下一个值得珍惜的美丽回忆。我真心希望你会过得好。

祥，虽然我们在一起的时间很短，但是你还是在我生命中留下了脚印。或许那时的我们都还不清楚自己想要什么，但很感谢你的出现，也让我领悟到一些道理。我希望你能早日找到自己想要的目标，那个时候就不要轻言放弃了。加油！

翔，你还好吗？对我而言，你现在就像个陌生人。我有时都不知道我是不是真的是认识过你。事情的发生到现在也有两年了吧。我想你应该也有了自己的目标，过着自己的生活吧。不联络我是否是你要彻底忘了我的方法？可能吧。不管怎样，我也希望你是快乐的。

哇~说出了这些还真是舒畅了许多哦！我不知道别人会怎么想，但我觉得我不需要去在意。因为这是我的故事，这些都是我想说的。我真得很想告诉他们我心里的话。在此能和你们分享，是我的荣幸。也许有些话说出来会比憋在心里好很多吧！太多思绪的累积，如果没有适当的释放出来，会变成负担的。说出来也可能会得到意外的收获，感觉上自己又长大一点。哈…

我很感谢上天让我和翰有机会再次相惜。或许因为有些事情的发生才给了彼此这个机会吧。我们很珍惜它。现在的我们，过得很好。离开家乡到西马半岛求学的日子虽长，令我俩见面的时间也不多，但庆幸我们都知道只要心里有彼此，多远的距离都不是问题。这是真的。然而我不否认距离对我们不曾是问题，尤其在思念情绪泛滥的时、想第一时间与他分享感受的时候、失落想被爱人安慰和呵护的时候，这些“时候”就很容易变成了“距离的最佳利器”，一不小心都可能让一段感情成为无辜的牺牲者。所以我很用心地照顾它，而我也感受到翰的努力。谢谢你，亲爱的。谢谢你一路来的细心和爱，我都很珍惜。我们也一起走过不少的路，也一起长大了不少。我们继续一起加油吧！未来的日子还很长，但我相信有你陪我一起走，一定很美！我爱你。

现在是凌晨2时22分。

今夜，我失眠了。

2007年11月7日

"The LORD bless you and keep you;
the LORD make His face shine upon you
and be gracious to you;
the LORD turn His face toward you
and give you peace."
Numbers 6:24-26

One more week!!

Today ill be having my 4th paper-SPM1702 Multimedia Design.after this,2 more papers to go after i head for KL to sit for my JLPT 4. what a relief yesterday after i finished my SSG3573 Biological control paper.hehe..thank God. I can answered all the questions. at least im done for my 1st 3 credit subject. well, not to be too happy yet as i still got one more battle to fight.my SSP1223 paper-Modern Physics!!=p


will do my best!~cannot wait to start holidays!~hehe..to all my friends who have finished their finals,HApPiE hOlidays!!~ & to my best friend and buddies who start their final next week, All the bEst and giVe ur BesT pErfOrmance yea!!~im sure u all can do it!~Ganbatte kudasai!~ take care. C u guys wen im back! hugs!!~

LOVE

Love and magic have a great deal in common
They enrich the soul,
Delight the heart,
And they both take practise.

Tell me who admires you and loves you
and I will tell you who you are.

If you love something, let it go.
If it comes back, it's yours.
If it doesn't, it never really was in the first place.

Immatuire love says:"I love you because I need you"
Mature love says:"I need you becauses I love you"

Love doesnt consist in gazing in each other,
but in looking outwards together in the same direction.

You don't love a woman because she is beautiful,
but she is beautiful because you love her.

Love has nothing to do with what you are expecting to get,
it's what you are expected to give - which is everything.

To fear love is to fear life,
and those who fear life are already three parts dead.

We are born for love.
It is the pricnciple of existence and its only end.

Love doesnt make the world go'round.
Love is whar makes the ride worthwhile.

To love abundantly is to live abundantly,
and to love forever is to lie forever.

Love is love's reward.

so dear friends,don't be afraid to love...Love God like you love yourself and love your lover,family and friends...be loved and love others...take k and i love you all...

~Rainy days~

Finally,here i am, sitting in front of a desktop that allows me to online~ hmpff* im in my uni biggest computer lab (C.I.C.T.),just finished my 2nd paper (islam & isu-isu semasa)!~hehe..came out 15 minutes earlier since i had finished answering all th 80 MCQ~such a relief!~finally i can get all the facts out of my mind and start focusing on the other four subjects...tis is study life...we study and we exam...after exam we study again...it had been like tat since we step into school,well,for those who is working now,sure they will say "study life is the most enjoyable moment of life!!~once you start working,no more enjoy lor~so enjoy while you can!!~" really?.haha...however i think study and work,both have good and bad...which is which, i still dunnoe..so since im still studying..so..studying enjoys me!~haha...

my next paper is Bilogical Control which is on 16/11/2007 followed by Multimedia Software Design on 17/11/2007...aarrrr...10 more days before the 2 papers...thats mean 10 more days fer me to do revision..haha..guess there is ample of time if i really make full use of it...sure ill make full use of it since im staying in hostel and going nowhere...=.="..all i do in room is study and watch anime or cartoons..haha...(my favourite past time)..everyday almost the same...slept early and wake up early...life is really boring sometimes..how i wish i have wings and fly high up into the sky and feel so free and go wherever i want and fell the wind and....!!~~ahems*!~ (back to reality..that's not going to happen) wel,is nice to imagine things like tat sometimes...haha...blek!=p

Cold...is the word that is going around my mind all these days..is windy and rainy days in johor...it makes the days so gloomy and blue...but there is always rainbow after rain..is like telling me after exam, u wil have holidays..so cheer up!!~ do your best and great time awaits you!!! yea!! is true...im looking forward to finish my exam including my JLPT4 in kl and go home...i got so many plannings to carry out...haha...thinking of renovating my room, get a new colour for it...buddies' camping/gathering...haha...wonder who's the OC this time....oh yea!~i plan to organise 2nd 2003 Highians' Dinner!! anyone have any idea or suggestions??hehe...well..it excites me just thinking of all the things i can do after exam when i go home..yea..HOME~my favourite word...hehe...home sweet home!~

wow..happy thoughts make happy people...hehe...so happy to think of these...cannot wait to finish exam..so..HAI! GANBARIMASU!!~ must work harder and strive for the best!!! for all my friends having exam, relax yourself when u are stressed out...find your happy thoughts!!~list them out or shout them out...haha..believe me,it does give u a boost of energy!! after that,continue your hardwork and you will earn your fruits..hehe...all the best!~jia you!~

God bless~

Sunday 日曜日。かぞくのひ　Family day

The connection line really slow these few days..don't know what's the reason but it happens once a while..=.="...i cannot online,cannot chat,cannot read my mail,cannot surf net....bla bla bla...really annoying..finally the line was ok abit now..i quickly grab the chance to write something in my blog~

well..is 3rd Nov today..which means im going home in less than one month!~wahaha...i mus be home sick so seriously..haha...but hey,im sure everyone miss home here..especialy when we are "away" from home...like me!~=p

is Sunday!!~another family day...wow..how time flies..i remember writing in one of my blog also mentioning, Sunday Family day...hehe..today i am going to mass too..at the late evening...by the way,i am doing the 1st reading (in Mandarin) for today's mass...i have been attending Mandarin masses since im in UTM as most of the chinese students go for mandarin masses here..i always attend english mass in Kch,so it was quite "unfamiliar" for me to pray the prayers in mandarin..well,is God's house also..and now i am alrite,just still need to refer to the transparency to keep up with others...(i miss going to St. Peter's Catheral with my family every Sunday~)

is another beautiful Sunday!~ the sun shines softly and the breeze is so refreshing..is a beautiful sight from my apartment (9th floor) as i can see a wide range of view...i wonder if is the same lovely weather in Kuching...guess my family are on their way to mass now...while im here doing revision before sitting for my final examinations...

"Dear God, please bless my family with a great day and protect them from all danger and harm. Grant them peace and happiness in their heart and appreciate for being able to stay and live as a family. Dear God, please give me your strength and shower your blessing upon us so we can stay strong in love and faith. Love you God. Thank you. Amen~"

Have a lovely day everyone!!~ God bless...

Final GANBATTE KUDASAI!!! =)

Oct 31 Trick-or-Treat!~=p

Woke up aron 6a.m. this morning.It was a cold morning as it was raining through the night and drizzling in the morning..the sky was still gloomy and the sun is nowhere to be seen even when it's almost 8a.m...I'm trying my best to revise for my ULT (Islam & Isu-isu semasa)..but..duhh...how can i poosibly understand it with all the islamic words? i wondered...however,it is still one of the compulsory subject to take for all courses...what can i do?guess ill just continue my effort in reading through the main points and doing past years..God,please guide me...

My day was cool..had 3 hours JLPT4 class today made me concentrated with all my japanese grammars & vocabs!!~。。。あります。。。います。。。とても。。。ほんとに。。。trust me,there's lots more than this..i just got the past years for my JLPT4 paper and i am required to do it as homework and revision to strengthen my japanese grammar and vocabs and get me ready for my JLPT 4 in KL next month..guess,i must say to myself :idaさん、がんばってください!!(meaning, ida,do your best!!)=)

Today is Oct 31, is Halloween~ Boo!~well,it is obvious the event was not popular among Malaysians as you hardly see anyone dressed up in their halloween's costumes appearing at your doorway and shout "Trick-or-Treat?!~"..haha..however i am sure if anyone did that,many people wont understand the situation and might get a fright or even mistreat them thinking is a joke..hmm..i wondered what is the feeling of dressing up in funny and crazy costumes and going around the neighbourhood asking for sweets with a bunch of friends...haha..well,if there is a chance to experience..haha..why not?however it is not the culture here to celebrate Halloween..anyway...BoO!~haha..HaPpy Halloween everyone!~

Well,guess i better get back to my books..さむい(samui=cold)　ですね(desu ne)！is going to be another cold night..my dad said Kuching is also having rainy days...well..keep warm everyone..haf a pleasant evening.. God bless..

Love you mammie and papa..sis...miss u all...take k..

Life is like a Boat - Rie Fu

Nobody knows who i really am
I never felt this empty before
And i ever need someone to come along
Who's gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

dooku de iki o shiteru toomei ni natta mitai
kudayami ni omoe dakedo mekaku shisarete tadake

inori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

Nobody knows who i really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if i ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

hito no kokoro wa utsuriyuku mukedashiteku naru
tsuki wa mada atarashii shuuki de mune o tsureteku

And everytime I see you face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars and soon
I can see the shore

Oh,I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along
I will follow you and keep you strong

tabi wa mada tsuzuiteku odayakana hi mo
tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de ume o terashidasu

inori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made


And everytime I see you face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars and soon
I can see the shore

Unmei no huneoko gi nami wa tsugi kara tsuki e to watashi-tachi o sou kedo
Sore mo suteki na tabi ne, dore mo suteki na tabi ne

One of the ending song in Bleach...A very nice song...It touches my heart. Enjoy listen to it yea!!~=)

Clean can be funny too..haha..

i was reading through my emails and my attention was caught by one..happy laughing!~

One day, a man came home and was greeted by his wife dressed in a very Sexy nightie. 'Tie me up,' she purred, 'and you can do anything you want.' So he tied her up and went golfing.


A woman came home, screeching her car into the driveway, and ran into the house. She slammed the door and shouted at the top of her lungs, 'Honey, pack your bags. I won the lottery!'
The husband said, 'Oh my God! What should I pack, beach stuff or mountain stuff?'

'Doesn't matter,' she said. 'Just get out.'

Fifty-one years ago, Herman James, a North Carolina mountain man, was drafted by the Army. On his first day in basic training, the Army issued him a comb. That afternoon the Army barber sheared off all his hair. On his second day, the Army issued Herman a toothbrush. That afternoon the Army dentist yanked seven of his teeth. On the third day, the Army issued him a jock strap(an equipment for sport players to protect their private part). The Army has been looking for Herman for 51 years.

A wife was making a breakfast of fried eggs for her husband.
Suddenly, her husband burst into the kitchen. 'Careful,' he said, 'CAREFUL! Put in some more butter! Oh my gosh! You're cooking too many at once. TOO MANY! Turn them! TURN THEM NOW! We need more butter. Oh my gosh! WHERE are we going to get MORE BUTTER? They're going to STICK! Careful. CAREFUL! I said be CAREFUL! You NEVER listen to me when you're cooking! Never! Turn them! Hurry up! Are you CRAZY? Have you LOST your mind? Don't forget to salt them. You know you always forget to salt them. Use the! salt. USE THE SALT! THE SALT!'
The wife stared at him. 'What in the world is wrong with you? You think I don't know how to fry a couple of eggs?'

The husband calmly replied, 'I just wanted to show you what it feels like when I'm driving.'

Postponed?!again...

guess wad?my physics test was postponed till next tuesday mrg!well,is not totally bad about it but it sort of spoiled my planning.im going to have my Japanese final paper next thursday and xtra classes for JLPT4 on monday and wednesday..so i was very happy that i would be able to finish my physics revision then concentrate on Nihongo(Japanese)..but now...hhmmppff*

my coursemates and me reached the faculty at 8pm lasnight to be ready for the test at 830pm.however,we waited until 9pm and only saw our lecturer(empty-handed) approaching us..btw,this is not his 1st time to postpone the test!!haha..during test 1,our test was postponed a total of 4 times!! due to clashes with timetables,no rooms and etc..and this time, the person-in charge to unlock the lecture hall for our test didn't carry out his job..well,im not blaming him for the fault,just that i didn't expect that to happen in university level..what to do..=.="

so we went back to hostel..i was tired after doing my revision whole day and under the tension trying to do my best to score well in this test...so i decided to watch a movie..haha..cartoons definitely be my 1st choice.."stuart little 3"..is a nice cartoon movie(no human actors as in "stuart little 1")..after that,i went to bed..Zzzz...

Good Morning!~is a beautiful sunday in UTM..sunday..family day..miss my family~today is "nichi youbi" in nihongo,1st day of the my study week..hehe..well,im going to do my Nihongo revision!~have a lovely day everyone!~

God shines...=)

B.a.c.k to 1

I was looking through the posts i wrote...it had been quite sometimes since i last updated my blog...a year!!my last post was about my 20 yrs old birthday i celebrated in UTM..ha..and i just celebrated my 21st birthday back in Kuching...oh...i really should be writing something again(something in my heart urged me to do that)=)

so here i am,after changing my templates setting,altered a bit here and there,finally i am ready for my 1st post after a year of "silence"...haha..actually i didn quit blogging totally, i still continue to write new posts on friendster..however,i wrote it most in Mandarin...the line in my room finally back to "normal"..it was really annoying when the server is down and i cannot access internet...when tat happens,i will have to carry my notebook to my Uni library to online...normally i'll then stayed in the library for several hours until i decided to go back before i miss the last bus back to my hostel...that's life in Uni...=)

i reached UTM on tuesday morning after a 2 weeks break (for Hari raya) well spent in my hometown...before this break, i did went back to Kch for 5 days(postponed- actually was only 3days)to celebrate my GOdfather's 50th birthday..and of course mine to make the occasion more meaningful...it was a great dinner at S'wak club with all my uncles and aunties,my beloved grandpa and grandma,my family and most of all,my friends...it was my 1st time to be at club after the fire last year...the building was finally rebuilt and reestablished,very well decorated and there is this "frame of history" which displayed the fire in 2006...alrite,back to the dinner...my dad picked me from airport(my flight was delayed!) and we reached S'wak Club around 730pm..i was a bit tired as i was rushing to finish my assignments before this trip home..however,i was really happy to be home that moment!!i miss home and everyone so much...in addition,i was not feeling well at times..i guessed i wasnt getting enough rest due to collegue's activities and studies...in short,is GREAT to be home.=)

something happened one week before i went home that trip..i lost my wallet!=( so sad..all my cards(ic,atm card,cc) were gone...it was stolen when i was at JUSCO departmental store in tmn U..it was an unforgettable experience for me..to be in that "foreign" place,to be stuck in that situation...that feeling of helpless is really something life-experiencing..thank God i was calm enough to call my mum to cancel my cards and call my friend to accompany me to make report..Thank you C.K!thanks fer your help that day..haha..i dunnoe who to call but ur name was the one in my contact list that i know you are able to help me...thank God,nothing serious happened to me..i thought..the thief may have targeted me to snatch or do something bad to me,but it was only my wallet that is long gone...so i was thanking God for that...after everything settled that evening,guess what..i rushed back to get dressed in sari because i was the MC for the "Malam Kebudayaan" of my collegue(hostel)..haha...glad it went smooth and wonderful feedbacks from others..thank God again...

since then,i never went to JUSCO so far..haha..Jusco-phobia??i guess not..but that incident made me more caution and in another way,it made me saved more money..haha..as i was lazy to go out,i spent less money...haha..every bad thing that happened gives u something good in return i guessed..hehe..=p

well well.how time flies...i went back to UTM again to haf another 1 and half weeks lectures and back home again!!!haha...that feeling kept me excited for the whole week before going home the 2nd time...and now,here i am, sitting in front of my study desk,writing all these out as im back for my final week lecture and preparation for my finals....

as for today,im doing my final revision for my modern physics test 2 tonite...after that,im going to concentrate on my japanese2 as my final paper for jap2 is next thursday..then..it will be going on and on until my last paper on 21/1/2007 ,fundamental of pedagogy....hehe...however,holiday just dont start there...im taking my JLPT4 (japanese language proficiency test level 4) in UPM,KL on 2/12/2007(kim ching's 21st birthday..haha..) there is still 2 more extra classes fer me on 26 & 27/11/2007 to make myself more prepared for JLPT 4...at that time,i will be speaking japanese,reading japanese,eat and sleep like japanese!!haha..will do my best to score excellent in JLPT 4!

wow..how nice to write out all these!! i will continue to write new post and keep ya all update of me k(as long as the line is ok)...hehe..fer now,take k and for my frens in UTM,study hard fer ur finals and all the best!! my frens in Kuching and everywhere,keep smilling and live ur life to the fullest!!~God bless..